The Hardest Part Is Letting Go Of Your Dreams

When I wake up I feel like I'm on fire. I open my eyes and see Frank pressed into my front, his face just an inch from mine, snoring softly and I feel Bert still behind me, his arm around my waist holding me to him, pressing soft little kisses across the back of my neck and shoulder. I sigh and Bert's kisses stop for a second as he realises I'm awake before they start again. "You ok Gee?" Bert whispers against my skin and I yawn before whispering "Yeah I just feel a little weak and light headed." Bert's hand around me starts gently stroking my bare stomach as he says "You'll be ok. How about I get you something to drink?" I nod and he presses one last kiss on my shoulder before sliding out of the bed and I watch him go. I turn my head back to look at Frank and his eyes are open. His hand comes up to stroke his fingers across my cheek as he says "I love you so much babe. Thank you for last night. Are you alright?" I smile and whisper "I love you too, anything to make you happy baby. I think I'll be alright I just feel a little shaky still." Franks arm wraps around my waist as he pulls
me into his chest where I burrow my face into his neck and hum in contentment. A few moments later I feel a soft pressure on my ankle and when I pull away and look down Bert is standing there holding a glass of juice. "Sugar will help Gee" he says softly as he hands me the glass. I sit up and take it, putting it to my lips and taking a sip while I reach out
my other hand and grab Bert's hand in mine. I squeeze as I pull the glass from my lips and say "Thanks Bert." He smiles at me before glancing at Frank and saying "So I'll give you guys some space" and pulling his hand from mine, walking out of the room. When I finish my juice I sit the glass on the table and climb back over into Franks arms, him pulling the blanket over our naked bodies and we snuggle, sharing soft slow kisses for what seems like hours.
Later that afternoon we finally drag ourselves out of bed and get dressed in comfy sweatpants and each other's shirts, inhaling the others scent on the clothing. While we sit at the kitchen bench eating lunch I say "So was last night everything you wanted?" Frank looks over at me and smiles as he says "It was amazing but not as good as when it's just you and me." I smile back and he says "Although, watching you get fucked by Bert was something I thought would kill me but i
gotta say, you guys look so fucking hot together. I wouldn't mind watching that again some time when I'm less distracted."
I feel myself blush hard as I look down at the bench and Frank chuckles before reaching out and holding my hand. "I love you babe" he says and I smile and look back up at him. "I love you too."

A few days later while Frank is at his therapy session Bert and I settle onto the couch and play his Xbox for a while. I'm just about to kill him in the game when he tackles me sideways, pinning me to the couch and digging his fingers into my sides causing me to laugh and squirm. "Bert stop" I gasp out and he just tickles me harder and I buck around under him, causing us to both fall off the couch onto the floor. I try to squirm away but he has a firm hold on me and the next thing I know his lips are against mine. We lay on the floor sharing a soft kiss for a few minutes and I tangle my fingers in his hair. When we break apart to breathe we smile at each other before leaning in for one more peck and pulling ourselves off the floor, settling back on the couch and Bert turns the Xbox off and puts on a movie. I shuffle around, pulling my legs up and getting comfy before Bert holds his arm out and I snuggle into his side, resting my head on his shoulder as he wraps the arm around me, resting his hand on my hip. A few minutes into the movie Bert reaches over and flicks off the lamp, leaving the room dim with the blinds closed and we settle in to watch the
movie. The next thing I know I'm being shaken awake and when I open my eyes I'm still snuggled into Bert's side and he's shaking me lightly saying "Babe Franks home now, wake up." I sit up and rub my eyes and when I pull my hands away Frank walks into the room and sits beside me, smiling over at me and saying "Hey sleepy head. I missed you" and pulling me into his side instead. By the end of the movie I am laying across the couch, my head in Franks lap and my feet in Bert's, Bert gently rubbing my feet like he used to after I'd had a hard day at work. I sigh in contentment and let my mind wander with thoughts of how perfect my life would be if I could somehow have both of them for real.

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