I'm Okay Now

"Ok so we have only 4 other people sleeping over and about 30 coming to the party" Alicia explained to me as we where walking down the hair hallway arriving fashionably late for lunch. Me and her wore both really excited for tonight.
"But what if people ask why I live with Mikey and Gerard?" I asked. She went quiet for a couple of seconds, thinking with a good escuse. Leaving the only sound in the air was the sound of her heels clicking against the tile floor with every step she took.
"How about... You are their step sister who's parents have.... Wanted her to be in a better neighborhood so they sent you to live with your step brothers." I thought about it for a minute, it actually seemed to be a good idea. It's believable and we all had/have dyed hair so they won't be able to judge us by that. But thinking about gee being my step brother made me gag alittle. But of course, no one knows about us so it shouldn't be a big deal. Usually there are a lot of high school party's that happen in Belleville, but ours was going to be the first this year. That means that more people are going to want to come since a lot of the party's have been canceled due to the hella cold weather. But tonight was going to be the warmest night in mid October. Ali went on and on about tonight but I kinda got lost in my own mind and zoned out. Before I knew it we where standing in the cafeteria door way and before us 200 people where eating lunch. I walked over to where my group usually sits and took the empty seat next to lily that just so happened to be reserved for me. I entered the usually boring conversation about the boys in the grade who are attractive. They tried to bring me in the conversation a couple of times but I want nothing to do with it, so I politely shut myself out.
"Ummm I'm going to go to the bathroom" I lied. I was getting really bored and all I wanted to see was Gerard. I couldn't say I'm going to go see the music teacher who happened to be my boyfriend. Alicia and Mikey are the only people that know and I have no intention on adding anyone to that list. Though I did feel really bad that I haven't told lily. She's my best friend and we swore that we would tell each other everything. I feel like I'm lying to her in that way but this secret has way too many consequences. I rose from my chair and made my way out the cafeteria exit and through the blank white hallways that I've been walking in for three years.
I didn't even bother knocking on the door. I just barged in to see him in the same position that I always see him in. Hunched over his desk with a blue bald point pen in his hand and a concentrated look on his face, grading papers. God damn he is attractive. Once when the door shut his eyes traveled from the paper to me, giving me that look that Almost made me pass out.
"Hello hon"
"Hey Gerard. How are you?" I asked as I took my usual lunch seat that was the desk right in front of his.
"I'm good. Just grading yesterday's test. And what about you my love?" Every time he calls me that I can feel my heart beat two times faster.
"Just eating lunch with my favorite person"
"And I happen to be looking at the most gorgeous woman I have ever seen" gee smiled.
"Can you stop that!" I joked trying hard not to let a smile form but failed "it's like every word that you speak makes me lovestruck and I can't take it!" By now he was beaming and his checks where turning rosy pink.
"Sorry can you say that again" he smirked "I got lost in your eyes"
'POUND' went my head as I smashed it against the desk. I was left speechless. It's like I'm a joke book to him. He knows what he is doing to me and he fucking enjoys it too. How do I respond to something like that!? Is their like a book on how to respond to the most wonderful person in the world? They need to make one of those. I had no idea what to say, so I let my mind take over.
"How did I end up with someone so perfect as you."
"I ask myself that question everyday about you"
I didn't have any words to respond with, just actions. So I leaned over my desk and kissed him passionately, feeling his soft lips up against mine.

Notes

Wat up guys!? I hope everyone's Memorial Day weekend is going great! I keep writing non stop because I feel really bad that my laziness has gotten the best of me. So hopefully you will be seeing an update tomorrow? I'll try
i love you <3