The Hardest Part Is Letting Go Of Your Dreams

When I finally drag myself out of the shower I go into the kitchen to see Frank and Ruby sitting at the table eating pizza. "Za daddy" Ruby chirps, holding her piece out to me. "Wow baby is it yummy?" She nods her head before taking another little bite and chewing. As I walk past her I lean down and press a kiss to the top of her head before going into the fridge and getting a bottle of water. "You want some juice baby?" I ask and Ruby says "Juice please daddy" so I grab her sippy cup and pour her some juice. I sit the cup on the table and Ruby smiles up at me before taking it in both hands and having a drink. I gently stroke the top of her head and when Frank opens his mouth to speak I walk from the room, not interested in anything he has to say. I go into the bedroom and lay on the bed, closing my eyes and wishing I was still at Williams. Thinking about William is making me hard and I check to see I closed the door before I climb under the covers and pull my half hard dick out. I start to stroke it, getting myself fully hard before I work up a rhythm, jerking myself off as my eyes slip shut and I let the memories of fucking William run through my mind. "Oh fuck" I whimper out quietly as I swipe my thumb over the head of my dick, collecting precum and using it to slick up my movement. I feel a tight tingling burn in my lower stomach and I know I'm close. My hips start bucking up, fucking into my fist and I bite my lip to stifle my
moan of Williams name as I cum all over my fist. I slump back against the mattress below me as I come down, a lazy smile spread over my face. I climb out of bed and find a dirty tshirt on the floor in the corner so I use it to wipe my hand off before climbing back into bed. A few minutes later I hear a small knock against the door before the doorknob rattles and the door opens, Ruby standing there in her pyjamas, her hair damp and her teddy in her hand. "Daddy" she calls out into the darkened room and I say "Yeah baby" and she toddles over and climbs up on the bed with me. "Daddy ok?" She asks and I force a weak smile back to my lips as I pull her to my
chest and say "Yeah daddy's ok baby." Ruby snuggles into my
side and lets out a big yawn. "You tired Rubes?" I ask and she nods her head, rubbing her face into my shirt before stilling and I lay in silence, listening to her breathing slow and become even as she falls asleep. When she starts to softly snore I slide out of bed and go into the bathroom and wash my hands before going back to the bedroom and sliding back into bed, cuddling Ruby close and burying my face in her hair as I let myself cry again, my heart broken thinking about what Frank did to me yet again. I try to muffle my sobs, not wanting to wake Ruby but I fail and I let out one loud wailing sob as I feel my heart shatter and Ruby stirs and her eyes open. "Don't cry daddy" she says as she pats my cheek and it just makes me cry harder, my sobs growing louder as I struggle for breath. Ruby embeds herself into my chest, clinging to me as she starts to cry too. "Shh Shh baby don't cry" I choke out between tears, pulling her back from my chest and gently
wiping under her eyes with my thumb, clearing away her tears. Her tears die down a little and I hear the bedroom door creak open further before the bed dips behind me and I feel arms wrap around me, Frank pulling me and Ruby against his chest and I turn my head, burying my face in Franks neck as another sob escapes me.

The next morning I wake up face to face with Frank, Ruby gone but I hear the tv playing a cartoon theme song in the living room. Franks arm is wrapped tight around my waist, holding me against him. I lay there staring at him, feeling my bottom lip quiver as I struggle to hold back tears again. I hear small footsteps in the hallway before Ruby comes into the room and I turn my head to look at her. "Daddy I'm hungwy" she says and I sigh and slide out of bed, stumbling across the room and scooping Ruby into my arms, carrying her to the kitchen and sitting her on the bench. "What would you like baby?" I ask and she says "Can we have eggs daddy?" I smile and nod before pecking her on the end of the nose and
making her giggle. I grab her a cup of water before saying "Ok baby girl be careful and go watch your cartoons again and daddy will make eggs." She nods and I lift her down off the bench and watch her toddle across the room and out into the hallway. I turn around and open the fridge and just as I reach for the eggs arms snake around my waist and cause me to jump. "Sorry baby" Frank chuckles as I grab the eggs and
straighten up, Frank pressing a soft kiss to the back of my shoulder. I shrug out of his hold and walk to the bench and sit the eggs down. "Babe, come on" he says as he crowds me against the bench. "Come on what?" I snap and Frank grips
my hip and spins me around, cupping my face in his hands. "I'm sorry ok. For everything I said and did yesterday I'm sorry. But fuck babe you fucking ran to William when things got tough? That really fucking hurts." "I didn't run to anyone, I was so fucking upset that you think I'm a bad parent, which by the way I felt fucking terrible hitting her like that but what else was I meant to do? But I didn't run to anyone, I was walking around upset and I ended up near the coffee shop and I went in, I didn't know he'd be there or if he even still worked there. And I'm glad I ran into him because otherwise where else would I have gone after you beat me, yet again?" Franks face pales and he says "Baby I'm sorry." "I know, you already said that" I spit out and he frowns before leaning in and sealing his lips to mine. I resist for a minute but when his tongue swipes over my bottom lip I give in and open my mouth, kissing back. We slide our tongues together as I slide my hands up and tangle them in Franks hair and his arms slide around to grip the back of my thighs and he lifts me up onto the bench, stepping closer inbetween my legs. I give in and wrap my legs around his waist and pull him even closer, our crotches just at the right height to rub against each other. I feel Franks dick hardening through the thin material of our pyjama pants and he groans into my mouth and pulls away and says "Fuck that feels great baby" so I buck forward and increase the friction and pressure. "Mmm" he groans before his mouth slides down and attaches to my neck. "Ahh babe" I groan out as I feel him bite and suck, giving me a hickie. When he pulls off he smirks and leans in to kiss me again and just as our tongues meet again and I slide forward and thrust against him his hand slides down my back and into my pants. He lifts me off the bench and takes a step away from the bench, slamming my back into the fridge next to where we were and his hand slides further into my pants, his finger trailing around my hole. "Oh fuck" I groan out as we kiss, the kiss turning harder and biting. "Daddy where are my eggs?" Ruby's voice rings out in the room and we break apart, me glad that Franks back is to her so she can't see where his hand was and he lowers me to the floor. "Almost ready baby" I pant out and she toddles off again and Frank chuckles into my neck. "Fuck babe" he pants out before he pulls away and smiles at me. I can't help but smile back and I let my eyes drift down his body, taking in his erection tenting his pants and the wet patch on them. "Maybe you should go take care of that while I make eggs" I tell him and he smirks and says "I'll be thinking about you" before winking and leaving the room. I turn around, still smiling and get to work on breakfast, willing my erection away.

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