(Gerard's pov)

I walked towards Esther’s house. When I arrived there, I knocked at the door and she opened. “Hey, Gerard…” She said in a tired tone. “Hey.” I said and walked inside her house. I followed her to the living room where I saw a pillow and some blankets on the sofa. I guess I’m sleeping there.

“Thank you so much for letting me sleep here.” I said and she smiled. “By the way, don’t tell Frank I’m here… he would tell Mikey and if Mikey founds out, he would do anything for me not to go to see Cassie.” I said to her. “Gerard, Frank is my boyfriend, if he asks me, I don’t think I could lie to him.” She said. “I don’t think Frank would think I’m here, but if he does and asks you, don’t lie to him, but don’t tell him I’m here.” I said. “How can I do that?” She asked confused.

“I’m going to give you an example. Ask me where’s Cassie.” I said. “Okay… where’s Cassie?” She asked confused. “Why should I know that?” I said. “Because you are his boyfriend?” She said but it sounded more like a question. “That doesn’t mean I know where she is, I don’t control her.” I said. “Do you really don’t know where she is?” She asked smirking because she was thinking I wouldn’t know how to answer that without lying. “Considering the time is it, maybe she is sleeping and I think should go to bed too. Bye.” I said and lay down on the sofa.

“See? I didn’t say I don’t know where she is, but you can’t prove I know it, also I didn’t lied. Do you think you could do it?” I said looking at her. “But even if I do that, I would feel bad.” She said. “Esther, we are talking about me seeing Cassie, I’ve been without seeing her a long time and yesterday I only saw her for ten minutes or so.” I explained to her. “But, I don’t understand why do you want to see her… like that. She can’t talk to you or even see you, it’s like she isn’t there.” She said. “But she is there, I can see her, I can hold her hand, I can stroke her, I can kiss her, I can talk to her and I’m sure that she is listening. Also, one day, maybe one nurse come to me saying that she would wake up.” I explained to her.

“But, Gerard, you have to think it correctly, what if that nurse tell you the opposite? What would you do?” She asked. “I would be a selfish cunt and disappear.” I said. I sadly have to admit it, that would be exactly what I would do if a nurse says me that. “Gerard, if you repeat that, I swear I would call Frank and tell him that you are here.” She said angrily. “Go to sleep, Esther.” I said. “Fuck you.” She said and walked outside the living room.

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I opened my eyes and stood up. I looked at the clock Esther has in the living room. Wow, I slept a lot. I put on my shoes and searched for Esther’s room. I opened the door of one room that was closed and saw her sleeping there.

“ESTHER!” I yelled and she opened her eyes. “Gerard! I was sleeping!” She said angrily. “I know that’s why I yelled. It was just to tell you that I’m going, thank you for letting me sleep here.” I said. “Okay, Gerard. Bye.” She said and closed her eyes again. I went outside the house and started walking towards hospital.

I came into the room Cassie was and saw her on the bed, with her eyes closed, as always. I walked towards her and sat on a chair that was next to her bed. “Hello, baby.” I said and kiss her forehead. “How are you doing?” I asked, obviously she didn’t answer. I hold her hand. In that moment I wondered if she could hold my hand back if she was… like that. Obviously, she couldn’t hold my hand back if she was…

“Gerard! What the fuck is wrong with you?! Don’t ever come here without my permission, I don’t care if you are older than I.” Mikey said angrily as he walked into the room followed by Frank. “Come on, we are going back home.” Mikey said and tried to walk towards me but Frank stopped him. “What the fuck are you doing?” Mikey asked to Frank. “Look.” Frank said and pointed to Cassie’s hand that was... holding mine... squeezing it.

Notes

I hope you like this chapter.