It was a long drive but I finally made it to the old bar in zone 26, it was still bright outside, but by judging by the lighting, sunset was coming soon. I told Dr.D to tell my team to me me here in 24 hours, so I could have time to collect myself. When I walked in, I walked pasted a mirror and I saw my face, I looked like shit, Red eye, red nose, and fresh tears still finding their way down my face. Since no one was there I let myself sob for hours, until it got dark and I heard a car coming to a stop in front of the bar. I had never seen this car before but I could tell it was a killjoy car; I didn't want to look weak so I put my sunglasses and bandana on and pulled my gun out. Because of my glasses, it was harder to see, but I still kept myself somewhat hidden from my mystery guest. But as soon as they stepped out of the car I knew who it was, I could identity that fro from anywhere.

"What are you doing here Jet?" I asked dropping my gun; he stayed silent and walked over to me.

"I'm kinda busy, what do-" I was cut off by him pulling me into a big bear hug, at first I tried to push him away but he just clung on tighter to me, I gave up and hugged him back and started to cry into his arms. He began stroking my hair and whispering soothing words to me, but he just let me cry into his arms. After a bit I calmed down and pulled away.

"Are you okay?" He asked eying me.

"No, my family is falling apart." I answered.

"I was told."

"And let me guess, your here to tell me I was wrong, I should be with my father, take Party back, apologize to Ghoul, and let Party see his kids."

"No, I came because after I heard what happened, and how you’re on your own in this emotional state, I wanted to make sure you were okay, so I joined the team."

"Dr.D and Party let you?" I asked.

"No, I just told them and came here. All I heard was that Dr.D is dying, sorry about that, and Party and Ghoul both knew and didn't tell you, which is kinda fucked up. And that you left Party and slapped Ghoul. I didn't know that you won’t let him see his kids."

"Just for a few days."

"Okay, whatever you say. Come on," He said grabbing my arm and pulling me inside, "Lets let's some food in you."

Ray tried making small talk to me, but I just shook him off, he kept giving me a look, and I knew he wanted to talk about what had happened back in Safe Haven but he didn’t push. I was about done when pushed me to talk.

“Look Blue, I know your upset but I think you should-” He started.

“Don’t.” I warned cutting him off.

“He’s an emotional wreck!” He blurted, catching my attention.

“He hasn’t stopped crying, he won’t talk to anyone, he locked himself in your old room, and he won’t anyone in, even Kobra. The team as tried getting him to open the door but he won’t, he won’t respond to anyone, the only reason we know he’s alive is because we can hear his sobs outside of the door. Hell, we tried calling his cell phone and he still won’t answer.”

God, I’m such a bitch. How could I turn such a strong man, into an emotional wreck? I fucking hate myself. I didn’t respond to Jet, I put my head in my hands but didn’t cry, I couldn’t, I ran out of tears. Instead I pushed them into my hair and took 2 fistfuls of hair and started to tug on it, Gerard used to do it all the time when he had gotten upset, I guess I picked up on it.

“Where really worried about him.” Jet continued.

“What do you want me to do about it? He could have prevented this by telling me.” I argued, even though I was worried myself.

“I’m not saying what he did wasn’t stupid and wrong, I’m just letting you know what has happened and that we are all worried.” He said simply.

“I can’t forgive him, just yet.” I said wrapping my arms around myself.

“I know, and I don’t blame you. Just put it out of your mind until you can, you know have a team to worry about.” He said and gave me a hug, “I’m gonna get some sleep now, when are we heading out?” He asked.

“2 days, after everyone gets here, were gonna spend the night and leave the next day.” I answered.

“Sounds good.” He headed downstairs to one on the spare room. In every building in the zones were rooms underground, so we’d always have a place to stay.

I went downstairs not long after, I felt extremely lonely in my room by myself. But soon, my phone started ringing; I checked it to see it was Party calling, just thinking about him made me wanna cry. I ignored it but as soon as it was done ringing, it ran again, and again, and again. Hours passed with ringing, sometimes Kobra, or Ghoul would call in between, but almost all of them were from Party. I couldn’t take it anymore. I took my phone and powered it off, it probably was dumb of me in case there was an emergency with Kenzie or Kid, but I couldn’t take the ring anymore. As soon as it went quite, I fell into a deep sleep.

I woke up to Jet shaking me, he was holding his phone and gestured for me to take it. I gave him a questing look asking if it was Party, he shook his head so I took it from him.

“Hello?” I answered.

“Blue! It’s Ghoul.” Ghoul said, “Where’s the kids?” He asked.

“Why?”

“I need to check up on them.”

“There fine.”

“You don’t know that.”

“I know what you’re doing, Party will not see them until I give him the okay. Until then there perfectly fine.”

“He’s been trying to call you, he’s going crazy without you and the kids, I think it’s best-”

“No!” I interrupted, “If you were thinking of what would be best you would have told me. These aren’t your kids so you don’t know what’s best, and I do. Its best for them not to see their father as an emotion wreak. The next time you call better be about someone health, if not, don’t call.” I said rather harshly, then hung up on him and gave Jet back his phone.

I took a few deep breaths to calm myself down before getting out of bed and going upstairs. I didn’t know what I was doing when I grabbed a piece of paper and a pen and took a seat. Then I did, I started drawling a map of Battery City, to help the mission. Jet came over and peered over my shoulder giving a nod in approval. That’s what I loved about him, he always minded his own business.

Notes

Sorry about the wait, I've been busy lately, I probaly wont get another update in for some time.

Till next we meet my killjoys