Love Will Overtake Us Both

I awoke to the sound of Gerard breathing next to me; I looked over and he was curled up, facing the door, small snores escaping his slightly open mouth. Aw, he looks so cute when he sleeps. I sat up, swung my legs off the bed, got up and walked to the door with my bag. Walking to the bathroom so I could shower fucking hurt. I tried to walk as normally as I could to mask the fact that I was in excruciating pain. I stepped into the warm water, washing any signs of dirt off my body and washed my hair. I turned the water off and grabbed a towel for my body and was about to wrap it around me when a loud knock on the door interrupted me; I dropped it to the floor in shock.
"Leil? Is that you in there?"
Shit, it's Frank. What the fuck am I gonna do with the whole 'I love Gerard and he loves me and I like Frank but he's in love with me' malarkey. This is all so freaking difficult to overcome. I quickly picked my towel up and wrapped it around me before I replied."Um... Yeah but I'm not decent so if you come in here -" I said in a rush but he opened the door before I could mutter another word and he just stared at me, utter lust present in his eyes.
"Too late..." he muttered, walking towards me, stopping when our faces were mere inches apart, his breath touching my neck.
"Uh..." I breathed, my face going red. What else can I say? That I fucked his best friend? Or that I like him but not as much as I know he loves me.
"It's ok, you don't have to talk." He smiled then stood on his tiptoes and pressed his lips to mine in a passionate kiss. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him closer, and ran my tongue over his bottom lip, begging for dominance, he, of course, granted, our tongues touched and it made me shiver with excitement and love. He is such a great kisser. As good as Gerard, if not better. He pulled away and entwined our hands and was staring up into my eyes. "That was..." he smiled, not able to think of a word to describe that kiss.
"Amazing," we said in unison. We immediately kissed again, but this time the kiss escalated quickly.
"I can't do this Frankie," I muttered into the kiss, pushing him away softly.
"Why? Why can't you kiss me?" He replied, brow furrowed.
"I... I uh..." I replied, trying to find the right words to say. Fuck, I'm gonna tell him. I don't know what his reaction will be but he's just gonna have to accept it. "I slept with Gerard last night and I didn't know how to tell you and it just slipped out." I said rather quickly so I could get it over and done with as quick as possible. "Hey, come here," I soothed as Frankie started sobbing. I wrapped my arms around his neck as he sobbed into mine.
"Why did you do it Leil? I thought we had something but obviously I mean nothing to you and I never have!" He shouted at me and ran from the bathroom, sobbing.
"Ugh! For fuck sake! Why do I have to go and ruin every fucking thing?!" I screamed and ran out of the bathroom crying as I ran into the bedroom that I was staying in, slammed the door and dropped to the floor, sobbing with my head in my hands.
"Hey Leil, what's wrong?" Ray came into the room and sat and wrapped his arms around my shoulders and rocked me while I cried.
"I just fucking mess everything up Ray and I don't know what to do," I shouted between sobs. My shoulders shook as I cried harder.
"It's ok, just try to calm down then you can tell me what's wrong," Ray soothed, kissing my hair.

~Ray's POV~
She calmed down after a few minutes, tears still running down her face, and explained to me why she messed things up and who with and I explained to her that everything was going to be ok because she has me and Mikey and that we will never stop caring about her.
"It's just that now Frankie knows, what will he do? And what will Gerard do if he finds out that I told Frank? It will break him and I don't want to see that," She said after the tears had completely stopped.
"You know that whatever happens, we will never hate you, ok? Neither me nor Mikey wants to see you hurting because it will hurt us too. It's killing me to see you upset Leil; I'm glad you stopped crying when you did because I was on the verge of tears myself!" We both weakly giggled but it died out after a few seconds and there we were, hugging each other in silence. "Right, I'm gonna go see Mikey; will you be ok on your own?" I said to her whilst unwrapping my arms from around her and holding her shoulders so she was facing me.
"Um... yeah, sure, I'll be fine; just... help me onto the bed will you? I'm really weak from what happened," She smiled, looking like her usual self, well, except for the blotches on her face where she'd been crying.
"Of course. You ready?" I crouched down when she nodded as a reply. "Ok, one, two, THREE!" I pulled her up off the floor and supported her as she walked towards the bed. I let go when we reached the bed and she dropped onto it after she placed a kiss on my cheek and whispered a quick 'thank you'. "You're welcome hun," I said as I walked towards the door, padded down the stairs and into the kitchen where Mikey sat at the table with a beer.
"How is she?" Mikey asked, genuine concern in his voice and a look of hurt on his face.
I went over to him and placed a kiss on his lips. "She's fine," I whispered whilst our lips moved in sync. God, I love him so much. I pulled away, muttered "I love you so much Mikey," and pulled him onto my lap and embraced him.
"I love you too fro fro," he said into my chest. "I'm glad Leila's ok as well though. I really do care about her you know," he pulled away from the hug and looked at me, waiting for a reply.
"So do I hun. She's like the sister I never had and I want to care for her as much as you do. Neither of us wants to see her hurting. But I saw it and it killed me Mikey; it made me think that I wasn't caring for her enough and it hurt to see her cry, it really did..." my voice faded out as I felt tears running down my face.
"It's ok, she's ok, you know that; you made her feel better, shouldn't that make you see that you do care? Because I know and she knows and you did, but now you've seen her cry, you feel like shit but you shouldn't; you should be smiling..." his voice seemed to soften as he noticed Leila standing next to us.
"It's ok. You can carry on talking; act as if I'm not here. Thank you Ray for cheering me up, it really means a lot. Shit, is he ok Mikey?" I heard her say through painful sobs.
"Well, he was until we talked about how much we care for you and he just burst into tears-"
I interrupted him. "I'm ok, now anyway. It just killed me watching you cry... Did you sleep well?" She then explained how she didn't sleep, but gathered her thoughts and worked out what she needed to do.
"I'm going to need to talk to all of you, now. Mikey, can you go and get Frankie, he won't want to me to talk to him right about now, I'll go and get Gee. Meet us in the living room would you Ray?" she said; I gave a quick nod and she rushed up the stairs to get Gee.

~Leila's POV~
"Gee... Gee! Are you in there? You need to come with me, I need to talk to all of you in the living room now." I shouted at him, banging on the door so hard, I thought it was gonna fly off its hinges.
"I'm coming, I'm coming" He shouted and swung the door back so it hit the wall with a noise that sounded like a small dent being made in it. He ran down the stairs with me, Mikey and Frank in tow. We made it into the living room a few seconds later and I motioned for all four of them to sit down. I made sure they all got comfortable before I began.
"Right... This is gonna be really hard for me to explain to you guys..."

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