I'm Okay Now

"I wish we could stay here, just like this forever" she spoke as we both looked over at the city, leaning up on the ledge that showed you the best view that you could get of new York city. The sun was starting to set giving all the tall buildings in the distance a shadow of different shades of pink and blues. Tonight was so perfect and it was even better knowing that she was enjoying it too. She was mesmerized by the view that New Jersey had and seeing new yourk in the distance but no matter how many sunsets I witnessed they will never be as beautiful as her. I turned away embarrassed when she caught me staring at her perfection but it was kinda hard not too. Any guy would die for a girl like this, and now she was mine. Well not mine yet..
I looked down at my feet and felt my cheeks grow red feeling her eyes on me. This was the perfect moment I was waiting for, its now or never. I looked up at her meeting eye contact and cupped her cheek in my hand as I stared into her green emerald eyes that fit perfectly with the grassy background.
"Kate I've been meaning to ask you this ever since I layed eyes on you I knew something about you was special. It's just-" I could feel some tears build up in my eyes but I pulled them back in before she could suspect anything. Don't mess this up Gerard. Remember what Mikey said: be chill. "Katy will you be my girlfriend"
Now I wasn't the only one about to start crying. All of my Senses suddenly drowned out and the only thing I could see was Kate. I didn't even notice what was happening Untill she crashed her lips onto mine. Our lips fit together like a puzzle piece, she was so warm and soft, I never wanted to let go. She unattached, still leaving our mouths no more then a centimeter away and whispered one word that couldn't make me any happier. Yes.
I don't think I smiled bigger then I just did, everything right here was perfect. You have the autumn trees with different shades of oranges and red blending in with the bright sunset that ran along the horizon and the most beautiful girlfriend anyone could ever have. After we where finished making out we looked back over the edge and stared at all the tall buildings in the distance
"you know I never been to new yourk city" she spoke barely in a whisper, locking her hand in mine.
"really!?"
"ya, my mom dident want to take me there because she was scared that I would get lost and my dad was too drunk to notice that new yourk even exists"
"well that's why I'm going to take you there tonight!"
"wait you are!" I could almost feel the excitement that she was feeling and it also made me excited as well
"yep!" I said as I slowly hugged her from being and slipped my hands around her waist. I could feel her smile against me as I rested my head on her shoulder.
"thank you gerard"
"for what" I asked in a low wisper trying not to disturb the quiet night
"for everything. If it wasn't for you I would be long gone dead. Also I've never felt happy before and whenever I'm around you that's all that I feel. Happy" instantly the corners of my eyes started rising. She was such a nice girl and always showed how great full she was for anything really.
"hey kate?"
"yea"
"well I never told anyone this and Mikey is the only one that knows but before you came into my life I was a druggie, an alcoholic, suicidal and was constantly smoking. I would get drunk everyday and high at any party I went to. Mikey helped me get cleaned up for my job but he couldn't help me with my depression. No one could. I even went to therapy and it didn't help one bit. But when you came into my life I had a reason to smile and your the reason why I'm not suicidal or depressed anymore. Mikey noticed it too"
"I would have never guessed that. I'm sorry for all that you have been through. I'm really happy your feeling better. Your my reason to smile too. When ever I feel sad for some reason I just think of you and everything's better" my arms where still wrapped around her waist from behind, feeling the way she tensed up from my story. Her body locked with mine was the only thing that I need. I shifted a little so we where now standing next to each other leaving no space between us. I wonder what was going threw her mind right now, with a smile spread across her checks.could she be thinking about me? What's I really the one that could make her smile as much as she did? There was only one thing that crossed my thoughts and I couldn't keep in my mind anymore. It slipped out like it was a knife threw butter and I didn't even try to hold it back. There was no point on holding it back anyway, she needs to know.
"I love you" I spoke, barely in a whisper but loud enough for her to hear. She took her eyes off of the city view and placed then on mine, leaving our eyes getting lost in each others. Her mascara started to run with the single tear that fell from her left eye as the corners of her mouth rose even higher.
"No one has said that to me before" more tears started to fall but I brushed them away with my thumb, leaving my hand cupping her cheek. The wind slightly pulled back her brown caramel hair and god damn it was the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. She must have been shocked at the 3 words that I said as she struggled to find words "It's like- there's no other way to put it gee. I love you too. A lot actually. More then I could ever love someone." That was all that she needed to say to make me the luckiest man in the world.

Notes

4/20/14
i may or may not have been crying whail typing up the least part of the chapter. I really hope that you guys enjoyed it!