hell is all cages & screams of the doomed

***** Jades POV *****

"I Can't-"

Guilt was hitting me wave and wave again right like a blow to the face. This is my fault... What if.... What if Boy... (Remember chapter 8? XD ) What if he found her? What if he hurt her because he thought they where hurting Emily... Oh God. I told him some thing that day. Some thing no one else heard. While we were running for the door I told him if he saw Kaitlyn or Gerard in town to kill them... And he did... He found her... Now she's gone... and if I tell Gerard he will hurt me I just know it.

I fell to my knees and sat there. before I knew it I could feel the warm little trails trailing down my cheeks. Every tear falling. It was so quiet that you could hear a little 'Splosh' as it hit the ground. Some where a clock was ticking and I could hear it. its every repeating sounds. Tic Toc Tic Toc Tic Toc Tic. A never ending cycle of tics and tocs. 'You have to tell him' something was saying in the back of my head. 'Tell him and he will hurt you beyond any pain you have ever felt' another voice was telling me. 'Tell him' 'Don't tell him' 'TELL HIM' 'DONT YOU DARE' The voices where becoming to much and I started crying harder then before.

I felt two warm arms wrap around me and I cuddled into them while crying. Then I Remembered why I was crying and I crawled away from Gerard. I couldn't face him. Not after what I know. I could see pain and hurt in his eyes but I had to ignore it. I could feel guilt and some thing else I couldn't explain keep washing over me. Whatever the other feeling was it must have been strong. It made me think of things he would do to me. Made me want to kill myself all over again. Made every other felling float away like some one was taking them away and replacing them with fear and dark things.

These thoughts where starting to scare me. So many horrible things rushing through my head at 100 miles per hour. Then the thoughts went away. and when I opened my eyes I could see Gerard siting on the couch watching more news about her. I had to tell him. I couldn't live with this guilt. Its so strong that I swear I will end up telling him some time but I must tell him now. I walk up to where he was sitting and sit down next to him. My eyes start to get watery but I know crying isn't an option right now.

"I-I-I'm s-so sorry G-Gerard" I couldn't help but stutter because I was so deathly scared of what he was gonna say when he knew what I had done.
"It's ok Jade nothing here is your fault-" I had to cut him off I couldn't take it any more.
"I-it was me. It Was Me" I said it twice on the second time being more clear then the first.
"What Jade? What was you?" I have to tell him its to late to turn back now.
"I killed her gee. I Killed Her" he looked at me in shock and then calmed down again.
"Jade you couldn't of you where here the whole time" he lightly laughs. If only he knew.
"No hear me out Gerard" I said clear and taking a deep breath.
"Many days- Weeks ago when we where escaping" I could see the rage in his eyes about this topic. "I told the Boy to kill you or Kaitlyn if he ever say you guys out of the house" His eyes turned to pure rage now and I would be lying if I said I wasn't scared. Because hell I was scared right now. "Back when we thought you and her where nothing but evil I told him on the way out. He must of found her"

He stood up just looking at me and raised his hand. He was going to hit me. oh god he is gonna hit me. "Gerard please I-I'm so sorry" I tried to say but his hand made contact with my face. it stang and it hurt. He reminded me so much of a boy in high school. He would hit me every day but I would always hide the slap so my mother didn't see.

His hand made contact with my face once more and I fell to the ground. He then looked at me then his hand and I could see his emotion change dramatically. I didn't know if it was good or bad but I hade to leave. Go any where but here. For I was scared out of my life of what else he could do. I ran to the door but he somehow bet me.

"You aren't leaving"

Notes

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