Some like to sleep, We like to play

I wake up in the middle of the night from the worst nightmare I can ever recall having with Gerard gently shaking me awake. I sit up as much as I can in the small bunk gulping for air inbetween sobs. "Shh babe it's ok. I've got you" he says as he pulls me to the edge of the bunk and helps me out before sinking to the floor and pulling me into his lap. I curl up and bury my face in his neck as he holds me to his chest and gently rocks me side to side. I sob and shake for a while until I feel myself calm down and my heart rate go back to normal. When my breathing slows I notice someone is rubbing my back and when I move my face out of Gerard's neck and look Frank is sitting next to us rubbing my back soothingly. I lean back into Gerard's chest and he says "What's going on baby? You frightened me so much when you started screaming, I thought there must have been something really wrong." "I was screaming?" I ask and he nods and says "I'm so glad you're ok." "I just had a really bad dream. I don't wanna talk about it" I say as I feel myself getting worked up over it again. "Ok baby, hop in my bunk" he says as he helps me stand up and while I climb into his bunk he kneels down again and checks on Bandit and Riley. While he does that Frank comes over and leans into Gerard's bunk and strokes my hair back from my face. "Are you sure you're ok?" He asks looking worried and I attempt a smile but it doesn't really work so I just nod. He nods back at me and pulls away crossing the space between the bunks and climbing back into his own. Being opposite Gerard's we lay on our sides and stare at each other as Gerard goes into the front of the bus to get a bottle of water. "I love you" Frank mouths at me and I smile a little and mouth "Thank you." He starts blowing me kisses and I smile a little more but still not a full smile. Frank looks in thought for a moment before he peeks his head out to look towards the front of the bus to make sure Gerard's not coming before he leans back into his bunk and pulling down his boxers quickly, flashing me his half hard dick. "You make me so horny" he mouths and I put my hand over my face as I grin and shake my head. When I pull my hand away he smiles wide at me before sliding his hand down and stroking himself through his boxers. "I'm going to be jacking off to you just so you know" he mouths and I smile wickedly before taking two of my fingers and sucking them into my mouth, making a show of moving them in and out deeply and swirling my tongue around them. When I look back over Franks mouth is hanging open and I can see his dick is fully hard and straining tightly against his boxers. "Fucking tease" he mouths and I wink at him. He reaches in and pulls his dick out and starts to stroke it when I hear Gerard walking back this way. Frank blows me one last kiss before pulling his bunk curtain shut and I wipe my fingers dry on the blanket. Gerard hands me a bottle of water and says "Here baby have a drink." I smile and whisper "Thanks baby" before taking a few mouthfuls. I hand the bottle back and he sits it on the floor out of the way before climbing in and pulling the curtain shut. Once we're settled Gerard wraps one arm around me and uses his other hand to gently rub my bump. "How's the baby doing?" He asks and I smile and say "Fine." "Wanna talk about the dream babe?" He asks and I shake my head before letting out a huge yawn. Gerard tightens his hold on me and I snuggle into his side for warmth. After a minute I shiver slightly and Gerard says "Are you cold babe?" I nod and he pulls the blanket up around me and pulls me closer to him. "Mmm better" I sigh pressing myself to him and stealing his body heat. He kisses the top of my head and I tilt my head up and seal my lips to his. We lay in the dark sharing soft kisses, just rubbing our tongues together not fighting for dominance when a soft groan catches our attention. We break apart and listen and a few seconds later another quiet groan rings out in the silence. In the limited lighting in the bunk Gerard looks at me and raises his eyebrows before whispering "I really hope that's not Mikey." I can't control myself and I burst out laughing at full volume. Gerard slaps his hand over my mouth to try and silence me but I can't control it and I laugh even harder. A few seconds later Gerard starts laughing too but quieter and we keep laughing until I can't breathe properly and my sides ache. My laughs die down to giggles before I'm panting for breath and Gerard is still shaking but has managed to become silent. I hear Frank shuffling around in his bunk and Gerard looks at me and puts his finger to his lips to signal for me to be quiet. I shake my head and giggle again and Gerard smiles at me fondly as he shakes his head. Eventually I calm down fully and snuggle back into Gerard's side falling asleep again.

