Hopeless for ya

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----friday after school----
me: cant come over today gee, gotta catch up with shit
geebear<3: I was really looking forward to seeing you after but i understand
me: Yeah sorry
geebear<3: I love you, please dont try anything stupid. you know im here if u need to talk xo
me: ilyt. txt me tomorrow k?
geebear: aight, call me before you go to bed .. i miss ur voice even if we only been distant for 4 hours

I felt myself blush at the thought that Gerard did actually care, i mean i knew that but he wants me to call him, he's coming to me instead of me coming to him.
"Frankster" My mom yelled from downstairs
I groaned,
"Yes?" I yelled back
"Your cousins are here, time to babysit"
Shit. i completely forgot.
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After i got the little shits in a comfortable state i pulled out my phone to talk to Gerard
It rang for a long time and i was beginning to think it was gonna go to voice mail until i heard that familiar voice
"Hellllloooooo?" He spoke
"Helllllllllooooooooo" I mocked him
"Frankie!!!" He nearly yelled in the phone excited
He almost sounded drunk, i mean i wouldnt know .. but still
"Whats up my love"
"Nothing much yknowww" Gerard's words slurred
Yeah,
"Dude you drunk?" I joked
"No! ha why would you-uh think that!!!?"
"Okay well i gotta let you go, babysitting"
"Kk love you babby"
"Whatever"
I felt kinda bad just hanging up on him, just i was thinking on having a nice one on one conversation but i guess not. Instead i was sitting here with 5 kids no older than 7 jumping on the furniture.
"Uncle Frank" a squeaky kids voice said
"Im your cousin" I said harsh
"Oh. sowwy. m'hungry" the kid said reaching out his hand
I grabbed his hand and held it while i guided him to the kitchen to pick out a snack
The kids grasp reminded me of Gerard ..
"Unclee Frank!" The kid yelled with his free hand pointing at cookies on the top shelf
I snapped out of my daze and handed him them.
"tanks ferank" He said my name wrong but i didnt mind, all i did was smile.
He smiled back and leaded me back to the living room
I kinda just slumped on the couch with one of my hands supporting my face
"You sad, yeah?" The same kid said
I shook my head
"Whats wrung" He stammered climbing next to me as the other kids played tag around the house
"I have a friend, I tried talking to him but he didnt want to" I felt like i was pouring my soul out to this kid which i should know his name but nah.
"Whats his namee" He whispered
"Gerard, and wait whats your name?"
He laughed tightening his grip on my hand
"James"
Hm.
"Well i like you better than the others James" I spoke
"Tanks ferank"

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I was growing a liking to this kid .. not sexual but as if he was my younger brother.
My mom came home and was collecting the kids until i stopped her as she went to get james
"Hey mom, may sound weird but. Can James stay here for the night?"
Her reaction was not what i was expecting
"Sure! Im glad to see your bonding with your cousins"
More like cousin.
I lead the kid to my room and we sat on my bed playing xbox all night.
He was greater than most 10 year olds, starting to mature though everytime he killed me in a game he would laugh in my face .. which i expected.
In the middle of our friendship my phone vibrated
geebear<3: Dude im sober, Im sorry
I stared at the text but i was to distracted to reply.
"Ferank, m'tired" James yawned
"Right, uh- Sleep here ill sleep on the ground.." I said getting off the bed
"Or i can sleep with you" I saw him blush which made me slightly uncomfortable considering he was my 10 year old cousin.
"Nah its ok. You go to sleep" I said as calm as i could
I tucked him in and he gave me a hug so strong that i tumbled back on the bed.
Moments later he was no longer in the position i wanted him to be in, instead i was on my lap hugging me
"like you lots" He whispered
"Kid i know where your coming from and im sorry but you need sleep" I tried to push him off me but he looked up at me staring at my lips
I was actually getting mad, I missed Gerard to much and if this leaded into something wrong cause of my cravings i dont know where i'd end up.
I closed my eyes to think of what i could do to get this damn kid off me
my breathing got caught in my throat as i felt something on my lonesome lips
I shot opened my eyes and saw the kid fucking kissing me trying to move his lips against mine
I instantly saw Gerard in my mind and moved my lips slightly taking more control before realizing what i was doing.
James broke the kiss and gasped before trying to come closer again
"Whoa no, fuck i-uh god. That shouldnt of happened...James, God" I was in panic mode .. yes. I was fucking panicking and i pushed the kid off and i ran out my room.
Where do i go in this situation??
I stormed out the door and ran to a park a few blocks away.
Once i got to the park i put my hands in my pockets to find some pot i stuffed in there a while ago.
Rolling my joint only to notice my phone was buzzing like crazy
I took the joint to my mouth and lit it before answering
"H-hello?" I coughed while taking a big hit
"Frank .. i-"
"Gerard" I uttered
It was silent so i took the time to finish my joint taking big hits
"A kid-my cousin kissed me and i thought of you and i-i k-kissed back an-and then i ran out of the house and and-"
"Where are you?" Gerard sounded more concerned than mad
"I-i dont k-know" I whispered hanging up
I kinda knew where i was but in the moment i couldnt think. I then ran out of the park and over peoples fences while rummishing through bushes to get to Gerard's house.
I was in his driveway, no cars were in the driveway.
My knees let out and i bursted out into sobs for no reason .. probably cause i was high out of my mind and i didnt know what was going on
Suddenly i heard burning rubber, only to see a car rolled in his driveway
fuck.
I heard the car door open and i felt arms around me
"Dude i thought i lost you" Gerard's voice sounded like he's been crying himself
He turned me around and looked into my eyes, His face turned into a deep worried look
I rubbed my blood red eyes and stared back at him
His hand lingered around my cheek cupping it in his warm hands
"Frankie .. hun" He moved closer
"You cant be doing drugs .. you recently got out of the hospital" He leaned in even closer
His forhead was touching mine and my member grew hard, for some reason???
It didnt seem like he noticed and soon our lips collide into a kiss full of feeling
Gerard grabbed the back of my neck and deepened the kiss
my lips parted and his tongue slipped into my mouth
"mmm" I Groaned as i slid my tongue into his
My hand grabbed one of his thighs slowly moving up and down getting closer to his crotch with each movement
"You do know that we are still in the middle of my driveway" He stammered
But i didnt care, all i wanted was to taste and feel all of him
"Ohhh" Gerard moaned as i lingered my hand around his crotch rubbing it every once in a while.
I was so frickin horny.
I started to unzip my pants when he took my hand in his and got up
"Not here" He whispered as we entered his house

Notes

So uuuh
-climbs a tree-
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