I'm Okay Now

**katys pov**
I only had one hour to get ready for my date tonight which is not a long time if your a girl. The first thing I did when I got home was take a bath since I was starting to smell from my jog home. I stripped down and hopped into the shower, feeling the warm water run down my back. The whole entire time I was in the shower I was thinking about all the possibilities of our date. Where were we going to go? How should I dress? My mind was wondering crazy with ideas and it didn't help settle me down. Fuck I'm nervous. The shower didn't take longer then 10 minutes which was a new record for me. As soon as I dried off I got dressed on my new outfit which was specially planned for today. I was going to wear a plain white slim fit tee, which I didn't feel too comfortable in considering I wasn't skinny. Well I wasn't fat either it's just I wouldn't say I'm model status which personally I couldn't care less about. Since the shirt was short sleeved and you could see all the destruction I caused myself all over my arms, I found my old leather jacket that went along perfectly with my shiny black pants. Once when I had my whole outfit on, I moved over to the mirror in the bathroom so I could fix my makeup and face. I started by blow drying my hair and managed to straighten it a little bit which gave it more length. I've never been good with makeup so tonight I was really hoping I wouldn't screw anything up like I usually do. I know that Gee hates it whenever I wear makeup, but tonight would be different. By the time I was finished I have myself the smokey eye with eye liner and mascara followed by blood red lipstick that went along perfectly with the black. when I checked my phone I realized it was 4:59. Shit. I had one more minute left but gee was probably waiting downstairs for me. I checked myself over in the mirror and headed out the bathroom door. Too be honest I was kind of nervous for today, I can barley look at the guy without getting butterfly's in my stomach so how was I going to make it threw a whole date without blushing like a mad fucker. Well here goes nothing. I could feel my feet walk again the cold hardwood floor as I started to walk down the stairs keeping my eyes glued to my feet trying not to make early eye contact but when I looked up at him his mouth was hung open. The look that he gave me made my heart skip a beat. It was as if it was our wedding day and I was his bride walking down the aisle.
"you look very handsome tonight" I said trying now to be weird which never came naturally to me. He always was very attractive but something about tonight was different. His outfit was very nice yet basic and it showed that he put a lot of care into it.
"y-you just look- s-o beautiful" shit the blush started again. I could feel my checks grow rosey red as I looked down at the ground, he always found a way to make me smile.
"ready to go" I asked in an almost little girl voice. He held out his elbow which I grabbed a hold of and we walk to the car.
**
Everyone always has that idea of a perfect date in mind right? Little did I know that mine would come true. It was as if he was reading my mind and knew exactly what I wanted and made it happen. He took me up the mountains where a park is located. The grass was the greenest I've ever seen and it looked like it belonged on a lawn owned by a millionaire it was so pretty. They also had a small garden in the middle that had the most beautiful flowers I had ever seen. As pretty as that was it couldn't equal to the beauty that the view had. Since we where in the mountains there where no trees in the nearby so you could clearly see all the buildings leading up to new York city. I've never been to the city yet I've always wanted too so whenever I had the chance to stare at pictures and paintings of all the tall buildings up against the skyline I would. Now it was like it was real. I stood up and leaned against the brick wall that Kept me from falling off the ledge. Right now was just the perfect moment and it wasn't just the city that made everything perfect, it was Gerard. He held my hand in his as we both looked at the horizontal that now had colors of blue and pink from the sunset.
"I wish we could just stay like this forever" I spoke in barly a wisper so I wouldn't disturb the beautiful silence. He let go of my hand and pulled me into a light gentle hug from behind as he held me close. I felt so warm wrapped in his arms and so safe. It was as if nothing could ever hurt me. He rested his head on my shoulder putting our faces right next to each other, looking in the same direction.
"Kate I've been meaning to ask you this for a while now. It's just ever since I laid eyes on you I knew you where special so- umm... Katy will you be my girlfriend?" are you kidding me yes! Holy shit yes yes yes yes yes Gerard I would drop dead for you in a second let alone be your girlfriend! I could feel myself start blushing again and I tried to pull back the red but it dident work. I was left speechless. I turned myself around so we where now facing each other, a huge smile crossed My mouth as I gave him a sweet kiss. When our lips unattached they left us no more then a centimeter apart.
"Yes" I spoke as another smile crossed his face. He pulled me in for one more kiss but this time a little more passionate. We continued to talk about our past life but when the discussion came to an end I heard him say something I only knew of in my dreams.
"I love you" was all I heard as everything els around me shut down. I don't remember what it's like to be loved, but it's starting to come back to me. It was a feeling I wouldn't be able to describe. It made me feel warm inside and it made me happy.
"No one has said that to me before" I began, still so hocked that he would say that. Did he really love me? It sure felt like it, but it still seemed to good to be true. A tear fell from my eye but he quickly brushed it away for me before I could react. I was at a lost for words. He was so perfect, this night was so perfect, what we have was perfect. This can't be real, nothing like this happened to me before. I'm so use of being told that no one cares about me, that I'll never be loved, and to me there was no point in living. Now someone loves me and honestly, I want nothing more. I struggled to find words but I managed to put something together that made him smile "It's like- there's no other way to put it gee. I love you too. A lot actually. More then I could ever love someone."

Notes

4/21/14
guys this is the last chapter that I have to post before I start updating new ones. Shit that sounds confusing. What I mean I'm now all caught up with chapters to post, because I got logged out from my other story, so chapter 31 will be a whole new chapter that no one has seen before! I can't wait to post it! But sadly that means that I won't be able to update as much as I usually do since now I have to write chapters from scratch but I defiantly will post at lease once every two days. But good news! I'm on spring break so I'll have a lot of free time to do some typing! Untill then.
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