I am afraid to keep on living

(Cassie's pov)

I went out of Gerard and Mikey’s house and started my way walking to Jazmin’s house. It’s been two days since I saw my friends, so I wanted to hang out at least with one and Jazmin’s house was the nearest to the brothers’ house. And maybe I should ask her for the homework of this last two days.

I arrived in front of Jazmin’s house and walked towards the door. I haven’t thought this before, what if she wasn’t home? Well, let’s try. I knocked at the door and her mother opened the door. “Hey… is Jazmin here?” I asked to her mother. “Hey, yes, she is in her room.” She said and let me come inside the house. I thanked her and went to Jazmin’s room. The door was closed. I knocked and I heard her saying “Come in.”

I came into the room and saw her sitting the bed and listening to music. She turned to me, stood up quickly and hugged me. “Cassie! Where have you been? Ruby and I were very worried about you!” She asked me. “Don’t worry. I was sick, nothing serious.” I lied. I didn’t want her to know about what Dean did to me, I didn’t want to worry her. “Are you okay now?” She asked while checking my temperature. “Yep. Are there any homework?” Jazmin though for some seconds and went to pick her bag. “Yes, I think there are… maths, spanish and art.” She took a paper, wrote the homework on it and handed to me. “Thanks.”

“By the way…” She said looking awkwardly at me. “I don’t want to bother you but… you are wearing the exactly the same shirt that our art teacher was wearing the first day of class.” Fuck! I forgot I was still dressed with Gerard’s clothes. “I think this is Dean’s shirt.” I lied and pretended to laugh. Jazmin laughed. Then I remembered that Dean was now at work. Maybe I could go to his house and take some of my stuff. “Well, thanks Jaz. I have to go. Bye.” “Bye.” After that I went out of her house and started walking to Dean’s.

When I arrived at his house I took the keys and slowly opened the door. He wasn’t there! Yes! Anyway I had to do this as fast as possible so I ran to Dean’s room where I had my stuff. I picked a bag and put inside some of my clothes, books, CDs and… one of my razors. I wish that I wouldn’t use it in the future, but just in case…

When I was ready I ran out of the house. I decided to walk back to Mikey and Gerard’s house. In my way to their house I walked in front of a chinese restaurant. They were letting me stay at their house, so I decided to buy some chinese food to return the favor, I know it wasn’t enough to thank staying at their house, but maybe they liked it.

I knocked at the door and Mikey opened it. “Hey. I brought chinese food!” I said showing it to him. He picked up and ran inside the house. “Look Gerard! Someone here is nice!” Then he turned at me and said me. “I am hungry and he didn’t want to cook anything.” I laughed and closed the door. Gerard came to where we were and looked at my bag. “What’s that?” “Only books, CDs and some of my clothes.” “Did you go to Dean’s house without us?” He asked worried. “Don’t worry, I knew he was at work.” I said to calm him. “But imagine he didn’t want to go to work today.” “But he went.” He sighed. “Okay, leave it in my room.” I nodded and went to his room while Mikey as opening the box with the chinese food. When I went back Mikey was eating it. I sat next to him and started to eat too. “Aren’t you eating?” I asked Gerard because I noticed that he was only sitting there. “No, I’m not hungry.”

Notes

I was eating chinese food while writting this chapter xD