Pay the price

*3 weeks later*

"frank are you going to come out of your room?"

"No Jamia I'm not leaving to go talk with them I don't care how long they wait for me it's not gonna do anything." I said more rudely than I had planned.

"Frank today it's only one of them and really come on, they've been here every damn day to try and talk with you." Jamia said

"ya and them talking to me only got me into trouble in the first place." I argued

"frank they did not put those words in your mouth. It was you're own fault that you said them and ignoring the problem isn't going to fix anything."

"Really because right now it's working for me." I said my voice echoing through out my room.

Jamia just shook her head at me while I stared her down.
"Okay you don't want to leave I'll bring them to you." She said and then left.

She wasn't serious was she? She can't bring people into the ward isn't that like against the rules? and who in their right mind would want to come inside here anyway.

Most of the people in here are complete freaks first off, not that I have any room to talk, but even the people here with multiple personalities scare the shit out of me after I've been around them for a month

Before I got to deep in thought about the rules Gerard walked into my room. I stood up and tried to run but Jamia shut the door. Fucking mental ward doors that lock from the outside.

I slowly backed over to my bed and watched Gerard in fear as he looked around the white room.
"this place is freaky." He whispered

"That's why the freaks live here. We like it." I replied sarcastically

he sighed and took a step towards the bed then sat down on it on the end away from me. I had the urge to kick him like I kicked Mikey when I was in the hospital for shooting myself, but I held back knowing Jamia was watching me somehow.

"Frank you're not a freak." He stated.

"I don't know I've been told I'm a freak a lot."

"Frank the people that told you that were filthy old perverts and-"

"don't be a hypocrite you were one too!" I snapped.

Gerard's eyes narrowed at me in anger and I instantly shut up. "I still don't know how to make you forgive me about what happened. Billie bob and ray are long gone now after me giving them so many detentions, and as soon as they mentioned your name to the principle to fight back he flipped and kicked them out. I guess he's still on edge about where you are or if you told anyone what happened between you two."

he looked at me like he was waiting for an answer or some kind of response but I remained silent.

"Look I don't know when you're going to get out of this place but I need to know that when you do everything's done and over with. No more selling yourself. No more suicide attempts. No more fights. Just all of it done and over with. In the past way way way behind us okay?" He asked.

I nodded and saw a small smile creep onto his face for split second but it quickly left.

"I also need to know everything is okay between you and mikey..."


"No I'm not forgiving him." I said sternly

"Why? What did he do that was so horrible? He said he didn't want to be your friend anymore but only because he was shocked. It's not like he turned all your friends against you or something."

"he couldn't of even if he tried." I laughed to myself.

"What do you-"

"I don't have any friends Gerard." I stated bluntly. "Mikey was my entire life. He was the only normal part about me and being around him made me feel like I wasn't in some fucked up dream. Once he was gone so was the only thing that wasn't disgusting about myself."

"Frank you're not disgusting!" Gerard argued.

"I'm a fucking hooker god dammit!" I yelled.
"I'm a dirty disgusting human and even the people who used me are higher up on the non disgusting chart!"

"frank that's not true!" He shouted.

"well I'm certainly not fucking better than you Mr. Perfect!" I cried with tears now falling off my face.

"I'm not fucking prefect." He said seriously.

"Really how so?!" I asked rudely

"what perfect person has a fucking crush on his student!" he yelled and then left as soon as Jamia unlocked the door for him.

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