Love Will Overtake Us Both

I finished talking to them and I just watched whilst Gerard stared at me in horror, Frankie looked at me with a concerned look on his face and Mikey looked at everyone, confusion taking control of his face.
"Why the fuck did you tell everyone babe?! I thought that was gonna be just between us," Gerard shouted, got up and walked towards me, fists clenched.
"She told me first Gee. I'm so sorry..." Frankie muttered.
"Wait... why are you apologising? What the fuck have you done?!" Gerard replied, turning to face Frankie.
"I kissed her this morning but she told me why she didn't want to and that was because she loves you; she pulled away because she knew it would hurt you if she didn't or if you found out." Gerard raised his fist. "Go ahead, hit me! Then Leil can see what you really are!" Frank shouted as Gerard punched him in the face, knocking Frank to the floor.
"That's what you get for kissing the girl I love!" Gerard screamed and stormed out of the room and up the stairs.
"Why did you go and tell him Frank?! Now he hates both of us!" I shouted at the, still on the floor, groaning Frankie, utter disappointment and anger in my voice.
"We'll deal with Frank if you want to go upstairs and talk to Gee," Ray said, getting up off the sofa and crouched down next to Frankie.
"Thanks guys," I replied with a smile on my face and I rushed upstairs to Gee's room. I knocked on the door but all I could hear from his room were muffled sobs from right behind it. I dropped to my ass on the other side of the door and sat there for a moment, heavily breathing. "Come on Gee. I'm so sorry that you found out like that. I didn't want to kiss him but he just did it; I pushed him away and then told him that I'd slept with you so he wouldn't kiss me again. I know I shouldn't have said it but I did it because I love you Gee, I really do. Please listen to me..." I fell back as Gerard opened the door, laughing as he knelt down to help me up.
"Are you ok?" He was laughing harder now, close to tears again.
"I'm fine!" I replied through gritted teeth. "Will you stop laughing?! It's not funny! If this was you, I sure as hell wouldn't be laughing, the guys would, but I wouldn't..." He was crying with laughter now. "It wasn't that funny! You're such a bitch! Will you shut up and listen to me or are you gonna carry on laughing?" He slowly calmed down and I explained that I loved him but I didn't like the fact that he hit Frankie like that. He was totally out of order! But I can totally understand why he did it.
"So... we're ok now, right?" He asked, sounding a little confused.
"Yeah, of course Gee; I love you so much," I sat up and kissed him before hugging him.
"I love you too Leil," he muttered into my hair.
"Come on, let's go downstairs. I need to talk to Frankie and so do you hun," I stood up and pulled Gee with me and we walked down the stairs, hand in hand. We reached the living room to find that Ray and Mikey had lifted Frankie off the floor and laid him on the sofa with a cold, wet towel on his head; his eyes were open so I assumed he was ok.
"Shit! Ray! Mikey! Get in here!" Gee shouted, worried.
"Fuck! Leil, call an ambulance." Mikey said to me in a rush.
"Ok," I ran out of the room and dialled 911 on my cell. "What do I say?"
"Tell them he's not breathing; he'll be ok though, it's happened before." Ray called. I started to sob whilst I was on the phone. I told them where the house was and they said they'd be there in 5 minutes.
"They'll be here in 5, try to do something to get him breathing! They said chest compressions should work," I was breathing heavily to calm myself down.
"Ok, we'll try that; if it doesn't work, we'll leave it till the ambulance gets here," Mikey said as I walked back into the room. Ray knelt down and started to give chest compressions. After about 10 compressions, he still wasn't breathing. Mikey and Gee started crying with me.
"He's not gonna be ok is he?" I wept. "It's all my fault! If I hadn't have talked to all of you, Gee wouldn't have punched him and he would still be breathing now!"
"Hey, it's not your fault. It could've happened whether Gerard punched him or not. It was inevitable." Ray said. He came over and embraced me whilst I sobbed. A loud knock interrupted our hug.
"Open the door! It's the ambulance crew!" One of the paramedics shouted.
"We'll be right there!" Ray shouted as he was the only one that could properly talk. We all went to the door and showed them where Frankie was.
"Does he take any medication?" another paramedic said, pushing for an answer.
"Not that we know of," Mikey replied. Tears were still streaming down his face but he'd stopped sobbing.
"Has this happened before?"
"Only once. We gave him CPR but he didn't respond. Is he gonna be ok?" I replied, still sobbing.
"If we get him to hospital now, we should be able to save him," they picked him up and placed him on a gurney and pushed it out the door and into the ambulance, connecting him up to all sorts of machines.
"Can I go with him?" I asked, wiping fresh tears off my face.
"Yeah. You go, we'll follow. Do you want anyone to come with you for support?" Gee asked.
"No, I'll be fine on my own with him hun. I love you," I muttered as I placed a soft kiss on his lips.
"I love you too. We'll meet you there," he replied and rushed off to the drivers' seat of his car. I got into the ambulance and we drove to the hospital, flashing lights and sirens making people move out of our way.
"Hey Frankie... Please wake up because none of us can live without you... I love you... so much," I sobbed. All of a sudden, the heart monitor started bleeping. That's got to be good right? Then the paramedic in the back with me shouted to the driver and told him to pull over. I instantly started sobbing harder when I was told his heart started again, like last time, but then he started to have a heart attack and that he may not make it.
"Excuse me, young lady?" the paramedic asked, snapping me instantly out of my day dream that consisted of the three guys and I without Frank; it was hell.
"Yeah? Oh, my name is Leila Evans by the way, I'm a good friend of Franks," I said through sobs; my shoulders shook as my throat was ripped to shreds from the painful sobs that escaped my mouth.
"Well, Leila, we're gonna have to shock him otherwise he won't make it. Shocking him will mean that he will most probably get to the hospital and be plugged onto life support before he can die. Are you ok with that?" I nodded and typed out a quick text to Ray.

