It's a not so secret, secret

Nathan's pov

i ran home crying after school.

I decided to go into school just so I wouldn't be constantly watched over by my dads. Plus not being there in three weeks because of suspension and billie made me at least want to see what I had missed.

I had a fairly normal day up until right before lunch. My teacher was having us watch a movie so I had to leave. A kid 'accidentally' left his foot out in the aisle when I walked out and I face planted.

Everyone laughed and it made me feel horrible. I still hadn't managed to make a god damn friend in the whole place and really my only 'friend' was billie.

The whole day the thought of him bugged me. I felt like I was alone again even though I knew I was way better off without him.

The bad part of my day happened during gym. I normally don't go to gym and if I do I just sit in the bleachers, but because of my medical condition and the coaches stupidity I never have to do anything I don't want to. I decided to just go and sit today but I also decided that I'd rather be in gym shorts and a t shirt instead of skinnies and a tee while sitting. As i was changing someone was playing music on thier phone and the sound was making my head throb. I hadn't taken my medication that morning or any of it the day before so I knew I was screwed.

I tried to change fast so I could leave the noise but someone stopped me mid change.

"Holy shit the quiet kid got some action!" Someone said pointing at my back.

I hated when people referred to me as the quiet kid because if they actually tried to talk to me I wouldn't be so quiet.

"Shut up." I said quietly.

"It speaks!" Another boy said.

"god how's he get laid and not me?" I heard someone say to their friend.

I felt tears forming because all I could think was 'I didn't choose to get laid'
my head was hurting and I hated the music making it hurt. "Can you please turn that off?" I asked to the boy holding his phone.

"Why?"

"My head hurts." I said quietly. A lot of people don't know about my seizures because I normally leave the room if I can or prevent them by staying away from all lights and sounds.

"dude this songs awesome though listen!" The boy said.

personally I didn't give a shit as to wether the song was good or not it was hurting my head. I tried to cover my ears but the boy just turned up the volume and when I had to change my pants I had to uncover my ears.

Thats when it happened.

I had a full out seizure and hit my head on the lockers.i only know that happened because when I woke up I couldn't remember even the slightest amount of my seizure, and I normally can remember at least half of what happened.

Plus my mouth had blood in it which meant I bit my tongue again. I stood up slowly and rinsed my mouth out. My tongue wasn't that bad but my head and it still hurt.

It was then I started crying because no one had helped me. I could've died during that seizure. Well I could die during any seizure but really? I had hit my head and blood was coming out of my mouth but still no one had helped me.

it was even worse that once I walked out of the locker room everyone was staring at me. Wow I guess instead of helping me everyone in my gym went and told other people what happened instead.

Some girl walked up to me and god did she look annoying. I was about to look away and keep walking but she started talking to me.
"Dude are you okay?" She asked.

I just started at her and my tongue hurt to much to even think of talking.
"alright I was just trying to help you don't have to just stare at me you pervert." She huffed and walked off.

I tried to say something but I couldn't. By then everyone was giving me looks of disgust as I walked out of the building.
On my way down the stairs someone shoved my and I gasped letting all the blood in my mouth I was holding in out all over me.

The sad thing was that wasn't was what made me run home crying. What made me run home crying was me seeing billie making out with some random kid at the school entrance.

I hated to admit it but I felt heartbroken.

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