Gerard pulled away from our I thought to be never ending kiss. “Fuck, Im sorry I shouldnt have done that. You probably feel uncomfortable around me.” He said looking at his hands. “What? I enjoyed it. What are you talking about?” I was shocked that he said that. That was probably the best thing that ever happened to me. “Really? Alright.” He was turning a bright red. He then stared at me, he most be thinking how and why enjoyed that kiss. “Gerard?” “Yeah Frank.” I dont know what I was going to ask him. I completely forgot. “Uhh..uhm...How come your being nice to me now?” Did I seriously ask this. Well I guess thats what I want to find out. He just looked at me then out into space with a blank expression. “Well...I-I guess I feel...pretty bad for what I'm doing...to you.” He stammered that out finally. But did he seriously start to care for me? Just an hour ago he was beating me up pretty bad. “How can you feel bad for me if your the one doing this to me?” I said gesturing to my jaw with the now purple bruise on it. He looked at my face in pure sorrow. Like he actually for real cared for me.

“Im soo sorry Frank!” He said resting his hand on my bruise. He then leaned in and kiss it, thinking it would get better with a kiss. “If your so sorry you wouldn't be beating me up though! I got to go. Goodbye Gerard.” With that I stood up and starting running away with tears in my eyes. I cant believe this just happened. Like he feels pretty bad for me now but later all he will do is hurt me again. I ran all the way home to find me dad waiting for me in the house. “Shit.” I said that out loud walking to the front door. Be calm everything will be fine. I opened the door and quietly making my way through the house to my room. That didn’t work. “Frank Anthony Iero! Bring your motherfucking ass NOW!” My dad yelled to me from the living room. I walked in silence. Dead silence. Im so fucking scared he is going to seriously beat me tonight. “Yes dad.” I said looking down. “Where the fuck were you last night? Huh? Why the fuck did you not tell me where you were!” He grabbed me by the hair and he my head on the wall multiple times. He then threw me across the room with blood splatter everywhere. “Stand you dumb ass up! And answer ME!” He said and I did what I was told. “I was at Rylee's house for a project that we had to finish.” I said crying now. Im so pathetic. “Stop fucking with me!” He then stopped and there was a long pause. “I know where you were. You were out on that corner selling stashes.” He was now right up on me in my face. “No I wasn't sir.” Im guessing he can hear the fear in me now. He punched me in the same spot where my head was bleeding and I fell to the ground. He was now kicking me in the sides. I think I felt something crack. He finally stopped and walked outside to his car and drove off.

All alone again, in this big world of hate. I fucking hated my life! I ran upstairs to the bathroom. I was disgusted and frightened with what I saw. My face was bruised I had a black eye on my right eye and a bloody nose. I lifted my shirt to see anything wrong. I had four bruised marks on my stomach and a two deformed rips. I stopped the bleeding in my nose. And I got my old friend out. I started cutting at my hip and arms. Watching the blood trickle down my arm onto the floor felt like heaven. Knowing that Im that much closer to being with my mom again. I washed the blood off and bandaged it up. Stepped in the shower for a bit and headed to my room. My phone was buzzing with messages. One from Rylee which I check instantly. 'Hey Frankie I just wanted to check to see if your ok :)' ' Hey Rye-Rye im fine ill see you tomorrow ok. Night.' Then I checked my facebook. I find I have four messages. One from Ray say hi or something. And another from Gerard. My heart sank a bit knowing he sent me a message. ' Frankie I want to say that I truly am sorry for what I did. I know you probably hate me right now but I dont mean any harm I promise you that. Please reply even though you want me to fuck off or something just please message me.' ' Frankie its been an hour since I sent that. Please message me back! :( Im worried about you babe.' Dam. That all I could say. Im not going to message him now maybe in the morning. Right now I'm to tired. Turning my phone off and falling to sleep in my warm pajamas in my bed.

Notes

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