Some like to sleep, We like to play

Two months go by and the album is finally mixed and ready to be released. Gerard lets me listen to it and it is perfect and I know they're going to make it big. Over the last two months the guys have played countless gigs all over Jersey and are now well known in the Jersey scene. The day before the release Ray, Frank and Gerard do a radio interview introducing the band and plugging their release for the next day. When Gerard comes home from it he tells me it was nerve wracking and that he doesn't enjoy that side of things. "You'll get used to it baby" I tell him as I kiss him.
A month later the band has made it big and their first single 'I'm not okay' is being played to death on the radio. The guys talk to their label rep about which song to release as their next single and the rep tells them the next one needs to be accompanied by a video. After much discussion they decide it should be 'The Ghost Of You'. They get a few ideas for the video from different directors and they can't make a decision on one. Gerard tells me about them and I share my thoughts on it and the next day Gerard comes home from Rays and tells me they picked one.

The day of the shooting I leave Bandit and Riley with William and go with Gerard to the set of the video. The video concept is Gerard alone in a house at night trying to sleep but his dreams are haunted by the girl he loves who has died and he wanders through the house chasing the memories of her before waking up properly and seeing that she's still alive and well sleeping next to him. The girl playing his love is very pretty and I feel threatened by the way she touches Gerard. I sit to the side with Frank and watch and when they rehearse a scene where Gerard grabs her around the waist and dances with her before spinning her and dipping her to kiss Frank reaches over and squeezes my hand. "It doesn't mean anything Z." He tells me and I nod. Even though they film the kiss the footage will cut out and the girl will dissolve from Gerard's arms right before their lips meet when the video is edited but it doesn't make me feel any better about it.
When they take a break Gerard doesn't come over straight away but stays with the girl laughing and joking and she touches his arm and it's obvious she is flirting with him. I stare in disbelief as he doesn't shrug off her touch and I stand up telling Frank "Tell Gerard to go fuck himself" before storming off feeling irrationally angry about the whole thing. Memories of the times he has cheated on me rush through my mind and I'm crying by the time I reach my car. I unlock the door and go to open it when I hear my name being called and when I turn my head I see Gerard running over to me. "Where are you going? What's wrong?" He asks and I spit at him "First Lindsey then the skank from art school and now her? Yeah like I'm gonna stick around for this shit again."
"Baby what are you talking about?" "I saw her flirting with you and you looked pretty fucking into it" I snap back and he shakes his head before saying "Nothing fucking happened or will happen. I'm so fucking in love with you I don't need anyone else but clearly you don't trust me." I stare at him in disbelief still feeling very angry. I lunge at him and attach my lips to his as I tangle my fingers in his hair and pull hard. He groans and kisses back before pulling his lips off mine and grabbing my wrist hard and pulling me along behind him. He pulls me back into the building and into his dressing room slamming me against the door as soon as it closes and tearing at my clothes. Once we're naked he grabs my thighs and lifts me up sliding inside me as I wrap my legs around him, fucking me against the door. I gasp out as he pounds into me and slam my head back against the door as his lips attach to my neck and he bites down causing me to yell out in pleasure and pain. "You're so fucking beautiful and I would never want anyone else ever. I know I fucked up in the past but I would never do that to you again" he groans out as he slows his pace a little and sucks on my neck. He continues to thrust in and out until my orgasm hits and I scream out into the hand he slaps over my mouth. When I finish I shift so he puts me down, pulling out and I sink straight to my knees and take his dick in my mouth sucking him off until he cums in my mouth. I swallow it all as I stand up and we kiss passionately. After a few minutes we break apart to get dressed again and before we leave I fix up his hair and we walk back onto the set hand in hand smiling at each other.
I sit beside Frank again as they start filming again and he leans over and says "Nice bite mark." I blush and look down but he laughs and says "Don't be embarrassed about it. I wish I could have a hot fuck in a dressing room too." I blush even more and smile to myself before pushing him lightly and joining in on his laughter.
After that every time there is a break in filming the girl shoots me filthy looks and I smile back smugly know she wants what I have but I know she will never have it. Frank notices and laughs to himself so I lean over and say "Why don't you go console her?" He chuckles and says "She's not really my type, even if I am ridiculously horny and haven't been laid in three months." "Ouch, that sucks. Well what is your type? There's a few female crew members around here, I'll help hook you up" I tell him as I bump his shoulder with mine. "Well I like pale skin, black hair, beautiful big eyes and a killer personality. She also has to be one of the most amazing people I've ever met. There's only one person in my life who fits the description but I don't think I stand a chance" he says and stares right into my eyes. I look back as realisation hits and I open my mouth to speak but Gerard comes over cutting me off and telling me they're done for the day and that they will finish the filming tomorrow. I stand up and Gerard tells me he'll be right back after he changes.
"Frank look I..." "It's fine Z. I know I don't stand a chance but I can't help the way I feel and I hope we're still cool and it doesn't change anything" he says cutting me off. I pull him into a hug and say "I still want to be your friend but I'm married to Gerard and I don't feel that way for you, I'm sorry." Gerard comes back out and we leave hand in hand as I look over my shoulder at Frank apologetically.

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