Hopeless for ya

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Me & Frank got into my room and i almost fell down the stairs as He grabbed the collar of my shirt
"F-Frank hold on" I said while he tried kissing me half way down the stairs
We got into the room, He pushed me onto my bed and climbed over me
Frank leaned in for a kiss
I kissed back while leading my tongue into his mouth hungrily
Frank moaned into my mouth as i licked the roof of his mouth
I pulled him closer and shoved my tongue down his throat.
The sounds we were making must of sounded so gross, thank god no ones home.
I felt my pants get pulled down exposing my hard on. I looked at Frank who was staring at it licking his lips
My cock twitched making Frank grab it
"God" I moaned, He wasnt even moving his hand in rhythm but damn it felt good
"Where do you hide the rope in here?" He whined
I was a bit shocked but i pointed at one of my drawers.
Frank found it and tied my wrists to the head boards.
"Payback bitch" He Growled which made me even more turned on.
He squirted lube on his fingers and rammed them in side of me with no hesitation
The pain this was giving me made me harder.
Frank rubbed against my prostate dead on
I screamed out in pleasure
"Finally i got it!" He spoke hitting it each time
I tried to jerk off but the ropes were too tight
"Please untie me Frank fuck" I groaned
"Noooo"
Pre-cum started to form and frank grabbed my dick and jerked it while his other hand was thrusting in and out of me
Suddenly he stopped everything leaving me practically hanging.
"I'll continue pleasuring you if you suck me off" He purred
Wait wait wait .. 69?
I clenched my teeth together
"69?"
"Yes! That'd be great, so what do you say?" He whispered while sliding his pants down
I nodded, He climbed onto me so his dick was right in my face and mine was being pumped fast
"C'mon" He yelled,
I took his hard on and started sucking and entering my tongue in the slit
He started to thrust his member further into my mouth as i was way to close to exploding.
"Mmm Gee" He moaned so loud that i think the neighbors heard

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After multiple times of Pumping, thrusting and sucking
Gerard releases into my hand and i myself into his mouth
“Fuck.” I whisper into the now quiet bedroom. I run my hand thats not covered in his cum through my hair as i look up at the dark ceiling.
"unfsfetie mehe nohdw" Gerard mumbles
Shit,
I get up and untie him.
My left over cum drips out of his mouth.

My vision goes blurry and i find myself on the pavement floor with Gerard hovering above me
"You alright?!" He yells
"Yeah, Yeah."I say getting up
I start to think of how much i am actually hurting Gerard ..
Like if we were not together thatd probably hurt him but not as much as him finding me one day dead on the floor,
"Hun" Gerard whispers
I stare at him to figure out what to say
"Gerard ..."I whisper back
"Whats wrong" His hands come up to my face
"Maybe we shouldnt be together" I blurt out literally speaking my mind
Gerard's eyes widen and his lips start to quiver
Please dont cry. Please dont cry.
"But- I" Gerard puts his face in his hands
"Its f-for your o-own g-good" I whisper trying to stop myself from crying
"I love you" He cries
I stare at his shaking body, I gather my things and i slowly walk out leaving Gerard sitting on his floor crying.

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Its been 3 weeks and i havent seen Gerard in school since the separation ..
Did i make a mistake .. did i kill him?? I feel myself panic as i run to my next class,
"But Mr.Way i need my test back"
"Well thats unfortunate"
I guess i walked into something, I quickly run to my desk with my head down.
Looking up to see Gerard's face covered in stubble and his clothes are baggy.
So .. He didnt shave or bother to wear his casual outfit. What have i done
Gerard's eyes meet mine and i gasp. He drops his pen staring at me, I look away.
It seems like the class was only 5 minutes long .. or i might of came late, Regardless it was the end of school and i had to stay in this class to catch up..
When all of the students hurried their way out i write as fast as i can to get out of the silence
"Slow down Iero" He says stern
I look up at him and he looks more mad than ever,
Whaaat.
"I'd rather not" I said in the same tone as him
I literally heard his fist clench
"Youre going to listen to me" He raises his voice
Before i answered i crumpled up my work and threw it at him while exiting the class.
The walk home was tough. I couldnt look back at the school without yelling 'fuck you'
Not actually though. I know im the one to cause this but it still angered me.

***
"Mr.Way where's Franklin?" The principal said
"He just left, I guess he was done his work but not quite sure" I stammered
"Well, Youre allowed to leave."
"Thank you."

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I could wait for tomorrow but at the same time i couldnt .. I wanted to make things okay for us but instead he probably hates me. I stood in my room, face buried into the pillow yelling.
I was the older one .. why couldn't i take control? Why am i not good enough??
I walked into the bathroom and took the dusty blade i left behind the sink since Frank said not to do it again which was 9 months ago and took it to my skin.
My blood dripped onto the floor, I cut deeper in each place up my wrist until i hit one spot where it wouldnt stop gushing blood
"Shit" I whispered while grabbing some goz and wrapping it around the wound

Notes

Itll get better jjeeeezz
I know its kinda dumb how i went from
'iloveyou' to 'i hate you'
But yeah. hope you enjoyed