When I wake up I am soaked in sweat, shaking and gasping for air. I had another nightmare but I am alone. I hear someone walking past the bunk and they must hear my heavy panting because the curtain is pulled back and Frank is standing there with messy bed head looking concerned. "You ok Z?" He asks and I nod and say "Another bad dream." He nods in understanding before I say "I'm sorry if I distracted you last night." He smiles wide and says "nah actually hearing your voice even laughing helped me." I blush and shake my head before he says "so what was so funny anyway?" "We could hear you groaning and Gerard said I hope that's not Mikey and it just set me off." Frank lets out a little chuckle and says "Well I wonder what would bother him more, if it had been Mikes or if he found out if was me jacking off over thoughts of fucking his wife." I blush hard and slide out of the bunk, pushing Frank aside. "Oh so we're pushing now are we" he says playfully as he gently pushes me back. I poke his side and make a run for the front lounge but he catches me as I stumble through the doorway and starts tickling my sides. I laugh as I drop to my knees and he follows continuing to tickle me. I laugh and shriek trying to push him off but he won't stop and I can't breathe enough to protest anymore. Riley runs over and I gasp out "Help me baby boy" but he just giggles and starts tickling me too. I lay on the floor getting tickled by Frank and Riley when Mikey and Gerard walk in from outside and Gerard shakes his head. "Frank what are you doing to my wife?" He asks and Franks fingers leave my sides immediately. "We're just fooling around. She started it" he says before standing up and going back to the bunks. Riley stops tickling and lays down ontop of me wrapping his arms around me in a big hug before getting off and running back over to the table where he was drawing with Bandit. Gerard helps me up off the floor and while I sit on the couch he gets me a cup of tea. While I drink it he sits beside me and starts to write. I try to talk to him after a few minutes but he shushes me and I stand up and walk back to the bunks after dumping my cup in the sink.

I stomp into the bunk area feeling irrationally angry with Gerard for ignoring me. "Hey calm down, what's wrong?" Frank asks when he sees my face and I huff out "I tried to talk to Gerard and he told me to be quiet." Frank shakes his head and says "Well fuck him then. Come hang out with me, I'm going for a walk around before sound check." I nod and grab some clean clothes "I'm gonna change first" I tell him, making my way to the bathroom. "Can I help?" He asks and I shake my head and smile before shutting the door.
When I'm ready I walk through the front area of the bus with Frank and grab my sunglasses. "I'm going out so I can't possibly disturb you. You can watch the kids" I tell Gerard and stomp off the bus without giving him a chance to reply. As we make our way across the car park Frank and I joke around and playfully push each other and as we're walking out onto the street I turn back and see Gerard standing in the doorway of the bus watching us go.
Frank and I walk around for an hour and have fun. We stop and buy a few things we see that we want and then step into a coffee shop. While Frank gets coffee I stare at it longingly while I sip my hot chocolate. He notices and laughs poking his tongue out and taunting me about not being able to have it. I turn my head to face him in the booth next to me and poke my bottom lip out and make a really sad face and he chuckles before leaning forward and attaching his lips to mine. He slowly slides his tongue into my mouth and I sigh into his mouth and kiss back, savouring the taste of the coffee he's drinking. When we pull apart he smiles at me and pecks me on the nose. "For something I'm not meant to be doing that certainly feels right" he says and I smile before turning back to my hot chocolate.
When we leave the coffee shop we go and buy groceries for the bus, making sure to get everyone's favourite foods and any necessities we need. On the way back to the bus I see a jacket in the window of a store and I know Gerard will love it. I go inside, dragging Frank behind me and look at it close up. The jacket is $150 but I know Gerard will want it so I buy it for him as a gift. When Frank sees the price tag his eyebrows go up but he doesn't say anything.