Me: They're gonna shock him to steady his heart. He's having a heart attack; he won't make it if they don't. You're ok with that right because they're doing it now. Meet us at the hospital in 5? x

Ray: Shit. They need to do everything they can to save him; Gee nearly crashed the car when I read your text out to him and Mikey. Mikey's trying to hold it together for your sake and so am I. We're at the hospital in the waiting room; we'll still be here when you arrive. Don't worry, he'll be fine x

Me: I fucking hope so. His heart has started properly again and we're on our way now. They said that there's no guarantee that he'll survive but it's looking good at the moment x

We reached the hospital and they rushed him to the nearest ward and strapped him up to a life support machine to help him. The moment I saw he wasn't dead, I instantly calmed down so I ran straight to the waiting room and practically jumped at Gee, both of us trying not to cry again. "I think he's gonna be ok. They've got him on a life support machine to give his heart a rest but his heart was steady after they shocked it back into its normal rhythm,"
"That's great Leil. We told you he would be fine didn't we? It's happened before and he was fine," Gee said into my hair.

~Time Lapse - 3 weeks~

Now he was awake, things were less tense at home. No more crying. No more anxious phone calls to the hospital. Yeah, he was still there, but he wasn't strong enough to come home. We visited him everyday, waiting for the moment where he would finally open his eyes...
I could finally focus on a job, shit pay but it was all I could find, and the guys could focus on songwriting for a while. Until a phone call shook us all. The nurse explained that he was strong enough to come home but his heart attack and everything that happened made him suicidal and depressed. "We'll put him on medication to stop the depression but you'll just have to watch over him 24/7. So, he's not fit to be around people unless you want him to come home of course then I'm sure I can sort things out," Of course we wanted him home; was she fucking nuts? He won't be the same old crazy band member but he'll be as close to normal as he ever will be which is better than nothing I suppose. When Gee picked him up from the hospital later that day, Ray, Mikey and I set up a 'Welcome home' party for him to come back to. It had been almost a month since the heart attack so it was time for him to come back and live with us.
The door opened and we shouted "Surprise! Welcome home!"
"You feeling better hun?" I asked, confusion on my face as I saw that Gee hadn't brought him home; and instead of his face being filled with joy, it was filled with sadness. "Where is he?" I asked, my voice sounding full of worry...

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