(Cassie's pov)

“I know that he doesn’t love me. No one does. Not even my parents.” I cried. “Don’t say that.” Gerard said. “But it’s true.”He looked directly at my eyes. “That’s not true.” And with that… he kissed me! He fucking kissed me! Gerard kissed me! His lips were soft and warm, the kiss didn’t last so much, but it was perfect. Why did he kiss me? I looked at him confused. Without saying anything, he stood up quickly and ran out of the room, then I heard the door of the house closing.

He kissed me and the he ran away. Why? Maybe he didn’t like the kiss and now he hate me, that’s why he ran away after kissing me. I stood up and look at myself in the mirror. Fuck, am I really that ugly? Of course Gerard didn’t like the kiss, I’m ugly. I’m sure he didn’t want to kiss me, he just did it because I was crying, but he regretted it and ran away. I closed the door of the room and searched for my razor. I dragged it across my skin, pressing harder and harder with every cut. Wait some seconds, just a couple of seconds and… there’s the blood, all my sadness escaping from my inside in form of blood. It felt so good…

Suddenly someone knocked at the door. “Cassie? Can I come in?” It was Mikey. “No, I’m busy.” I said, I didn’t want him to see me this way. “What happened?” He asked from the other side of the door. “What do you mean?” “I saw Gerard running outside. Did something bad happened?” What should I say to him now? “I don’t know… he just ran outside with no reason.” I lied. “Cassie… Gerard is my brother, I know him very well, and he wouldn’t do that… what happened?” I didn’t know what to say, so I kept myself in silence.

Without permission, Mikey opened the door and saw me sitting on the floor with blood all over my arm. “CASSIE! WHAT THE FUCK?!” He yelled and ran to the bathroom and a couple of seconds later he came back with me with a wet towel. He desperately began to clean my arm and pressing the towel to my arm trying to make me stop bleeding. “What happened? Did you do that to yourself?” “I want to sleep.” I said him to avoid the questions. He sighed and helped me to lay down on the bed.

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“Cassie, wake up.” I opened my eyes and saw Mikey. “Come on, we have to go to school.” I nodded and he went out of the room. I dressed with the first things I picked up from my bag and went to the kitchen where Mikey was. I sat down and Mikey handed me a cup of coffee. He sat next to me. “Are going to tell me what happened yesterday?” I was expecting this question. “No.” I said. “Why? What the fuck happened yesterday? Gerard came back in the middle of the night and he also refused to tell me what happened.” Gerard came back! “Did you tell him what you saw I did?” I asked him fearing the answer. “Yes.” Mikey you are stupid! “But he didn’t make any comment about that, he just told me to leave him alone.”

We went to school without talking to each other. I had art class after lunch. When I came into the class I saw Gerard there revising some drawings. I sat on my seat next to Mikey and the rest of my classmates came into the classroom. In the middle of the class Gerard stood up. “Well, class. I’m going to give you back your drawings of the animals, I must say I’m a little disappointed with some of you.” He started giving the drawings and when he finished, he looked at me. “Cassie, I don’t have your drawing, have drawn it?” “No.” I said. “Why?” Why the fuck was he acting like nothing happened? “I don’t know.” “Okay, out of the classroom now.” I went out of the classroom. Some minutes later, Gerard came out too. “Mikey told me you cut yourself yesterday, why?” Really?! Was he really asking why?! “Why did you kiss me?” “I asked you first.” “I don’t care. Why did you kiss me?” Maybe that sounded rude, but I really wanted to know it. “Cassie… I… I’m sorry, I knew that was wrong, I’m your teacher and I know you didn’t like it… I’m so sorry… I…” Why was he saying that I didn’t like it? That kiss was perfect! I couldn’t see him apologizing because of nothing, so I interrupted him… with a kiss. He kissed back and I placed my arms around his neck. This kiss lasted longer than the other. When our lip separated, we looked at each other at the eyes, without saying a word, completely in silence admiring his beautiful hazel eyes. Suddenly the bell rang and he went back to the classroom.

Notes

This time Cassie kissed him, but I'm not sure if Ilike this chapter :/ ...what do you guys think?