Our Lady Of Sorrows

Those little pink plus signs crushed every single one of my hopes and dreams I had ever wanted for myself. This was so overwhelming I had to go over to the bathroom wall and sink to my knee's and just sit there. Not long later, Gerard came over and sat next to me. Neither one of us said anything, we just sat there in silence.

"What are we going to do?" I asked, I did not want this baby.

"I turn 18 in a few weeks and we'll both graduate before the baby gets here." Gerard said like he thought we were gonna keep it.

"We can't take care of a baby." I told him.

"Are you saying you want an abortion?"

"And you don't?" I asked getting up from the floor.

"No! I want it, it's my baby. I'm going to be a dad."

"Its my body!" I yelled at him, "And I don't wanna have it."

"So what? You wanna kill it and pretend like nothing ever happened? Its a baby," he said in a smaller voice and started to come close to me, "It cant defend itself, it depends on you to take care of it, to stand up from it when no one else will."

What he was saying was bringing tears to my eyes, I couldn't let Gerard see me at a weak state so I turned away from him. Even though what he was saying was true and brought tears to my eyes, it didn't sway me wanting to be a teen mother. A few sobs escaped my lips.

"Hey," Gerard said in a soothing voice and came behind me and wrapped his arms around my waist and held his hands where the baby would be. "Don't cry, we can and will get through this."

"I don't wanna kill it." I told him and he released a breath. "But I don't wanna keep it and raise it either." He instantly pulled away from me.

"you mean, you wanna give our baby away to random strangers?" He asked harshly.

"Yeah, I wanna give it up for adoption."

"No." he said.

"Yes, I can, I don't want it and I can legally give up my rights and give it away."

"If you do that, I'll fight for it."

"Excuse me?" I spun to face him.

"If you don' t want it and want to give up your rights as a parent, then go ahead. But I am still it's father and I will keep and raise my baby."

"If you do that, then were done." I warned him. He took a few steps away from me and put up his hands.

"Liz, I love you more then anything and you know that. But my baby comes first. I'm sorry, I hope you come to see how important this baby is in the future, but until then I will legally take care of it." By now I was crying. "Please don't cry." He told me and came over to me and lifted my chin up, I snatched away my face from his touch.

"If you loved me then you wont do this to me." I told him.

"I'll be back tomorrow." He said and started to walk away, I followed him.

"What makes you think I want to see you ever again?" I told him.

"I'm coming back for the baby, and hopefully you'll be able to see my point of view in the future." He walked up to me and kissed my head, I let him. "I love you."

"I love you to." I whispered barley loud enough for him to hear as he left.

What the fuck have I done?

Notes

I don't know how much I like this chapter, I think I may go back and change it. Comment on what you think

Till next we meet my killjoys