Suicide Note

A month and two days before my 16th birthday, I think I got the shitty deal. Most girls have a sweet 16 but my birthday was anything but sweet, just thinking about it makes me want to through up.

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It was the weekend and I was planning on having a relaxing weekend out in my back garden with a good book. Then my phone buzzed in my pocket, it was my boyfriend Gerard texting me. Things have gotten better for me ever since I started dating Gee, people leave me alone although my mum hasn't changed I want to go to school more, everyone is nice to me.

'Hey babe, can u do something for me? Xx' Gerard's text read and I smiled to myself, he was perfect.
'And what would that thing be?' I texted back. My phone buzzed again. Any smile left on my face slid away.
'Can you send me a pic of u flashing? I won't show any 1 I promise.' Well I can trust Gerard I know that. I walk back inside the house and up to my room.
'Okay, just wait.' I pressed send and took a picture of my showing my tits an pouting. Guys like it when girls pout.
I sent the photo and headed outside once more.

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You see I thought I could trust Gerard, but obviously I couldn't because when I arrived at school on my birthday, my whole world shattered and by that moment I didn't want to live anymore.

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Today was my birthday, I was actually looking forward to it since I could spend it with Gee. I entered the school and all of the students pointed and laughed at me, taped to every locker was my picture that I sent to Gerard, people shouted ,"slut!" And, "whore!" At me, Gerard broke my trust, I ran out of the school and back home. Straight up to my room and I got my blade.

"I thought I wouldn't ever use you again." I said between sobs, dragging the blade across my wrists and thighs, carving the words 'never trust anyone.' Into my thigh and watching the blood spill out, I don't want to live in this world anymore maybe the next life will have it better for me. I said walking to the bathroom.

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That was my failed suicide attempt it seems like my mother actually wanted me to be alive, I stopped going to school after that day, I stopped eating. I just sat in my room thinking about how much I hate the world and I wanted to die, when I turned 17 I knew it was my time to go.

Notes

We have two chapters of this story left my lovelies <3

Sorry for making Gerard a asshole. It needed to happen

This chapter made me cry :'(

- xoxo B