It's a not so secret, secret

Once I finished my shower I realized I hadn't thought about a change of clothes in my attempt to get away from my parents questioning.

i wrapped one of my dads towels around my waist and walked into the hall after making sure they weren't there waiting.
I crept into my room and shut the door quietly almost having a heart attack when I heard someone gasp behind me.

i turned to see my dads on my bed waiting for me but they looked shocked. No doubt the bruises and scratches on my torso from billie are the cause of their shocked faces.

"Nathan!" Gerard said sternly. "Tell us now what happened!"

I bit my lip and shook my head "I-I can't-"

"what do you mean you can't!?" Gerard yelled.

"I can't tell you because nothing happened!" I snapped harshly.

Dad stood up and walked in front of me "you have two minutes to put some pants on and explain. Do not put a shirt on we are talking about those marks." He said and shut his eyes along with Gerard while I threw on some boxers and a pair of batman pajama pants.

"I'm dressed." I said quietly even though really I was still half naked.

"Nathan sit down." Dad said and I sat on the bed.

"Move your arms I want to see the marks." Gerard said. I uncomfortably moved my arms from my lap to my side. I hated feeling their eyes on me. I felt like billie was and should be the only one to see my skin because he did it to me.

"Nathan were these a result of...." Gerard hesitated.

"Of what?" I asked

"force. Were they a result of force?" Dad said.

I looked between them, they both looked scared of the answer.
"No they aren't from force." I said trying to sound as convincing as possible.

"Please tell me that these aren't from you consenting to have sex with billie." Dad said shaking his head.

I sucked in a deep breath. "I didn't say that."

"then what are they from?! God dammit we saw the photos! Just tell us!" Gerard yelled

"Pictures? What're you-" then it hit me, the first time he raped me I heard a camera but he denied ever filming me while I was in pain.

"What pictures?! You know what pictures! Your in them! wouldn't you notice someone recording you?!" dad screeched.

"Show me the pictures" I said calmly.

Dad got his phone out and handed me it. The pictures were in a message from billie. When I saw them I threw the phone and started crying.

I wasn't awake for any of these pictures and if I was I was drugged.Alex was in them too. He violated me. Maybe that's why he was so quick to help me get out, because he felt guilty.

"Nathan?" Gee asked giving me a concerned look.

"Get out of my room."

"Excuse m-"

"GET OUT OF MY ROOM!" I screamed.

"Why?" Dad asked

"fuck you! Get out I want to be alone!" I hissed

"that's not a good idea Nathan.." gee said

"I don't give a fuck I want to be alone so leave! You solved your problems in a mental ward just let me handle mine in my own fucking room Okay." I yelled at dad who was trying to put a hand on my shoulder.

"Nathan!" Gee yelled

"how did you- how do you even know about that?" Dad asked.

"Billies not fucking stupid. now please just leave me alone." I said again this time more pleading than telling.

"Nathan billie lies he tricked you and you need to-"

"shut up! I know what I have to do and I will. I'll fucking answer questions later I'd rather not feel like if I give the wrong answer I'll be executed so please just leave me for a while."

Gee looked at frank and nodded. "we'llbe back to check on you soon."

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