Pay the price

It had been four days since gerard ran out after I told him we fucked and now it was Monday. Today I could go back to school and catch up on my work. I'm not I worried about my grades dropping because I always do my work and have all A's. I mean my goal is to get a free ride for collage.

Gerard hasn't showed back up at all since our little argument and I don't blame him. I'm guessing he's staying with friends since he's not with mikey. I don't blame him I'd be pretty freaked out if our places were switched and I was the teacher instead of the prositute.

I got dressed and ready for school just like any other day. I brushed my hair and teeth and left the apartment that's been housing me for a week.

Im surprised gerard hasn't showed or even called once. I'm pretty sure he'd end up needing something from here eventually but I guess he doesn't want to face me.
Too bad he'll have no choice at school.

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the first half the day went normally and I only saw gerard once so far. Well I guess he decided to show up. Our eyes met for a split second when we passed in the halls and he just looked guilty while im sure I just looked normal.

I was bored in creative writing so I asked to go to the bathroom just so I could walk around. I also new the next two classes would be hell since it was double science.

I walked into the bathroom and mikey was washing his hands.
"hey man." I waved.

He looked up and his eyes grew three times in size. He just gulped and ran out of the bathroom. I ran out after him and grabbed him by his shirt.

"Mikey what's wrong? It's me frank."

he looked around nervously and he sighed. "Will you please just leave me alone ok? I don't want to be seen with you."

He said that straight to my face And felt my stomach drop. I was confused and hurt.
"W-what?"

He looked around once again and dragged me into an empty classroom shutting the door behind him.
"Frank I don't want to be seen with you okay? I can't make it any clearer than that. Just stay away from me please."

"Mikey why are you doing this? You're my only friend what did I do?" I asked starting to cry. Mikey is the only normal part of my life and if he goes then my life turns to 100% shit.

"I'm not your only friend frank. I may be your only friend without benefits though." He said glaring at me looking mad and upset. Friends with benefits? Oh...

"Wait....you...you know?"

"yes I know gerard told me frank! I don't want to be friends with some hooker who fucks people behind my back!" He yelled.

"mikey please don't say that please your my only friend I'm completely alone without you ." I pleaded with tears cascading down my face.

"It's not like I told you to go become a hooker that was your decision and I'm not being friends with someone that dirty." He said seriously.
"now I'm being straightforward and honest with you frank. I. Don't. Want. To. Be. Your. Friend. I don't want to be seen or associated with you and as far as I'm concerned we were never friends in the first place. Bye frank." He said and walked out.

I fell to the floor shaking. my only friend the only normal piece of my life gone. All because his brother didn't keep his mouth shut.

No. Y'know what it's my fault. If I wouldn't have let that slip then we'd be friends still. It's all my fault everything's my fault.

I caused all of my pain and all of my problems myself. If I could eliminate myself then all my problems would stop.

Eliminate myself. Eliminate my problems.

Eliminate. Exterminate. Kill.

If I kill myself everything will stop. And isn't that what I want? For everything to just stop.

Notes

Suicidal frank.....
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