I'm Okay Now

**Gerard's pov**
I couldn't. My mind went crazy and I had no control over myself. She was such a beautiful girl and she thinks no one loves her. I can't even imagine being in her shoes. I have to keep constantly reminding myself that she is a student and it is illegal to think anything more for her but I just couldn't help it. The way her blue hair brought out her green eyes, and how her smile could light up a thousand city's made me want to have her all to myself. She's a fucking student. Also the way she looked down at her feet whenever she smiles and laugh is so adorable, but every time she tries to hid it. I want to make laughing an everyday thing for her so she wouldn't have to feel like she needs to hide it. Gerard she is a fucking student. But the thing that captured my attention was the fact that she is being beaten and abused at home, never taught what love was, yet she is the sweetest person that I've met. She is always polite and shows she cares.i don't care if she's a student, I need her in my life. All of a sudden my mind took over and next thing I knew my lips where connected to hers. I panicked for a second when she just sat there and didn't kiss back, but when she did... Oh god when she did I felt incredible. Her lips where so warm and soft I could kiss her all day! Our lips fit together like a puzzle piece moving in sync. That was when it hit me. I was in love with my student.
When she pulled away from my kiss I realized what I just done.
"Holy shit I'm so sorry" I began as I threw my self off the bed "I- I just- I'm sorry" was all I can say before I ran out of the bedroom. What have I done!? Yes I like her but why did I show it! The next thing I could think of was getting fresh air, becoming aware that it was hard to breath so I charged down the stairs, and out the house. It felt like everything inside of me just disappeared and I lost all train of thought. What I have I done!? Oh My Fuck I'm such a pedafile! I needed to blow off some steam but how? I ran all the way down the street with all my energy and wouldn't stop even if I felt my sweat coming out from every pore in my body and it was as if My heart was about to give out. Finally after thirty minutes of sprinting with no stop, I slowed down when I was two towns away from her. Two towns away from the woman I was in love with.

Notes

Sorry for the short chapter, I'll make it up to you by putting in another update tonight!