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*2 months later*

"shhh shhh buddy you're okay" I said rocking Nathan back and forth in my lap.
he had stopped crying for now but I know if I stopped rocking he would just start right back up again.

I haven't gotten a full nights sleep since the night I took him home. He had to stay at the hospital for two weeks because of his prematurity but they were able to get him up to a normal weight and let him come home.

They dont believe that nathan was affected by my moms drug use but until he gets older there's no way to know.
Hes been drinking formula well and he's never showed any signs of disability yet towards me so I'm keeping my fingers crossed that he's going to be okay.

I felt nathan than kick his feet and I smiled at him, he smiled back or at least looked like he was smiling at me.
Technically I'm also Nathan's dad now. Or legal parent/guardian. Since I'm 18 I either had the choice to adopt him as my own or put him up for adoption.

Me and my mom had already bought everything I'd need before hand so I decided to adopt Nathan as my own. I have enough money for everything because I got what my mom left for me and my dad still has to pay child support for Nathan because it's what him and my mom agreed on before he was born.


I looked down down to see Nathan was now asleep and I set him in his swing in the living room while I watched tv. It was only noon but I felt dead. I made myself some cereal and sat down on the couch but of course the door bell rings just as I start to relax.

I groan and go to answer it before they have a chance to ring the bell again and possibly wake Nathan.

"Mikey?" I ask confused when I see it's him at the door. He's carrying a big blue bag like a gift and a card in his hands.

"Listen I know were not on good terms but can I come in?"

I nod "yeah just be quiet."

I glance in the living room and see Nathan's still asleep so I walk into the kitchen with mikey.
"What's up?" I ask awkwardly.

"Listen frank I know it sucks. You're 18 it's July and your home taking care of the baby...Gee told me about everything and I feel really bad about how this mess ended up, so I was wondering if you could use a hand and maybe want to go out to eat later with me and gerard." He asked. "Oh and uh here." He said handing me the gift bag and card. "It's some diapers I figured you could use them" he said. I set the bag on the counter and turned back to mikey.

I nod yes definetly needing the hand and thinking it might do good to at least talk to gerard. He'd texted me multiple times asking about Nathan and and asking about me but I never responded. I was just to upset with him for using hookers and it made me feel like he'd replaced me for a cheap fuck.

"awesome so what can I help with?" Mikey asked. I smiled at him and decided that I would try to make amends with him today.

"We'll let me introduce you to Nathan." I smiled walking into the living room and sitting on the floor in front of the swing. mikey sat next to me and smiled at Nathan.

"He kinda looks like you even though he's real young." Mikey said. "He's actually really fucking adorable though. So uh, what do you want me to help with Mr. Dad?" Mikey joked.

"Actually mikes could you just chill and watch him while I take a nap? I haven't slept a full night in forever and feel like a zombie." I asked. "He should just sleep for like an hour straight and if he wakes up and starts crying you can come get me. And if he wakes up and is happy and fine just feed him a bottle there's a bunch in the fridge, he's been eating good so he probably won't throw up or anything just burp him and if you get nervous or anything just wake me okay?"

"yeah man totally go sleep I'm sure will have fun together." He smiled. "Whenever you wake up well figure out the dinner plans k?"

I stood up and nodded. "K" I smiled then walked off to take my nap.

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