I'm Okay Now

"Well I have both good news and bad news" the doctor began "we just got a fresh delivery of her blood type so we will be able to get her back in a stable condition, but she lost 50% of her blood, but we will fix that. Bad news: she is damaged both inside and out causing her too fall under the mentally ill category and she needs medical help to make her better before returning home. Are you her father?" He asked me. Honestly I dident want to talk to anyone right now. I just wanted to run up to katy and hold her in my arms telling her how happy I am that she is alive and how great full I am for that. Then I wanted to tell her how much she means to me and I love her, but it seemed too soon. I took a look around the grey office room before speaking.
"No I'm not" I knew what Katy would want me to say so I lied "she dosent have a father, or mother. She lives with us" the doctor gave me a nod as I continued to lie.
"What's your relationship with Katy"
"Friend" Mikey ansowerd right away before I could open my mouth to speak and I gave a nod in agreement. Even though there was something between me and katy I couldent tell the doctor, that would be illegal considering She's only 17 and I'm 22. I let out a deep sigh as he begain talking again.
"What's Katy's last name" he asked looking down at his clip board. I paused for a second thinking about the question he asked and honestly I dident know the answer. On her paperwork in the school the last name slot was empty but I never really thought much about it.
"I don't know" I said in a quiet voice with hesitation in every word. The doctor nodded again and continued.
"Do you know what might have caused her to do this?" Every word he spoke sounded like I was being stabbed in the neck over and over again. What do I say now? Do I tell him the truth that it comes down to her father abusing her? But if I said that she would get really mad and hate me forever. And what if it wasent her father? She never told me that directly I just assumed, something els could be bothering her. I couldn't stand this any more Before I knew it my feet carried me out the door in seach for Katy.
At first I had no idea where I was going and I still dident know but I eventually found the room and walked in. She laid there with her eyes shit and barly breathing, but at least she was breathing and that's good enoughf for me. She was attached to all diffrent types of machinery. One read out her heart rate and another was filled with blood that was pumping threw her body. I stopped and closed the door and walked over to her, taking a seat located at the end of her bed.
"Hey sleeping beauty" I said barly in a whisper trying not to scar her from her deep sleep. I noticed that her eyes started to flutter and slowly opened. Her right leg and arm where covered in stitches all over.
"Gerard?" She said in such a low confused voice, the most beautiful voice that I had to go 4 hours without.
"I'm right here beautiful" seeing her smile brought tears to my eyes. I was mentally preparing myself for the doctor to tell me that she was gone but to see her smiling - well I want nothing more.
"I'm so sorry" why would she apologize to me? She needs to apologize to herself. I wrapped my fingers around hers and held her hand in mine.
"Don't ever apologize to me, just don't do this again" I could feel myself start to sob and she looked over checking if I was okay. The nurses did a good job sticking her back up and cleaning her but they clearly wherent able to clear up the tears that fell from her eyes or the blood stains in her hair. Right now she had faded blue hair on the top and red on the lower half. Since she was unable to redye her hair it was not more like a brown blue color. Her hand slowly released itself from mine but then placed it on my cheek. I couldn't hold in my tears when she looked directly into my eyes as I did the same. The light behind her eyes faded but their was still something there trying to break free.
"I never wanted to do this to you" she spoke still not breaking the eye contact. By now all the tears where falling as I tried to breath in between sobs. Seeing her in the hospital gown looking so weak and tired killed me on the inside.
"J-just know th-t-that your n-not in this alone" I said trying not to let my sobs take over the sentence. The only reaction that she gave was a smile that lit up her eyes and the rest of the room. "I know" she mouthed back to me. I need her in my life, it's because of her that I'm not depressed anymore or that I don't think about killing myself every 30 seconds. I need her.

Notes

Does everyone hate me so much that they don't want to comment?