Some like to sleep, We like to play

When we get in the car Gerard asks if I was ok being left to talk to Frank. I consider telling Gerard about what Frank said but decide not to for the sake of the band. When we get home Gerard grabs my chin and moves my head to the side examining my neck. "Holy shit babe that looks painful. I'm so sorry I did that to you, I knew I was going too far but I was just so mad I couldn't stop myself" he says as he looks at it before gently rubbing his fingers over the bite mark. I shiver as a jolt of pleasure shoots up my spine from the sharp throb that goes through my neck when he touches it. "It wasn't too far" I practically moan out and Gerard shakes his head and says "Not infront of the kids."
That night I read Bandit and Riley their bedtime story and Bandit falls asleep before the book is done. Riley however is still wide awake and asks for another. I lay on his bed with him and read quietly so I don't wake Bandit and as I read Riley traces his little finger over the pictures and tells me what the pictures are. By the end of the second book he still isn't asleep and I sigh as I say "Why aren't you asleep baby boy?" He shrugs his little shoulders at me and I can't help but laugh at the gesture. "Can we pway mommy?" He asks and I decide that might be the best way to get him tired out so I pick him up and take him downstairs. When we get to the living room
Gerard looks up from his lyric journal and smiles at us before his face turns serious. "Why aren't you asleep Ry?" He asks and I say "He's not tired yet." I walk over to the tub of toys in the corner and put Riley down and tell him to pick a toy. He picks the fire truck he got for his birthday and we sit on the floor playing firemen for fifteen minutes until Riley starts rubbing his eyes. "Ok baby boy time for bed" I tell him as I put the truck away and pick him up. He clings to me and says "No mommy, no bed." I look down at his face and he looks frightened so I walk to the couch and lay down instead, laying him on my chest and cuddling him. I ask Gerard to turn the tv down and I watch tv as I stroke Riley's hair and let him
fall asleep in my arms. Twenty minutes later Riley is asleep and I am close to being there aswell. I glance over at Gerard and he smiles at me before putting his lyric journal down and picking up his sketch pad. My eyes drift shut and I lose the will to open them again.

The next morning I wake up on my side with Riley cuddled into my chest still with a blanket over us. I look around and Gerard is asleep on the other couch, his sketch book on the floor as though it had fallen there. I tighten my hold on Riley and he stirs before opening his little eyes and chirping out "Mommy." I smile down at him before leaning down pressing a kiss to his nose. He giggles and tilts his head up planting a sloppy kiss on my lips. "We watch toons mommy?" He asks and I nod before sitting up and getting up to grab the remote. When I turn the tv back on I settle under the blanket with Riley again and watch cartoons until Bandit comes downstairs and crawls under the blanket with us.
When Gerard wakes up he realises he's late for the second day of the shoot and runs around frantically getting ready before kissing all three of us quickly before running out the door. I smile at how cute he looks when he's frantic before getting up and going to the bathroom. I catch a glimpse of my neck and my mouth drops open. The bite mark is black and angry looking and it looks like his teeth almost broke the skin in a few places. I run my fingers over it and it throbs painfully.

Later that afternoon I drop the kids off at Donnas and go to the shoot for a little while. When I walk in Gerard is in bed with the girl and I feel my anger rising again. I spot Frank where we were sitting yesterday and make my way over to sit down. When I sit my hair shifts and Frank says "Jesus Christ Z" as he reaches out and pushes it aside looking at the bite mark. I flinch a little and he says sorry. "It's ok" I say and he lets my hair fall back into place. "Wanna go for a walk?" He asks and I look over at him before he adds "I wanna talk to you." I nod my head and smile as I get up and walk outside with him. When we get outside he lights a cigarette and offers me one. I take it and we start to walk around the block smoking and I say "So what did you want to talk to me about?" We round the corner and can no longer see the building we just came from when he grabs my wrist and stops me before smashing his lips to mine. I stand still completely stunned for a second and when his tongue swipes at my lips asking for entrance I snap back to myself and push him off me. "What are you doing" I hiss out as I step away from him. He steps toward me and backs me against the building we're infront of bracing his arms either side of my head. "I know its wrong but fuck Z you drive me fucking wild" He says before leaning in to kiss me again. I turn my head and he kisses my cheek before he takes one hand off the wall to move my face back and he attaches his lips to mine. I try to turn my head away again but he holds it in place and licks at my lips again. I feel my resolve crumbling and I crack, opening my mouth and kissing back. I tangle my fingers in his hair and kiss back hard sliding my tongue with his. My mind is screaming at me to stop but I can't deny I'm attracted to him. He's very good looking and I really enjoy his company. I kiss him until I feel his hands slide around my body pulling me to him and pressing against me while his hands slide lower and squeeze my ass. This action snaps me out of it and I push him away breaking the kiss. "No, we can't do this Frank. I'm with Gerard and I can't do this, I'm sorry." Frank lets out a frustrated growl before snapping "Fuck Z you're so fucking incredible and I'm crazy about you. Gerard doesn't deserve you, I would be so much better for you. You kissed me back I know you want me too." I stare at him and start to feel angry. "How the fuck would you know if you're better for me or not. I'm with Gerard and you need to get over it. I have kids with him for fuck sake. I kissed back yeah, but it was a lapse in judgement and if you ever mention this our friendship is done." Franks face falls as he realises I'm not gonna pick him and he says "I'm sorry Z." I feel my anger fade and I look at his face and he looks devastated. I feel bad for hurting him so I lean in to give him a hug ready to apologise too when he moves his head and seals our lips again. I sigh and give in as he backs me against the wall again kissing me passionately. I kiss back and soon we are making out against the wall not caring who could see. Franks hands wander up and down my sides and when we break apart for air he pants out "Come home with me." I shake my head as I freeze up at the idea. "I can't do that. I shouldn't even be doing this. I'm sorry Frank, I need to get back." I slide out from between him and the wall and walk back toward the building guilt hitting me hard and leaving me breathless. When I get back to the shoot I go to Gerard's dressing room checking my appearance before going back to the set. "Hey beautiful where did you disappear to?" I hear Gerard ask as he walks up behind me. I turn to look at him and when our eyes meet I know I can't lie to him and I need to tell him what I just did.

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