Some like to sleep, We like to play

I take Gerard's hand in mine and say "Baby we need to talk." He nods his head still smiling at me and says "We're done for the day so come with me to the dressing room." I walk toward the dressing room with him hand in hand and when we get there I pull him into a hug, burying my face in his chest for a few seconds before pulling away and taking a step back, separating us. "Babe what's going on, you look terrified." Gerard asks and I bite my bottom lip to stop it quivering before I open my mouth to take a deep breath and say "Yesterday Frank told me he's in love with me and today he kissed me and I kissed back." I look up at his face and he looks scary. His face is blank but I can see the rage building in his eyes and I've never been so scared of him as I am now. "You cheated on me with Frank?" He spits out and I lower my head unable to look him in the eye anymore and whimper out "It was only a kiss."
"YOU FUCKING CHEATED ON ME WITH ONE OF MY BAND MATES" he yells as he picks up a chair from the other side of the room and throws it at the wall near where I'm standing. I shake in terror as I look up and make eye contact with him and for the first time in our whole relationship I fear for my safety with him. He stomps around the room picking up whatever is loose and throwing it around, trashing the room and yelling at me before he looks towards me again and makes a path straight for me. I back against the wall, terrified and shaking while tears stream down my face. He reaches me and leans over me bracing his hands either side of my head on the wall and I close my eyes waiting to get hit as he raises his hand and yells right in my face "YOURE FUCKING MINE Z."
The door bursts open then and Frank runs in followed by Mikey and they freeze when they see the state of the room before Mikey runs over to us and says "Gerard back away from her. Don't you dare lay a finger on her" just as I let out a terrified sob and Gerard seems to come back to himself and realise what he's doing. He lowers the hand he was about to hit me with and backs away a few steps and I slump to the floor curling up and burying my face in my knees to protect myself as I sob. I hear Mikey trying to calm Gerard down and Gerard yells "Get him the fuck out of here." And I assume he's talking about Frank. "I'm not going anywhere and giving you the opportunity to hit her" I hear Frank say before Mikey cuts them off and says "Tell me what's going on."
"When we were in New York recording we went out drinking one night and Frank told me he's in love with Z. Now I've just found out that he told her and then they fucking kissed" Gerard says and I can hear the anger and hate in his voice. I hear Mikey sigh before saying "Frank get out of here. Just let things calm down." I hear footsteps leaving the room and Mikey says "Gee even if she kissed him that doesn't give you the right to hit her. She's your wife, the mother of your children you can't do that to her." I hear Gerard let out an angry breath before I can't take being in the room anymore and I push myself off the floor running for the doorway straight past Gerard and Mikey, tears flowing down my face. "Z wait" I hear Mikey call after me but I keep running until I reach my car, getting in and speeding away even though I can't see through all the tears.
After a few minutes of driving I pull over on a back street and calm myself down, fixing up my appearance before driving to Donnas to get the kids. When I get them home I go through the normal routine with the Bandit and Riley, giving them dinner then helping them give Princess dinner before bath time then a bit of play time. By the time I put them to bed Gerard still hasn't come home and I start to worry. I curl up on the couch waiting for him and the next thing I know it's morning and Riley is shaking me awake while Princess licks my face and Riley giggles. I sit up and lift the dog off me and sit it back on the floor before putting on a happy face for Riley's sake and say "Good morning baby boy." "Morning mommy. Where daddy?" My heart sinks as I realise he just didn't come home at all as in the back of my mind I had hoped he had come back and just didn't wake me. "He had to go to work" I tell him trying to not show how upset I am.

