I wake up to a fluttery feeling on my mouth. I open my eyes and come face to face with Gerard who is leaning over me on my bed. He immediately begins to blush and pull away when I grab his arm to stop him. I surge up and reconnect our lips in a simple kiss before pulling away. We stare at each other for a second before we meet again in a more heated kiss which turns into heated making out. I run my hands up his arms and around his neck and into his hair where I tangle my fingers while our tongues work together.
I turn my head to break the kiss so I can catch my breath and his lips begin to trail their way up and down my neck. I tighten my fingers in his hair and try not to embarrass myself with any noises. I shift slightly underneath him and my leg brushes against the bulge in his pants. He stops kissing my neck to groan and I turn my head to reconnect our lips. I feel his hands staring to unbutton my shirt and.............

"Z wake up" Trick shakes me. My eyes open and I immediately sit up and look around. My room is darkened and Gerard is gone. "Your friend had to go home so he put you in bed and left. He said to tell you he'll see you tomorrow. I made dinner so you need to come eat before it gets cold." With that Trick leaves my room. I sit for a few minutes trying to calm my heart rate. I feel rather disappointed that it was just a dream. I just hope I can turn it into a reality someday. 'Good luck with that' the voice in my head tells me. I do my best to block it out and make my way downstairs.

The next day I see Gerard outside school on my way in. He smiles at me as I approach him and immediately apologises for leaving the day before. I assure him it's fine and apologise for falling asleep. We enter the school and begin our day.

Two weeks pass and our friendship is going really great. I've been to his house and was shocked to find out its only one street over from mine. We spend every afternoon together either watching movies and cuddling at my house or playing video games with his brother Mikey at his. Mikey is really nice and funny and I can tell he means a lot to Gerard. Trick found a job in a guitar store and even made a few friends of his own with some of the staff.

My sleeping problems are back again. My mind just won't shut down and I feel anxious being in my room alone at night. My thoughts are racing and I feel like I can't breathe. Trick is asleep already and I wouldn't want to worry him when he is starting to loosen up around me again. I need Gerard. He has this ability to calm my thoughts just by being near. I glance over at my clock and see that its 2.34am. I can't take it anymore. I get out of bed and put on shoes then walk to the window. I climb out and climb down the trellis next to my window and run in the direction of Gerard's house. By the time I get there tears are streaming down my face. I kneel down infront of the basement window which happens to be his bedroom and tap lightly on the glass. Nothing happens so I tap again. I see the light go on and Gerard comes into view. Upon seeing the state I'm in he opens the window and helps me climb through. As soon as I'm in he wraps his arms around me tight and plants soft kisses in my hair. He picks me up and carries me to his bed and lays me down before climbing in and covering us up and resumes holding me. After a few minutes my tears slow and he asks if I want to talk about it. "I just want it to stop" is all I manage to whisper before the tears fall again. He reaches over to turn off the light before pulling me tighter into his chest and rubbing my back soothingly in the dark. He starts to hum lowly and I feel myself drifting to sleep for the first time in four days.

Notes

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