"So what do you do at therapy?" Gerard asked as we began the walk to the therapists office.

"Well a 50 year old who has a degree from the collage of douche bags sits there and asks me questions and then tells me that he can fix my problems."

"what are your problems?"

"Gee I don't think you really want to know." I said seriously.

He jut smiled at me. "why are you smiling?"

"You called me gee." He said smirking.

I realized the mistake I had just made. Only his friends called him that name. "Shit I'm sorry I know oy your friends call you to hat it's just mikey called you that last night and-"

"frank were friends now."

I couldnt believe what I was hearing. Gerard wanted to be my friend..... I had a friend.

"Are you being serious?" I asked sounding doubtful.

"Yea your actually a really cool kid iero." He said smiling at me.

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i sat in the therapists office waiting for dr. Ryan to show up. I hated how everything to do with doctors they'd send you into a room and make you wait for twenty minutes until the Doctor actually showed up.

"Where Is he?" Gerard or gee asked.

"He should be here soon." I said back lamely.

Gee re looked bored out of his mind and I felt bad for making him come even though he offered. I was about to tell him be could leave when dr.ryan walked in.

"Hello frank." He said kindly but it was all just apart of his act.

"hey."

"And who would this be?" He said pointing at gerard.

"Just a friend."

"Frank that's wonderful! You finally made a friend!" He smiled at me but this time it was genuine smile.
"Do you have your journal for me?"

"oh..uhhhh well no." I said awkwardly scratching the back of my neck.

"And why not?"

"I burned it...."

"Why would you do that?" He said looking really confused, and gerard looked confused too.

"I had a bad night and I burned it...."

"Frank did you cut on your 'bad night'?"

I shyly nodded feeling like id I say something wrong and he'd yell at me or I'd freak gee out and he'd leave.

"Pants off let me see."

Gerard looked at dr. Ryan in utter disbelief when he said that.
I knew he'd watch again or look at the cuts.

I stood undid my belt and pulled my skinnies down to my ankles. I awkwardly undid the gauze and pulled my underwear up to show the cuts accidentally flashing some of my junk at dr.ryan.

My face heated up and I fixed my boxers praying that dr.ryan and gee especially hadn't noticed. I shot a quick glance over at gee and by the way he was looking away awkwardly I could tell he'd seen.

His is face was red and he looked nervous. He didn't seem mad or disgusted though he just looked flustered.

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the walk home was basically silent. In fact Gerard had remained silent since that awkward moment in dr. Ryan's office.

we reached our street and I figured that he'd just automatically not want me at his house so I turned down my walk way.

"Hey where are you going?"

"Uh home?" I said quietly. I couldn't tell his emotion but it wasn't angry it seemed more upset.

"you don't wanna come over? I mean we could watch another movie or something."

"Are you sure?"

"Ya! Totally...unless you don't want to..."

"No sounds fun." I said smiling up at him.

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it was almost midnight and we'd spent the day just watching movies. Mikey was spending the day at some kid named bobs house so it was just us two.

Even though the futon was open both of us were laying on the bed together. We weren't like on top of each other or anything just close like friends would be.

We were currently watching Edward scissors hands. We were at the part where they finally kiss and I could feel gerard staring at me.it was weird because I could figure out why he was staring at me.

As they were kissing I snapped and turned my head. "Why are you staring at me."

He he didn't say anything, instead he grabbed my face and kissed me.