The End is Easier

I woke up in the hospital.
Honestly, I didn't really care.
This wasn't the first time I had found myself in a white gown with machines and shit beeping next to me.
No one else was in the room, it was just me.
I looked down at my right arm and saw and IV leading to a bag of saline.
I looked over at my left arm and saw it was bandaged from the top of my arm to the very tips of my fingers.
there was a slight tapping on the door.
I answered to it with a 'come in.'
It was my mother.
She didn't say anything. She just scuttled over to the side of the hospital bed.
I could see that she had been crying.
She still didn't speak. She sorta smiled and hugged me.
The hug lasted maybe two minutes.
I broke the hug. She looked a bit hurt from my sudden retaliation.
"I love you Franklin."
I looked up into here eyes.
They looked sad and tired.
She had dark circles under them.
Come to realize it, she looked terrible.
Not to be rude, but her hair was in a messy bun, she was wearing her work scrubs, and a pear of old sneakers.
She had no makeup on, making her look older.
I felt terrible because I was the cause of it.
"I'm so sorry."
I sobbed.
I couldn't help from crying.
I began to weep into my hands.
"Its not your fault Frankie."
She patted the top of my head.
"Please don't cry honey."
I heard her sniffle a bit but I could tell she was trying hard to keep her own composure.
As for me, I was a crying mess.
"It is my fault! I fucked up again! Mom I'm so sorry! I've ruined your life! I'm a terrible person!"
I didn't realize it but I was scratching at my bandaged arm.
Soon it started to bleed and the gauze turned a dark red.
"Frankie its not your fault! Please don't ever say that!"
She looked over at my gauze.
I mumbled a 'god dammint'
She my mother stepped out of my room and came back shortly with a nurse.
The nurse took of my bandage and cleaned out the wounds.
It hurt, but I didn't care. I deserved pain.
She put a fresh bandage over my cuts and left.
"The doctor said you could come home today.
My mother sat down on the corner of my bed.
"He said that I would have to keep an eye on you."
She paused for a minute.
"I'm gonna go and clean the house. I want it to be clean for when you come home."
She got up and walked over to the side of my bed and kissed my forehead.
"I love you Franklin."
And with that last sentence she left the room.

Notes

Ok, this was kinda a filler chapter. But be happy that I updated twice in one day! (Even if this chapter is short) I promise that the story gets more exciting and crotch grabbingly good, (wow that was an odd thing to say) anywhale, thanks so much for the kick ass comments! Sorry for not responding! Its not you I'm just lazy!
Does anyone else listen to OneRepublic? Or am I delusional?
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