The Hardest Part Is Letting Go Of Your Dreams

I melt back into Bert's touch and start gently rocking into his hand, chasing the friction. Our lips collide again and I don't want to fight this any longer. I tug on his shirt and he leans back and pulls it off before sliding mine off me, throwing them across the room. When we lean back into each other my body is shivering with pleasure and desire but my mind is screaming at me to stop. I pull away and pant out "Bert we really shouldn't." He nods and looks disappointed before I pull in a deep breath and say "Maybe we should try this" before sliding my pants down and wrapping my hand around my own dick, stroking a few times. "We can still get off, just not from each other." Bert nods and pulls his own pants down and we roll over to face each other again stroking ourselves and occasionally bumping hands, our eyes taking in each other's bodies and movements and getting off on it. I lean in and reattach our lips and Bert lets out a filthy moan into my mouth. I pull away and groan, stopping the movement of my hand momentarily and just watching him jack himself while his hips buck up to meet his fist. My breathing becomes more irratic and lust takes over my brain and before I know what I'm doing I slide down and slap his hand away, replacing it with my mouth. I slide down and take him into the back of my throat and Bert throws his head back panting out "Fuck I've missed this." I work him in my mouth for a few minutes getting him slick before pulling off with a loud obscene pop. Bert groans and pushes me back, pinning me to the bed as he grabs my thighs, forcing my legs apart and nibbling on my inner thighs, knowing this drives me crazy. As his mouth works it's way higher his hands slide up and circle my nipples and I am in pure pleasure, Bert knowing exactly what drives me wild. His tongue gently circles my hole before he starts fucking me with his tongue, getting my hole slicked up before pulling away and kneeling between my legs, gripping my thighs and pushing them up towards my chest before spitting on my hole and working it around with his finger, sliding it in and out a few times before lining up and thrusting into me, hitting my prostate with the right angle the first try. I turn my head to the side and groan out into the blanket to try and muffle myself as I writhe underneath him, begging him to move and fuck me senseless. "I still know all your sweet spots babe" Bert moans out and it makes me even harder hearing his voice all low and husky like that and when he starts fucking me with no mercy, driving in and out hard all thoughts of Frank leave my mind and my dick is achingly hard and leaking all over my stomach. "Ahh Bert fuck" I groan out as he continues to work himself straight into my prostate and I can't hold back any longer. "I'm so close" I moan out and Bert increases his pace and goes as deep as he can causing me to buck up against him and he leans down over me and says "Cum with me baby, we're gonna cum together like we always do" before reaching down and grabbing my leaking dick. "Look at you leaking so much for me babe. You dirty fucking slut, you were so desperate for my cock weren't you" Bert hisses out and I lose it, closing my eyes and pushing my ass further onto his dick, letting go and cumming so hard I black out for a moment. When I open my eyes Bert pulls out gently and lays back on the bed, pulling me into his arms and laying me on his chest. I cuddle into him, still shaking from my oragasm and he just holds me close, stroking my back and whispering into my ear "Fuck that was so great babe. Missed you so much, we were always so perfect together. I love you so fucking much it hurts, you have no idea how much I need you."
When I come down I slide off his chest and lay beside him and he reaches out and links our fingers together. I roll my head to look at him and he smiles before leaning over and kissing me, just a sweet simple peck on my lips before pecking the tip of my nose and pulling away again. I smile at him and squeeze his hand, feeling completely relaxed and happy. After a few minutes we get up and redress before climbing into bed again and Bert cuddles me into his side. We lay in the dark, enjoying the silence so I lean over and link my fingers with his free hand and rest them on his chest, over his heart like I used to when we were together. "I love you Gee" he whispers, shattering the silence, "I love you too Bert" I whisper and it dawns on me that I can't keep doing this and I need to choose between Bert and Frank. I close my eyes, exhausted, and decide to just sleep on it for now. I'm just about to drift off when I hear Bert whispering "I love you so much Gee and I never told you exactly how much but now you're asleep I can be a pussy about it and admit it to you. I know it's too late for you and me but fuck I can't shake you. I need you in my life so fucking badly and I can't ever imagine not loving and needing you, I can't imagine loving anyone else ever and even though I hurt you and left you, I had a ring babe. I was gonna ask you to be mine forever the day everything fell apart and I regret not doing it. I should have just sucked it up and asked you and now I can't ever ask you and get that chance with you but I have the ring, and I'll keep it forever as a reminder of what we could have had." I try to keep calm and keep my breathing even as this information floods my brain and I fall asleep with my thoughts swirling about what I should do.

The next morning I wake up early with Bert's arms wrapped around my waist and his chest pressed to my back. I gently slide my way out so I don't wake him before turning back and pulling the blanket over him, stroking his hair back from his face and kissing his forehead. When I leave the room I go into the kitchen and sigh in relief that Frank isn't up yet. I make a pot of coffee before leaving it and walking into my bedroom to see Frank still sleeping, cuddling a spare pillow, his face pulled into a frown in his sleep. I walk over and gently climb onto the bed, pulling the pillow from his arms and sliding my body under his arm. He stirs slightly as I cuddle up to him and when his eyes open he smiles at me before wrapping his arms around me properly and pressing his lips to mine. Everything we need to say to each other is expressed in that kiss and when we pull apart we lay there, our noses barely an inch apart just staring into each other's eyes. Franks eyes leave mine after a minute and search my face and his smile drops when he sees my banged up face. "Oh babe" he whispers, reaching one hand up and lightly trailing his fingers over my bruises. I reach up and pull his hand away, linking our fingers together and bringing them back down to our side. "I love you so much" he says and I smile before leaning in and kissing him again, not sure if I want to say it back. He doesn't seem to notice or mind and he kisses me back for a few minutes before I pull away and say "I made coffee." Franks face splits into a grin again as he pulls me out of bed and wraps his arms around me, ushering me towards the kitchen.

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