Pay the price

I woke up and yawned. I felt amazing from the nap and wanted to just lay there in bed forever but then I remembered mikey and Nathan.

I glanced at the clock and saw it was four o'clock shit! I've been asleep for almost three hours.

I jumped out of bed and frantically ran downstairs. The sight before me as I reached the living room wasn't really what I was expecting. I saw gerard in my living room holding Nathan and crying while talking to mikey.

"mikey I miss him so much and I can't get him back." He whispered shakily.

I was interested in what he was talking about so I stayed back on the stairwell out of sight to listen.

"Gee come on that's why were gonna go out to eat. so you two can talk." Mikey said.

"But mikes what if he doesn't want me back." He said and I saw a tear roll down his cheek. "Fuck I love him so much it hurts and now he lost his mom and has Nathan. If we were together I could help him and it'd be like we were a family" he whispered again

"gee that chance is still there-"

"mikey I fucking blew it okay. I should've just had the balls to ask him in the first place before we broke up. I was a fucking chicken and I ruined it." He spat out

Suddenly nathan began crying loudly and gerard freaked out. "Fuck mikey what'd I do!?"

"Shh gee I'm sure he's fine just uh rock him or something." Mikey said nervously

i walked into the living room then and smiled. "Hes actually probably just hungry."

"Frank?" They both said at the same time sharing nervous looks wondering how long I'd been there.

"Yea sorry I slept so long but I'm kind of trained now to wake up when I hear crying so when he cries I'm up...." I trailed off looking at my feet.

I glanced up and saw gerard was just staring at me. "you want to feed him?" I asked.

He just awkwardly nodded at me. I went to grab a bottle and heard him whispering nervously to mikey and mikey telling him to calm down.

I wasn't really mad at gerard anymore just hurt. Plus I want to figure out what he meant when he said he blew his chance and should've just asked.
Asked what? I mean what question is there?

"here hold him like this." I said fixing Nathan in Gerard's arms when I returned from the kitchen. "And just keep the bottle tilted." I smiled.

Gerard looked at nathan nervously like if he were to make the wrong move Nathan would suddenly die or dissapear. Slowly he began to feed Nathan and after a minute he was calm and smiling as he watched Nathan drink.

"So what do you guys want to do for dinner?" Mikey asked.

"You guys want pizza?" I suggested.

"I mean don't you want to get out frank? Like go somewhere instead of pizza?" Mikey asked.

"Well it doesn't matter to me it was just a suggestion whatever you guys wanna do is fine." I said quietly. I did want to get out but every time now that I go out with Nathan I get dirty looks from people whi think I'm some low life single teen dad.

"If frank wants pizza we'll do pizza, mikes we can go out another night." Gerard said giving mikey a weird look.

Mikey nodded and went to order the food.

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"okay Nathan should be down for a while now maybe until morning." I said glancing at the clock which read two am.

Mikey and gerard kept saying they wanted to stay and help and basically wouldn't let me say no so they were still here and spent the day doing little tasks all over the house while I played with Nathan and some of his newer toys.

"wanna watch movies?" Mikey asked now that everything was done.

I nodded and he put on a movie id never seen. Before I sat though I took a small blanket and put it over Nathan in the swing so he'd stay warm and made sure there were no toys in the swing he could grab or possibly eat while I was sleeping.

after I decided he was good for the night I climbed onto the couch and under the blanket gerard was using. He looked at me confused as to what I was doing.

I snuggled up to his side and layed my head on his chest, then fixed the blanket so it was over both of us.
"I missed you." I said and then wrapped my arms around his waist. After a moment he wrapped his arms around my shoulders and right before I fell asleep I felt him place a kiss on my forehead.

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