The day goes on and still no Gerard. I call Mikey's house but it just goes through to his answering machine. After the first message I left saying "Its Z. I was hoping Gerard would be there or you would know where he is. The kids want to know where he is and I'm running out of excuses about where he is." I don't leave any more, just hang up when it hits the machine. In the late afternoon I get desperate and call Ray and Bob. Bob doesn't know anything and by Rays tone I know he knows what happened. "Ray I know I fucked up but do you know where he is? Please just for the sake of my kids if not for me" I plead and he sighs before saying "I went out last night with him and Mikey and he left halfway through the night" and I get the feeling that's not the whole story. My insides churn as I say "He left with someone didn't he?" I hear Ray sigh again before saying "Yeah, Z I'm sorry I tried to talk some sense into him but he was beyond drunk and went anyway." I feel my heart stop so I say "It's ok, not your fault. Thanks for trying I gotta go" before slamming the phone down and taking a few deep breaths. I pick up the phone and call the only person I have left now. "Trick" I sob into the phone when he answers it and I can't get anything else out. "Shit, Z. Are you ok?" I continue to sob and he says "Hang on baby I'll be right there" before hanging up and I sink to the floor near the phone and let myself cry. Bandit comes into the room and crawls into my lap stroking my hair with one little hand and say "Is ok mommy" like I would do for her. This is how Trick and William find us five minutes later and William picks up Bandit and says "Hey how about we go play at the park?" Her little eyes light up and she hops down from his arms and runs to get Riley and Princess. "Thanks" I choke out to William and he kneels on the floor and pulls me into his arms. I cling to him and sob until the kids come into the room with the dog with their shoes on ready to go. William pulls away and stands up leaving with the kids as I hear Riley say "What wrong wit mommy?" And Bandit says "She has owie." I smile a little through the tears and wonder how Bandit could know how my heart breaking is the cause of my tears.
After the front door closes Trick pulls me into his lap and I curl up and cry into his shirt until my tears run dry, his hand soothingly stroking my back. "What's going on?" He asks when I quieten down and I gulp in a breath before telling him what happened at the shoot the last two days. When I'm done, including what I found out from Ray, Trick opens his mouth to say something but the sound of the front door opening and closing cuts him off. We look at each other thinking it surely couldn't be William and the kids already when Gerard walks into the room. His hair is all messed up and his clothes are dirty and wrinkled and I can smell the stench of sweat and old alcohol from across the room. His eyes are bloodshot and he stares straight at me before opening his mouth and croaking out "We need to talk." "About what I did or what you did?" I snap out and his face pales as he realises I already know. "Z baby I'm sorry. It was a really bad accident and it didn't mean anything. I was just so upset and I wasn't thinking."
"I know I fucked up too but I didn't sleep with Frank" I choke out as the tears start again and Trick says "You really need to sort this, for the sake of Bandit and Riley. I'll be outside." Before getting up and walking out to the back patio. I stand up too and Gerard makes his way across the room to me stopping a few steps away. "Baby I love you and I'm sorry that I did this to you and for what I did in the dressing room yesterday." I stare at him with my bottom lip quivering before he steps forward again closing the gap between us and pulling me into his chest. I cling to him like he is my life source and bury my face in his neck. He steps back before scooping me into his arms and carrying me upstairs and into the bathroom. He sets me down starting the shower before turning back to me and starting to undress me, leaving light kisses all over my body as he goes. When he kneels down to take my sweatpants off he backs me against the wall and dives between my legs licking and teasing me. I groan out and tangle my fingers in his hair as he gets into it and I spread my legs wider as he eats me out. He starts sucking and nibbling on my clit and my legs shake before he pulls back and licks his lips groaning out a little "mmmm" at the taste before standing up and I can see his dick straining in his jeans. He tells me to touch myself and I slide my hand down and start rubbing at my clit and moaning as he undresses himself, not taking his eyes off me the whole time. When he's naked he strokes himself a few times swiping his thumb over the head of his dick collecting the beads of precum there before pressing his thumb to my lips and letting me lick it off.
Gerard takes my hand and pulls me into the shower and once we're under the hot spray of water he picks me up and as soon as my legs wrap around him he fucks into me and starts a fast pace digging his fingers into my hips growling into my ear "Mine. All mine." I tilt my head back and gasp for air in the steamy shower as he's fucking me hard enough that I see stars. I lean forward slumping against his chest and attach my lips to his neck sucking and biting to mark him as mine too. I growl out a little "mine" against his neck before sucking and biting again and this seems to spur him on and his thrusts get faster and this tips me over the edge and I bite down hard into his shoulder as I tense around his throbbing dick cumming hard and feeling my body go limp. A few thrusts later I feel Gerard pulsing inside me and I moan out again at the feeling before he grabs my chin and forces my mouth to his kissing me hard enough to bruise my lips, gently biting at my bottom one as he pulls away to breathe and growls out "mine" again.

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