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I am afraid to keep on living

Chapter 7

(Cassie's pov)

I slowly opened my eyes and saw myself lying on Gerard's chest, also his arms were around me, pulling me close to him. What the fuck? Why is he here? Did I sleep with him last night? I couldn't remember when he came here. But something inside me didn't want him to wake up and go, I was very comfortable between his arms. I slowly looked up to his face, he was very cute sleeping... Alright! That's all! It's your fucking teacher! Stop that thoughts!

The movement of my head woke Gerard. When he realized he was hugging me, he flushed and jumped out of the bed. "I'm sorry.... You were crying in your sleep and I went to see what happened and I think I fell asleep trying to calm you down, sorry." I didn't say anything, I didn't know what to say. "I'm going to make some coffee, do you want some?" He said. I nodded. "Okay, pick some clothe from my closet and dress up, you have to go to school in one hour." He walked outside the room. I didn't want to go to school. But anyway I walked toward Gerard's closet and opened it. It wouldn't be the first time I dress up in man's clothe, so I was okay with it. I put on a white shirt with black stripes and the smallest jeans I find, still big for me, but I don't think anyone will notice.

"Want some waffles?" Gerard asked me as he saw me coming into the kitchen. "No, only coffee, I'm not hungry." "Okay." He said while handing me a cup with hot coffee. "I don't want to go to school." I said. "But you have to." "What if Dean is waiting me there?" Gerard dropped his cup and it broke. "That's true but..." He didn't know what to say. "Please. Only today." "Okay..." He said while picking a broom. "Ah fuck! I need to go now!" He yelled when he saw the clock. "Go. I will clean this." "Okay, thanks. But don’t do something stupid in absence." He said. “What do you think I’m going to do that is stupid?” I asked him, what does he think? I’m not a little kid. He looked at my arms. “Oh… okay.” I said. He was speaking about cutting again… “Promise?” “Promise.” He smiled and went out of the house.

I cleaned the mess Gerard have done some minutes ago, then I went to the living room and sat on the sofa. That was when I realized that I was alone in Gerard's house. The last day I was here with Mikey, explored Mikey's room. But I have slept in Gerard's room and the only thing I saw from there was his closet and his bed. He would never know if I explore now his room.

His walls were yellow, he had a shelving full of comics and another with CDs. His walls had a lot of drawings signed by him, he draws really good, well, that's not weird, he's an art teacher. Apart from drawings there were also some pictures. In one were two kids, one was bigger than the other, I supposed they were Mikey and Gerard when they were little. I looked another picture. This seemed more recent, there was Gerard next to a guy with a lots of tattoos, a nose ring and a lip ring.

I noticed my shirt there. It was clean. When did Gerard clean it? Also, the jeans I wore yesterday were there. I took my phone from the pocket and turned it on. I had lost calls from Dean, obviously, from Jazmin, Ruby and a number I don’t know who it is. Suddenly it started ringing. Dean was calling. Fuck.

“Where the fuck are you?!” He said. “I’m at school, don’t you see what time is it?” “Where were you yesterday?” What I was supposed to say now? I shouldn’t have turned on the phone. “Look, I don’t give a fuck. Later I will go to your school, and you better be there or I will kill your art teacher, okay?” He didn’t give me time to reply and hanged out. What the fuck should I do now?

Notes

Never thought that answering the phone could be that bad.

Comments

I JUST READ THIS WHOLE THING IN TWO DAYS AND I STARTED IT YESTERDAY AND I JUST FINISHED IT AND I'M SO SAD I LOVED IT SO MUCH :(((

Miaa Miaa
6/3/14

I JUST READ THIS WHOLE THING IN TWO DAYS AND I STARTED IT YESTERDAY AND I JUST FINISHED IT AND I'M SO SAD I LOVED IT SO MUCH :(((

Miaa Miaa
6/3/14

Omg my names Alice xxxxxxx

Mcr_is_life Mcr_is_life
2/17/14

B-b-b-but its can't be over, it can't. WHY MUST YOU END IT!

B-b-b-but its can't be over, it can't. WHY MUST YOU END IT!