(Gerard's pov)

Cassie went out of the house to go to Alice’s house. I went to my room and lay in the bed. I was thinking of Cassie, I couldn’t get her out of my head. Dammit, I really love Cassie. And I hate that, I know she would never love me back. It’s very hard to have her staying at my house, knowing I could never… Agh! Why do I like her? I don’t understand me.

I looked at ceiling of my room. The same ceiling Cassie have seen this last nights and I hope she would see in the future nights. I want her to stay here, even if she doesn’t love me, I want her to be safe. Not to live with that stupid boyfriend of her… Why is she even dating him? How did they started to go out? Why he started treating her like that? Because I’m sure that in the past he was nice to her or she would never have started dating him. Lost in that thoughts, I felt asleep.

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I heard a noise, like a book falling down, that woke me up. “I’m sorry, Gerard. I didn’t want to wake you up.” It was Cassie, she was picking a book from the floor. “It’s okay, don’t worry.” She gave me a little smile that quickly faded. “Have you been in Alice’s house?” I asked her. “Yes.” So she was back… how much time have I been sleeping? “Is everything okay?” She nodded slowly. That wasn’t a good signal. She was lying, something bad was going on.

“Really? You don’t seem very happy.” She put a book inside her bag and then she looked at me. “Why am I doing here?” She asked with sad eyes. I didn’t really know what she meant with that question. “Erm… talking to me?” She started crying. “I’m sorry, Cassie. I…” “You didn’t do anything wrong, don’t apologize. It’s me, I’m a horrible human being.” How could she say that?! “Don’t say that again. You know that’s not true.” I wiped the tears that were rolling down her face and she looked at me, directly at me eyes, with his big, precious, green eyes. “Kindle is going back to her house tomorrow, with Dean. And I can’t protect her because I won’t be there, because I’m afraid. The law says she has to live there because Dean is her big brother, her family. I don’t want her to live with that monster, but I can’t do anything to save her, I’m the worst person ever.” She sat on the floor and started to cry again.

I stood up from the bed and went to sat on the floor next to her. “Cassie, I’m sure we can do anything to protect her and I don’t want you to blame yourself of what Dean does.” “But it was all my fault, I turned him into the monster he is now.” “What do you mean?” “Well…

Flashback
“This is my house.” Dean said me smiling. We came into his house and he yelled: “Kindle! Come here!” His sister came to where we was. She was of my age and my classmate at school. I haven’t talked so much with her, but she seemed nice. “I have something for you.” Dean said and handed her a book. “OMFG! I have been searching for this book a long time! Thank you bro, I love you!” She said and ran to her room. Dean took me by the hand and walked me to his room. When we were in, he closed the door behind him. “Do you want to play?” I loved him but I wasn’t ready for that. “Dean, I’m not ready, sorry.” “What?! I have been buying you presents, bringing you to all the places you love, treating you like a princess, giving you all that you want and for one thing I ask from you, only one thing, you say you are not ready?” “I know, but I’m not ready I… sorry.” I saw his eyes filled with rage. In that moment Kindle entered the room. “Dean, here isn’t page 20.” He turned to her. “SHUT THE FUCK UP AND GO TO YOUR ROOM!” Kindle scared, went out of the room and closed the door. Dean turned to me. “I said that I want sex. So we are having sex… now!”
End of the flashback.

“Oh… but that wasn’t your fault, it was his fault, that only showed he doesn’t love you.” I said because I didn’t know anything better to say to her. “I know that he doesn’t love me. No one does. Not even my parents.” She cried. “Don’t say that.” “But it’s true.” I looked her at the eyes. “That’s not true.” And with that I… kissed her. When the kiss ended she wasn’t crying anymore, but she looked very confused. That’s when I realized what I just did. I kissed her! Why did I do that? I quickly stood up and ran out of the room, out of the house, I ran down the street. I’m stupid! I’ve ruined everything!

Notes

He kissed her but anyway I think this chapter is quite sad.