Don't tell mom

Gerard pov

I watched frank and Colin on the floor for however long it took my drugged up mind to realize that I didn't want to see my boyfriend doing that anymore.
I stood up and began to walk away. "yo gee where you heading?" Some kid I didn't know the name of asked. I'm sure frank told me but I wasn't paying attention.

"Beer run." I lied "I'll be back." I said taking one last look at frank who's tongue was still down Colin's throat.

It didn't really bother me that frank was kissing someone else. What really bothered me was that once he realized he 'cheated' on me the next day I'd have to deal with all his sorry's and attempts to make it up to me.

I knew it would basically just be him crying and asking for forgiveness then make up sex but I just wasn't in the mood to deal with sappy frank.

I was more concerned about my brother and ray spending the night together. No matter how hard I tried I couldn't get that damn phone call out of my head.

The I love you's and what if we did get caught from ray were eating my insides. I wandered threw the party not really paying attention to anyone. I basically just saw people kissing and taking pills.

Pills weren't my forte. I drink and I will take pills just not from a party with people popping shit they don't know anything about. They could be taking fucking baby Motrin and think they're high. I only took what frank gave me because I didn't want to turn him down in front of his friends.

I finally managed to make my way to the third floor with all the bedrooms. I just wanted to lay down and wait for frank to pass out so I could drag his ass home.

I found an empty one that didn't look totally trashed and locked the door.
I had just laid down when I heard the sound of someone puking. I noticed a door to the side of the room and figured it must be an attached bathroom.

I opened the door to check on the poor kid who probably took way to many pills. "Hey kid are you okay? you need any- wait mikey!?" I yelled when I saw my little brothers face.

"Fuuuck don't yell gee! My head hurts like ass." He mumbled. Why was mikey here and why was he drunk? I didn't even know he drank....or smoked? He smelled like cigarettes and it wasn't like he had been around smoke it was like he had just smoked two packs non stop kind of smell.

"Mikey you're wasted."

"And you're a bitch." He said before coughing into the toilet a little more.

"mikey come on stand up." I said dragging him to his feet. I managed to sit him on the bed and put a trash can near him incase he needed to puke again.

"Who'd you even come here with?" I asked

"Raymond fuckin toro." He laughed still a little hazy.

of fucking course he's here with that asshole.

"Where's ray now?"

"Hmmmm.....I don't know he was in here with me but he must've left after" mikey said trying to remember.

"After what?"

"What? Oh yeah ray... sorry after we y'know popped shit and shit? I think."

"Mikey you're not making any sense."

"And your making me horny."

What. did he really just say-

"gee kiss me." He whined grabbing my shirt and pulling me forward. He stuck his lips to mine and all I could taste was smoke but I didn't care. My brother was kissing me. It was like a dream come true but I had to stop him. I backed away and looked him in the eye.

"Mikey you're drunk don't kiss me."

"But I want to kiss you." He stated. "I've always wanted to kiss you so why don't you quit talking and just go with it."

"Because your drunk or on something right now and I don't want you to regret any stupid decisions. Mikey I'm not going to give into what drunk you wants only to have it blow up and you not even remember, which would make me feel like shit."

"Gee I'll remember trust me." He said then attacked me with his lips. I was shocked and didn't want to stop it but when my back hit the bed and he climbed on top of me I shoved him off my lips.

"Mikey your not with it stop. I'm your brother."

"I don't give a shit gee. I love you." He said then went to try and kiss me again but I stopped him. "Mikey this is wrong."

Mikey just stared at me before he reached down and grabbed me through my pants. "Shit mikey stop!"

"But you like it!" He whined

"no!"

"why not? We both want it and shit or something." He said still obviously buzzed which meant there was no way to get through to him

He began to kiss me and grind down on me. at this point I didn't want to hold back so I didn't. I let him touch me and I touched back. I kissed him while he rubbed me and when he started unbuckling my pants I undid his.

He grabbed me and I moaned out "fuck mikey."

"Gerard your so fucking hot. Frank gets to see you like all the time I'm jealous. Your so gorgeous."

"fuck I'm jealous ray gets to see you-shit mikey please that feels so good." I moaned rolling my hips up into his hand.

"ray doesn't get to see me just you baby. Your mine." He said kissing me roughly.

"Fuck mikey this is so wrong."

"But you love it." He smirked. "Love me touching you down there. Gee you're so hard it's insane. fuck that's hot."

"Mikey please." I begged

"fuck I wanna see you." He said grabbing my shirt and pulling it off over my body. He began kissing down my torso and then he sat back up rocking against me and moaning.

I began grabbing at his shirt and he got the message. He ripped it off and then I screamed. "Oh my god mikey! What happened?!"

His stomach is completely gone, completely concaved in and his ribs and hips were jutting out sharply. I covered my mouth with my hand and stared at my brothers body. He looked sick like he hadn't eaten in months.

"don't you like it baby. I did it for you."

"Mikey what the hell! What's wrong?! Are you okay?"

"I'm fine. I lost the weight to look better... don't you like it?" He asked sounding hurt.

"mikey you're so thin.... it's scary."

"It's not scary it's just being fit." He argued

"mikey you look like your dying. What happened?"

"You-you really don't like it? I did it for you Gerard? your supposed to love it and love me!" He yelled starting to tear up.

he did it for me? "mikey what are you talking about-"

"no shut up!" He yelled climbing off of me. "You can go fuck frank since his body is good enough for you and mines not! I haven't eaten in almost two weeks and you don't even fucking like it! You're a jack ass! Have fun with frank you two deserve each other!" He spat at me before stumbling to the door

"mikey wait!"

"No I'm going to find ray! Cause apparently he's the only one I'm good enough for and doesn't hate me!" he screamed before leaving.

What the hell happened to my little brother.

Notes

Long time no see. Sorry for grammar I'll fix it later!
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