I'm Okay Now

I woke up the next morning lying in Mikey's bed with an ice pack to my head and Mikey gently shaking my shoulder trying to wake me up. A yawn escaped my lips as I rolled over hoping that will somehow it would make him magically disappear so I can continue my sleeping.
"Come one Katy wake up. We have to go to school" nope it didn't work.
"Where am I" I asked confused. Last night was all a big blur and the last thing I remembered was waking up Mikey because... Oh yah. Gerard kissed me.
"You're in my bed, you passed out last night and I think you hit your head"
"Really?"
"Yep now get up! You are going to be late for school. Oh and, do you by any chance know where Gerard is? He wasn't here last night and he wasn't in this morning" all of a sudden everything inside of me washed away. He left because of me and I knew it, and now I have to go to school and sit in his class and pretend nothing happened whail I sit there admiring his beauty. I wasn't looking forward to today. He probably hates me right now and I don't blame him at all.
"Nope" I replied as causally as I could. I got out of bed and grabbed some clothes out of my bag. "Now if you don't mind Mikey. I kinda have to change"
"Oh right, sorry" he said as he let out a little smirk on his face wail walking out of the room.
I slipped my AC/DC tee of over my head and changed into white skinny jeans getting ready for the most awkward day of my life. Here goes nothing.
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I made sure I wasn't the first one to enter the music room first period, I really didn't want to be alone with 'Mr.Way' just too hear all the awkward silence. Once when the bell rang I walked into the classroom keeping my head down avoiding contact and took my usual seat next to Mikey. Throughout the class Gerard didn't even look at me which I suppose is better then exchanging awkward eye contact. I didn't even bother to pay attention so when I looked up from my desk to see Gerard standing before me, I nearly screamed. The class let out a giggle at my reaction as I shot Mr.Way an evil look before he actually said something. I could feel my heart beat stop for a second as I took in what just happened and saw Him let out a little smile on his successes with scaring me.
"Katy can I speak to you,... In the hallway?" Great. What I've been avoiding this whole time had found me. I nodded and followed him out into the hall not wanting to put up an argument in front of the whole class.
I just stood their leaning against that wall with my arms crossed over my chest "Last night I got a text from Mikey saying that you wanted to cut yourself and you passed out. Is that true?" He looked me dead in the eye, I just couldn't do the same in return. I let out a deep sigh and let My eyes wonder to the floor as I spoke
"Yes it's true" I said, barley in a whisper looking down in shame
"Why"
"Well it's kinda hard to stop yourself from passing out" I commented in a sarcastic tone, rolling my eyes. It wasn't like me to act this bitchy but right now I couldn't control it. I was just really pissed off and the last person I wanted to talk to was him. Well that was wrong I did want to talk to him. I wanted to clear up everything that happened last night but I already knew where he was taking this discussion. He was going to talk about cutting.
" well I know that, but why did u want to cut?" I just stood there with my back against the wall and shrugged my shoulders.
"Katy that is not a legitimate answer"
"Why did u kiss me" I hissed at him trying to change the subject but he caught on.
"Don't try to change the subject young lady"
"Well we both have questions that we are never going to get the answer too I guess!" By then I was screaming, but not the loud kind because I didn't want anyone to hear me, My voice was full of anger and it was hard keeping my voice down low, why can't he just tell me why he kissed me, after all that lead to the reason on why I wanted to cut.
"Katy please lower your voice" he said in such a calm tone. "Now please answer my question"
"Fine!" I fumed as i moved my hands down to my hips "I thought that you hated me, that's why you ran away, so you can get away from me" saying those words made me want to start crying, but I didn't want to show that I was weak. Even if it hurt I kept the tears locked inside of me, I wouldn't let them fall. All I really wanted to do right now was lock myself around his arms and cry into his warm cozy chest, but we where in school and he could get fired if anyone found out about the kiss. Then I heard him laugh. I felt kind of insulted that he would laugh at me telling him what I felt considering this is a really sensitive subject for me but then I looked up at him.
"Why are you laughing" I asked In a quiet yet harsh tone remaining completely confused
"It's because- because what you think is the exact opposite."

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