The Hardest Part Is Letting Go Of Your Dreams

"You've got to be fucking kidding me" I hear Frank snap behind me and I turn my head to look at him. His face is pure rage but his eyes are still my Frankie's and I turn my whole body to face him. "Babe" I say but he cuts me off by shouting a "Fuck you" at me and Bert and storming out of the house. I turn back to Bert and he slowly stands up, taking a step towards me. "Babe I love you and you love me too. Last night was so fucking perfect and we belong together, we both know it." I sigh and shake my head, unable to meet his gaze as I say "Bert I'm sorry but I can't say yes." I hear the box snap shut right before it is thrown across the room, smashing through the screen on the tv. "FUCK" I hear Bert scream right before he shoves past me and leaves the house, slamming the door behind him. I stand there in shock before what just happened sets in and I crumple to the floor, sobbing my eyes out. I had both of them and now they're both gone and I have no idea where they went. I'm worried about Frank because he has no where else to go and I have no idea where to look for him. I'm worried about Bert too, I hurt him so badly and I feel like the worst person in the world but atleast he has other people he can go to. When I can breathe again I pick myself up off the floor and stumble out the door, roaming the streets looking for Frank.
After a few hours I give up and walk to Mikey's house, needing someone to comfort me. I knock on the door and when it opens I come face to face with Mikey's girlfriend. When she sees the state I'm in she screams out for Mikey and just as he runs into view I collapse on the doorstep, sobbing so hard I can't breathe. Mikey helps me up and brings me into the living room. "Gee calm down. Tell me what's going on." I take a few deep shuddering breaths before I blurt out everything that happened and by the end I'm sobbing again. "I don't even know where he is and I hurt them both so badly Mikes." Mikey shakes his head before sitting on the coffee table infront of me and grabbing my hands in his. "Gee, Frank was here before. He's gone back home now. He didn't tell me what was wrong but he said you guys had a problem and he needed time away from you. I sent him home to talk to you. I'll drive you home ok, you guys can sort it out." I nod and sniffle as we get up and on the way out the door Mikey's girlfriend wraps her arms around my waist and she says "I'm sorry Gerard. It will all work out."

When I get home the house is in darkness. I walk into the living room and turn on the light but I wish I hadn't. Not only is the tv smashed but the room is completely trashed. The couches are turned over and everything is smashed in pieces on the floor. The only thing that remains unbroken is the ring sitting in its open again box in the middle of the floor. I back out of the room and walk into my bedroom and see Frank huddled on the floor in the corner with his knees pulled up to his chest, sobbing his heart out. The walls have holes all in them and when I look back at Frank his hands are swollen and busted open, bleeding everywhere. "Fuck babe" I gasp out, crossing the room and dropping to my knees infront of him. Franks head snaps up and he stares at me wide eyed and says "You're not with him?" I shake my head and say "No. I said no babe, of course it was a no. I'm with you." His tears slowly stop and I gently help him off the floor and into the bathroom where I sit him on the bench beside the sink as I dig out the first aid kit. Once his hands are cleaned and bandaged I help him down and as we leave the bathroom I hear a yelled out "What the fuck is this shit?" I race into the living room with Frank behind me and Bert is standing there looking beyond angry and I can smell the alcohol on him. He ignores me as his eyes lock onto Frank and he charges towards him screaming out "It's bad enough you stole the fucking love of my life and you don't even fucking deserve him. You hurt him constantly and I have I sit back and just watch it because he begs me to not hurt you or report you. He fucking rejected me for you but now you've trashed my fucking house. I'm fucking done with you" before pinning him to the wall with one hand around his throat and he raises his other fist ready to punch him.

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