I told my mom what had happened and she told me she was sorry numerous times that I had to spend my birthday with him. I told her I'd be spending the night at Gerard's since it was a Friday and that I'd make sure to get up for therapy.

she reluctantly agreed because she didn't want me to miss therapy since I may have ditched a couple times this week.
I went up to my room to get a bag ready for the night. I threw in some money my toothbrush my phone and phone charger and some clothes for tomorrow. I decided to change into my pajamas while I was at my house so I wouldn't make things awkward over there. First I don't like changing in front of anyone because I don't exactly like my body and second I don't need them both staring at my wrapped legs.

my pajamas consisted of a misfits t shirt that was pretty old but I liked it and it showed off most of my tattoo sleeves since it was a cut off and some green and black plaid pajama pants.

I also grabbed a seriously faded smashing pumpkins sweatshirt in case it was cold.

I kisse ss my mom goodbye after grabbing a pack of cigarettes from my stash and leaving.

I knocked and Gerard opened the door smiling at me. "Hey frank....why are you in your pajamas already?" He said looking a little hurt and confused. I'm going to go with he was hurt because he thought I didn't want to change in his house or that he was making me uncomfortable.

"No reason." I said back smiling at him and stepped into his house. I had never really been inside the ways house. I mean ya if been in like twice with my mom but I only stood in the entry way.

"Follow me." Gerard said smiling. He lead me to the basement which looked more like a bed room. "Hey frank."

I almost had had a heart attack when someone said hello from behind me in the room. I guess they noticed me jump a little because they spoke up. "It's just me Mikey don't panic." He said laughing "Hey gee what movie are we watching?"

"uhm I was gonna let frank pick. Frank here pick one out of this that you want to watch" He said pulling out a crate of DVDs from under his bed.

"pick a good one Frankie." Mikey said laughing and taking a seat on the futon.

"Here." I said pulling out the nightmare before Christmas one of my favorite movies. "Is this a bedroom?" I asked curious.

"Uh yea it's gees room he's weird he wanted to live in the basement."

"No I think it's cool I was just wondering."

"Thanks." Gerard said smiling at me for complimenting his room.

"I love this movie." He said putting into the tv

"it's my favorite, or one of them."

"Cool we found something in common." He said smiling again. I liked when he smiled it looked good on him.

"Well let's watch it." Mikey said making himself comfortable on the futon. Gee jumped on his bed and I just kinda stood there awkwardly.

"Uhh...."

"oh uhm you can lay with me on the bed if you want..." Gerard said awkwardly. It was kind of cute how he wasn't sure to ask wether or not I wanted to lay with him. Im still mad at gerard but I like this side of him a lot. If he's always this kind and smiley towards me we could probably become really good friends. I miss having Alex around since he was my only friend and it's be really nice to have someone there for me again.

"Sure" I said quietly and laid down next to him on the bed but on the side against the wall. He again smiled at me and we began to watch the movie.

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i woke up to my phone alarm to get up for therapy ringing.
I didn't move to turn it off and I had completely forgotten I was in Gerard's room until I felt a arm around my waist being removed. I opened my eyes and saw Gerard staring at me.

i realized I was laying on his chest and had an arm draped over his waist seriously close to his crotch. Like dangerously close my hand was on his happy trail.

i shot up immediately and jumped out of bed. I grabbed my phone and turned off the alarm.
"I-I'm so sorry." I said biting at my lip ring. I was nervous he'd be mad at me for falling asleep on him and for where I was touching him while I slept.

i grabbed my bag and picked it up. "Wait where are you going?" Gerard asked urgently but he wasn't mad he seemed almost upset.

"Y-you aren't mad at me?"

"no no I'm not mad at you!" He said again urgently. "Why would I be mad?"

"Uh-just...I-well...sorry?" I awkwardly.

"don't be sorry I'm not mad at you. How come you have an alarm set?"

"oh uh well I have to go to therapy.....mom said I couldn't miss again."

he he gave me a dad look before nodding his head.

"Is there uh somewhere I can change?" I asked not wanting to sound weird or scared.

"You can just change in here." He said casually. "I mean were both boys."

"oh uhm....ok."

"Frank if it makes you uncomfortable with me being here while you change I'll leave."

"No!" I said not wanton to offend him. "It's fine I'll just change quick."

I quickly tore off my shirt an pants. I slid my skinny jeans on and went to put on my shirt but I couldn't find it. I dug and dug praying I hadn't forgotten one. After what felt like forever I found my shirt and pulled it on. I turned to look at gerard. He was staring at me. staring at my body obviously checking me out.

I didn't think gerard was gay but I'm positive he was staring at my ass. I didn't say anything just continued putting things back in my bag. I stood and finally spoke again.

"Well I have to go." I said sadly. I really didn't want to leave and especially not to go to therapy.

"do you want me to come?"

I thought for a moment before nodding. "I guess if you want."

"Ya I don't mind just let me get dressed." He said sending me that damn smile again