Tashi's Pov

Three weeks.

Its been three weeks.

Three weeks since he's talked to he, since Aaron found out I smoke. Three weeks since I've had any human contact. Gerard was the last person I talked to. Three weeks ago. I've always been an extrovert. Ever since I was little I was outgoing and never shy. I need people to live. I haven't had people in three weeks. I'm convinced the world hates me. Maybe it would be better off without me. No. Stop it. You're past that. Those thoughts are in the past. You worked hard to get over those thoughts, you aren't going back to them now. But Gerard helped you get over them. Even when you spread apart, his words of wisdom were still etched in your mind.......But Gerard hates you now. You screwed up. You are a screw up. NO. STOP TALKING TO YOURSELF LIKE THAT. Gee wouldn't want you to. Why am I so obsessed with him now? Because you can't have him now, thats why, isn't it? God, you're so selfish, when do you ever think of others? Well I mean yeah, you only rejected Gerard because you thought he would get hurt.....you were think of him then weren't you? No. You did it because it would be your fault if he got hurt and you would have to live with the guilt. But you want him now don't you? Because you're just that self centered. STOP THINKING LIKE THIS, IT WON'T GET YOU ANYWHERE!!!

Ow, shit. What the hell? I looked down at my hands and quickly dropped my now finished cigarette and put my fingers in my mouth, that were now scorched due to me getting carelessly lost in thought. I sighed and ran my fingers through my hair, getting a small amount of spit in it. God I'm stupid. I couldn't help but think of the releif I felt when the cigarette burned me. The pain. Imaged of the bloody razor and my even more bloody wrist and bathroom floor came into mind. I groaned in frustration. No, no no no. I'm over that. I worked hard to get over that. I'm clean. I'm clean. I'm clean, I'm going too stay clean. I took a deep breath and walked down the street with my duffle bag remembering the events of that day.

Flashback
I left the Way residence and walked to Aaron's house on insinct instead of mine. He opened the door with a look of hurt.

"Why didn't you tell me? You lied to me!! I told you the truth about everything!!" he told me.

"Aaron what are you tal-" I started but he cut me off.

"Oh shut up Grace!! Stop looking so innocent!! Connor told me!!" he yelled. Realization hit me like a train.

"Areo, I didn't think it was that big of a deal." I explained.

"Don't fucking call me that!! Not a big deal?!? How could you say that!?! On top of that you lied straight to my face!! I was concerned about you!! I-I loved you!! Did all this mean nothing to you?! I thought you trusted me!! I was the one that saved you from the bullies!! I was the one that helped you when you felt stressed!!! I was supposed to be the one you turned to!! Not a fucking cancer stick!! I could've helped you get better if you told me!!!" he scolded. I hung my head low as my eyes pricked with tears.

"I didn't know what you would do, I was scared." I told him. He let out a sarcastic laugh.

"Well what did you think I would do?! Hmm?" he asked.

"This." I said barely above a whisper. He shook his head.

"I thought you loved me." he said.

"I do its just I di-" I was cut off again.

"Its not even that big of a deal. I'm just hurt that you didn't trust me. I just need time to think. Alone." he explained, sadness in his voice. I nodded me head and he slammed the door in my face. I went to the only place I could think of. Back to Gee's house.

I tapped on his window and found him in the same stop I left him. I could see my reflection in his window. My eyes were red and puffy from crying all the waynthere. I heard a faint 'come in' from the other side of the window, so I opened it and stepped in, feet first, just like I would do back then. I crawled on the bed next to him.

"Aaron-" I started.

"Broke up with you" Gee finsihed.

"How did you know?" I asked.

"I've known you for a long time Tashi, I've heard you cry countless times. I can hear in you voice that you've been crying, that and Mikey came in here and told me it was all over facebook" he told me. I chuckled a bit, but Gee still hasn't moved.

"I don't want to be your plan B Tash, I feel really bad and all, but-but I uhh I think we should umm keep our distance, but I still love you, whether its in a brother sister way, or more." he explained. I started crying and hugged him. He returned the hug stroking my back soothingly, whispering calming words in my ear. I honestly don't knw why I'm crying so hard, yeah I'll miss GeeBear, but we separted before. I haven't cried in a long time, now was my chance to let it out. And I did. We sat there for about an hour, until I decided to go home.

I kicked a rock as I made my way home. I walked my the steps and opened the door finding Abby playing TF2 and Amber beside her reading something off the internet. Noah was looking very unamused watching Abby's reaction to what Amber was reading. I watched in and they all stopped what they were doing and looked at me. Abby looking nervous, Amber looking disgusted, and Noah looking slightly angry, yet sad.

"Oh look who it is, can't even hold a boyfriend can you?" Amber spat. Noah sent a warning look at her.

"Uhh Grace...I'm really sorry but now that you aren't with Aaron, living with me will kinda ruin my reputation so..." Abby said looking gulity, not meeting my eyes.

"She wants you to move out." Amber finished, looking triumphant. Abby nodded her head. Noah stood up and looked at them in disgust.

"You're actually going through with this, Abby? Because of your reputaion? Shes the one thats always been there for you, and now you're throwing her out, because her boyfriend broke up with her?! She probably feels bad enough already!! She has nowhere to go!! We both know she can't go back with her mom, and she can't stay with Aaron now can she? I can't believe you!! You know what? You aren't the girl I fell in love with, you're digusting now!! I noticed a while ago but I pushed the thought aside because I thought it was too bad to be true. If shes going, I'm going with her, its over Abby, we're done." he yelled, looking down at them. We all starred at him in shock.

"Pack your bags Grace, lets go." Noah told me. I looked at the ground.

"My real name is Tashi, just for the record." I told them then ran upstairs. Packed my duffle bag and ran downstairs and out the door. Noah followed.

"So I'll probably be staying with a friend, I can ask if he has room for two if you like?" Noah asked me. I shook my head.

"I have somewhere in mind." I told him, he nodded his head and got in his jeep. I didn't have somewhere in mind, but I found myself back at the school, smoking in my usual place, and guess who was there.

"Tash? What are you doing here? It's late on a Friday." Frank told me. I scoffed.

"No shit." I replied.

"Well, I don't usually like to pry, but whats wrong?" he asked. I sighed.

"Well Gee hates me, Aaron found out I smoke and broke up with me, Abby kicked me out, so now I'm homeless and have no friends." I explained.

"That not true." he told me "You have tons of friends."

"No, I have followers, theres a difference." I exclaimed. He nodded.

"I uhh I have a couch thats avalible if you want to crash." he offered. I smiled gratefully.

"Really?" I asked while hugging him. He nodded and we were on our way to his house.
We walked in and found a lady watching tv. I cowarded behind Frank but he tugged me by my wrist making me exposed. He cleared his throat and the lady turned around and smiled at him, then looked at me in confusion.

"Uhh Mom, this is Tashi, she needs a place to crash, I was wondering if she could stay here." he asked hopefully. I bit my lip. She shook her head.

"No Frankie, Ben is staying the night." she told him. He looked at me apoligetically. I gave him a half smile and walked out. I found myself on the path to the Way's house again.

I found Gerard in the backyard smoking. He looked at me, then back at the sky.

"I thought I said it would be best if we kept our distance." he told me. I hugged him. He didn't move for a few moments but eventually hugged back. I couldn't bring myself to ask him.

"I just wanted to say goodbye." I told him. "So bye GeeBear, I'll miss you." He smiled at me.

"So long and goodnight TeeCup." he said then went back to what he was doing. I found myself lurking the streets and finally falling asleep on a park bench.

End of Flashback