When we get back to the bus we drop all the bags of shopping in the front area and as Mikey helps me unpack the groceries Gerard comes in from the bunk area and grabs my wrist hissing out "We need to talk." I look into his eyes and see just how angry he is and I gulp, wondering if he found out about what happened. I follow him outside and he grabs my wrist dragging me across the car park. We sit on the curb at the edge of the car park and he huffs out a breath before saying "What's going on with you and Frank?" I stare into his eyes, looking for a sign that he knows but all I see is anger and I think he does. I don't answer for a few seconds and he lifts his hand and backhands me across the face. "I know what you did and what's worse is that you don't even have the fucking guts to tell me" he screams at me and I stand up before him, my bottom lip quivering as I clutch my cheek and he stands too. "I don't even want to look at you right now. Pack your shit and fuck off Azali. Leave my kids with me I don't want them around you right now. I'll figure out a way to take care of them for the rest of the tour." I open my mouth to protest "They're my children too and I'm not going anywhere without them." A new wave of rage washes over Gerard's face and he shoves me before slapping me again, this time his wedding ring connects with my lip and splits it. I clutch my face as blood pours from my lip and he yells "You'll do what I said now go and get your shit off my tour bus. I already packed it for you." He takes a step towards me and I take off, running for the bus before he can hit me again. By the time I get to the bus tears are streaming down my face and my lip has bled all down my chin and soaked into my shirt. I step onto the bus and Mikey says "Z what the fuck happened? Are you ok?" I nod and sob out "Please make sure B and Ry are taken care of and tell them I love them" as I grab my three bags and start to struggle off the bus with them thankful that the kids are in the back of the bus with Ray. As I'm making my way out the door Frank comes out of the bathroom and sees me dragging my bags out the door and Mikey standing there looking confused. "Z" he calls and when I turn my head to look at him he swears under his breath. "What happened?" He asks and I shake my head. "Gerard's leaving me. Don't worry about it, my face will heal" I say as I get my last bag off the bus and start struggling across the car park with them. Frank and Mikey run out of the bus behind me and Frank steps infront of me gripping my arms saying "Z did Gerard do this to you? What happened?" I feel my lip quiver again as I say "He knows Frank. I deserve this so don't worry about it, just let it go." I push past and keep walking. "Gerard knows what?" Mikey asks before he says "Oh" in realisation and he jogs over to me and says "That's still no reason to hit you Z. Nothing will ever excuse that behaviour." I shake my head and say "Don't worry Mikey" before walking out of the car park and around the corner. I walk until I come to a hotel and I sit my bags down and try to wipe as much blood off my face as I can with the sleeve of my jacket. I walk in and check myself in for the night and when I get to my room I start up my laptop and using the hotels internet I book myself a flight home for the next day. After I know the flight time I call Trick and when he answers I ask him to pick me up from the airport tomorrow and give him the arrival time and flight number. "What's going on Z?" He asks and I break, sobbing uncontrollably into the phone as I tell him the whole story. He waits until my sobs subside before saying "Oh baby I'm so sorry. You can stay with us for a while if you need to." When our conversation is done I throw my cell on the bed and go into the bathroom and look at my face. My cheek and jaw are purple and my lip is split from Gerard's ring. I slide my hand down and rub it over my bump as a fresh wave of tears overtakes me. I stumble back out into the room and collapse onto the bed. My phone starts to vibrate and I pick it up seeing Gerard's picture on the screen. I can't take any more abuse for now so I just drop the phone again and curl into a ball letting it ring out. A few seconds after it stops it starts again and I don't even bother checking who it is this time I just let it ring out again. A minute after it stops it buzzes one last time indicating a voicemail. I ignore it and allow myself to fall asleep.

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