Struggling with more Ways than one

~Gerard's POV~
~A few days later~
She wasn't at school again. I called the police after she was missing for 8 hours, the next day they filed the report. Her face is printed on posters all throughout town, I-i Just don't know what to do anymore. I sit in my room and cry for the millionth time today, sooner or later I'm going to run out of tears to let fall. Mikey rubs my back in an effort to try and console me but it does no benefit.
"I just don't know where she is Mikey." I sniffle and turn to him.
"It's gonna be okay." he squeezes my hand and smiles, I return it ever so barley.
"I miss her, I miss everything about her." I hiccup as flashbacks of our intimacies resurface from my memory. I shouldn't be falling apart like this, especially in front of my baby brother. I sob into his chest as The Ghost of You plays in my mind.
At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are
Never coming home
Never coming home.
I bite my tongue hard and jump from my bed and rush over to the licker cabinet I have hidden in my room, not giving a damn that I just showed my secret to Mikey.
"NOOO!" he cries and jumps onto my back.
"Get off of me!" I yell as I try to open and down the bottle of whiskey in my hand.
"Please Gerard! You cant leave me again! I hate seeing you like this." Tears fall down his lanky face like a fallen water bottle. "If you take one gulp of that alchohal I am taking you to the hospital."
"Over my dead body." I cackle as I tip the brown bottle into my mouth. Mikey runs out of my room crying as I help myself to the rest of my whiskey and the Vodka I have stored in my caibinet. I run my fingers through my raven locks as I put my feet upon my desk. I finish bottle after bottle and I have to admit Im the happiest I've been since my gal went missing... That is until the room started to spin. I giggled as I tried to chase it, only to fall while meandering around. I giggled as I lay on the carpet of my room.
"This carpets so soft." I laugh to myself as I stroke it. While on the floor I hear Mikey sobbing to Frank.
"He's done it again frankie." he sniffles.
"Yea I need you over here."
"We're taking him to the hospital."
"He's drunk be prepared."
The call ends and I pout on the floor. I'm a big boy, I dont need to go to the fucking hospital. I sit in a pout of rage until I see Mikey at my door, and frank. Damn, is frank always that hot?
I push myself off the floor and walk over to him the best I can.
"Hey pretty boy." I slur as I dizzly stroke his chest, he blushes causing me to smirk. I kiss his cheek before Mikey slaps me.
"WHAT THE FUCK?!" I seethe as I tackle him onto the floor.
"Frank!" he cries. I raise my fist over him before frank taps me on the shoulder, I stare at him blankly before he silences me with his soft lips. He breaks the kiss quickly, helping up his boyfriend. I'm so confused.... I think I liked that kiss...
Mikey and Frank haul me to the car but not without a fight. I slam a bottle into franks face and he does the same to me. Mikey shoves me into the car after restraining me in his jacket.
Once we got to the hospital Mikey and frank went inside to get me some 'help'.
"GET ME OUT!" I scream as I bang my head on the car window, stopping when the dizziness returns and the pain is too much to bear. Two men in navy uniforms come outside with my brother and frank, taking me tightly by the arms. I kick one of them in the shins only to be rewarded with a swift uppercut to the jaw. I heazr it crack and watch the blood pour out of my mouth.
"I JUST WANT HER!" I scream as blood bubbles over my bottom lip, making a trail on the white ties of the hospital.
"Use this." One of the doctors whispers to the others.
It's.
A.
Fucking.
Needle.
I'm done. Nope can't handle that shit.
I Kick the doctor where ever I can reach which was obviuosly high enough because I was able to run away. I ran to the bathroom ooking for solitude. I ran inside the restroom, thankful it was ony made for single use. I locked the door and cackled as the idiotic people tried to break it down.
"Good luck fuckers!" I yelled.
The room became spinny again and I saw Fletcher.
"Fletcher!" I cried in glee.
"Hey Babe." she said putting her arms around me, except I didnt feel her touch.
"Babe, I-I dont feel so good..." I mutter as the edges of my vision start to become black and the room spins rapidly.
"Fletch-" I begin but its too late... the circles have filled in, leaving me in nothing but darkness.

Notes

I almost cried writing this chapter and im probably going to update again because i have no school tomorrow :)
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