It's a not so secret, secret

"Nate come on dinners ready." Dad called from downstairs.

I put my phone down since I was still texting billie and placed it in my pocket. I made my way downstairs quietly and sat down at my normal seat.

"You okay?" Gee asked giving me a concerned glance

I nodded. "Fine."

He looked at me suspiciously but let it drop. He set my plate down in front of me which had chicken and sometype of vegetable mix on it.

i began eating without waiting for dad and gee to join me and I remained quiet until I had finished eating. I could see dad and gee glancing at me and then to each other the whole time but I ignored it.

"I'm done." I said standing up to leave.

"Nate wait." Dad called.

"Yea?"

"Sit down bud." Gee said.

"Why? I'm done." I said stating the obvious.

"Sit down." Dad said so I did. "What's wrong?"

"Nothing's wrong Gee already asked me that too? Why do I like something's wrong?" I asked even though I knew I probably looked nervous. I had never snuck out or even really lied to my dads before so I was internally freaking out about tonight.

"Yea you look sick, like really pale and stuff....you took your meds right?" Dad asked.

"Yes I took the fucking meds! I'm fine!" I somewhat yelled at him and than ran back up to my room.


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dad and dad had come up to my room multiple times and I just kept telling them to go away. Eventually they did but I could hear them talking in the room through the walls.

"Why is he so mad at me gerard? What did I do?"

"Shh baby you didn't do anything okay."

"Then whys he keep getting mad at me gee! I didn't try to make him upset."

"I know Frankie I know but he's probably just mad about us making him go to that group therapy. He didn't wanna go so now he's gonna be mad. Frank just leave him be for the night and I'm sure tomorrow he'll be fine okay?"

"Okay gee." I heard dad say and then silence as they probably started to watch to tv or some shit. I looked at the clock. 11:30.

I took an old bookbag and threw shit I thought I might need such as extra clothes phone charger and some of my medicines incase.

-hey I'm coming now it's not to early is it?

•someone's eager;) but no it's fine.

-shut up you know what I meant douche bag.
I replied jokingly and then climbed out my window after making sure my door was locked.

I climbed down the wall to the bottom level of my house and then jumped onto the ground. I took out my phone and entered billies address into the gps and began walking.

i ended up at a small house and knocked. Billie opened the door and smiled.

"hey come on in."
I followed him until we reached a living room.

"Wanna watch a movie until the others show? They have all the good shit with them."

I nodded and he put on cabin in the woods and then sat on a couch and patted the spot next to him. I set my bookbag down and sat next to him. He grabbed a blanket and draped it over us then he wrapped an arm around me and pulled me closer until I was leaning into his side.

"you comfy?" He asked.

I nodded even though I was a bit uncomfortable being this close to him. The movie started and at one point these two girls kiss as a part of truth or dare.

"I don't understand why it's hot when girls do it but not when boys do it."

I nodded in agreement and he looked at me. "Have you ever kissed anyone?"

"No."

"Really?"

"I told you I don't have friends let alone a boy or girlfriend."

"Do you want to kiss someone?" He asked and I was a bit taken back that he was so blunt about it.

"I mean I guess yea eventually." I answered awkwardly.

"I'll kiss you right now if you want." He said. I looked at him and he didn't seem like he was lying or anything and he'd been calling me cute all day but I'd never met someone so straightforward.

"What?"

"I'll kiss you if you want me too. It's an offer. You want to kiss someone why not me?" He said.

I guess I was staring at him for a while but I wasn't expecting him to lean in and kiss me to brake me out of my trance. He kissed me softly and placed a hand on the back of my head. I kissed back not knowing how to but I still tried. He smiled against my lips and tried putting his tongue into my mouth.

I was actually enjoying the kiss so I let him. he slid it into my mouth and mingled it with mine rubbing it all over my mouth.
we kept for a while until a doorbell broke us out of our make out session.

Billie pulled back and smiled but went to answer the door. "Hey guys come in I have someone I want you to meet."

Notes

Yep that happened
i didn't have a chance to spell check sorry

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