Is This The End?
Nightmares and Restless Nights
I fell asleep holding onto you apparently because when I woke up I fell out of his bed in fright and ran down the hall into a random room. I slammed the door shut and began to hyperventilate when I saw whose room I ran into. I ran into the room Gee was using while he repainted his basement room.
“Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.” I whispered seeing Gerard roll over trapping himself within the black blanket on the bed. He groaned in his sleep and I stood still afraid to breathe. If I let out a little breathe Gee would wake up and freak out. And I can’t just leave cause that’ll wake him up also. I really didn’t want to wake him up. I looked down at myself and sighed in relief noticing that I was still wearing my clothes from the day before.
I just stood still as Gee shifted on his bed and slowly opened his eyes. I smiled at him and he smiled back at me softly and patted his bed.
“Come on Abby. It’s only three am dude. Just sleep here for now. We all know Mikey’s a bed hog.” Gee said and pulled me down next to him. I pulled another blanket from down by the edge of the bed and covered up with it.
When I turned in to face Gee, He smiled and kissed my forehead lightly. I smiled and gave smacked his hand lightly as he closed his eyes and fell asleep. I looked at his features but I couldn’t help but think about you. Your porcelain skin and soft hazel eyes. The way your hair fell and glasses would fall off your nose. I smiled softly and closed my eyes picturing your face instead of your brothers.
I eventually fell asleep but my dreams were haunted by the faces of people whom I left behind. All of my other friends I left for dead. But they were already dead. That’s why I left with only Chrisy and Dani only, Besides Tom and Jenn. I watched them all roaming the bombed cities with shrunken eyes and hallow cheeks, from behind a film like thing. All the people I knew were being I pressed my hands to the glass and watched in horror as Megan fell to the dusty ground and was run over with a tank.
I let out a strangled cry and fell to my knees. But when I looked up it was you looking through the glass. But it wasn’t you from now, it was you from the future. You were all grown up and you had Sarah hanging on you like a prostitute. She was dressed like one. You were smirking at me as you brought your hand up to the glass you punched it making it shatter.
I reached out to you but you slapped my hand away and grabbed my throat. I blinked again and your face turned into my father’s making me shriek. I gripped at his hand and began to scream louder than I ever had in my entire life. He smirked gripping tighter as he lifted me off the ground and with that I began to feel numb. “No! Don’t hurt me!” I yelled.
He opened his mouth and a banshee scream erupted from his mouth and then a hateful voice began to talk. “Burn baby burn;She's a witch, she's a witch and I'm a heretic. So, learn baby learnShe's a witch, she's a witch and I'm a heretic so, learn. Oh Abigail how could you do this to us? You were a product of lust.” He pushed against my skin and I could feel my world fading in and out.
Black spots crowded my vision as I looked at him and I could feel my eyes begin to close. I fell to the floor as fire surrounded me. I began to scream and yell.
I felt hands on me shaking me awake. My eyes stayed closed as I was lifted and shook by my torso. “No! Don’t hurt me!” I yelled in my dream as the fire got closer. I was shaken really roughly as my eyes flew open and tears gushed out of them. I began to cry as I held onto the sturdiest thing that was in arm reach. I held on tightly like my life depended on it and technically it did. I was afraid that the person in my dream was going to kill me.
“Shush. It’s gonna be okay. Calm down Abby.” Someone said and I nodded solemnly. I tried to stop shaking but I couldn’t. I opened my eyes and as I looked up soft lips kissed my forehead softly.
“Are you okay now?” Another voice asked from the doorway and I pulled away from the mystery person to the light yet solemn voice. I looked to see Mama Donna standing there with her arms crossed over her chest. She had a sad and pitiful look upon her features and I nodded once then looked around the room. It was light out but the curtains and clock showed nothing of the sorts.
“Yes. I’m sorry.” I said looking down at the blanket. I looked up to the person who held me and saw your face and Gee’s. Both of you were holding me tightly not positive about letting go. It made me smile as you let go and went back into your room and Gee laid back down and slept.
Good night. I thought tiredly and fell back asleep.
“Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.” I whispered seeing Gerard roll over trapping himself within the black blanket on the bed. He groaned in his sleep and I stood still afraid to breathe. If I let out a little breathe Gee would wake up and freak out. And I can’t just leave cause that’ll wake him up also. I really didn’t want to wake him up. I looked down at myself and sighed in relief noticing that I was still wearing my clothes from the day before.
I just stood still as Gee shifted on his bed and slowly opened his eyes. I smiled at him and he smiled back at me softly and patted his bed.
“Come on Abby. It’s only three am dude. Just sleep here for now. We all know Mikey’s a bed hog.” Gee said and pulled me down next to him. I pulled another blanket from down by the edge of the bed and covered up with it.
When I turned in to face Gee, He smiled and kissed my forehead lightly. I smiled and gave smacked his hand lightly as he closed his eyes and fell asleep. I looked at his features but I couldn’t help but think about you. Your porcelain skin and soft hazel eyes. The way your hair fell and glasses would fall off your nose. I smiled softly and closed my eyes picturing your face instead of your brothers.
I eventually fell asleep but my dreams were haunted by the faces of people whom I left behind. All of my other friends I left for dead. But they were already dead. That’s why I left with only Chrisy and Dani only, Besides Tom and Jenn. I watched them all roaming the bombed cities with shrunken eyes and hallow cheeks, from behind a film like thing. All the people I knew were being I pressed my hands to the glass and watched in horror as Megan fell to the dusty ground and was run over with a tank.
I let out a strangled cry and fell to my knees. But when I looked up it was you looking through the glass. But it wasn’t you from now, it was you from the future. You were all grown up and you had Sarah hanging on you like a prostitute. She was dressed like one. You were smirking at me as you brought your hand up to the glass you punched it making it shatter.
I reached out to you but you slapped my hand away and grabbed my throat. I blinked again and your face turned into my father’s making me shriek. I gripped at his hand and began to scream louder than I ever had in my entire life. He smirked gripping tighter as he lifted me off the ground and with that I began to feel numb. “No! Don’t hurt me!” I yelled.
He opened his mouth and a banshee scream erupted from his mouth and then a hateful voice began to talk. “Burn baby burn;She's a witch, she's a witch and I'm a heretic. So, learn baby learnShe's a witch, she's a witch and I'm a heretic so, learn. Oh Abigail how could you do this to us? You were a product of lust.” He pushed against my skin and I could feel my world fading in and out.
Black spots crowded my vision as I looked at him and I could feel my eyes begin to close. I fell to the floor as fire surrounded me. I began to scream and yell.
I felt hands on me shaking me awake. My eyes stayed closed as I was lifted and shook by my torso. “No! Don’t hurt me!” I yelled in my dream as the fire got closer. I was shaken really roughly as my eyes flew open and tears gushed out of them. I began to cry as I held onto the sturdiest thing that was in arm reach. I held on tightly like my life depended on it and technically it did. I was afraid that the person in my dream was going to kill me.
“Shush. It’s gonna be okay. Calm down Abby.” Someone said and I nodded solemnly. I tried to stop shaking but I couldn’t. I opened my eyes and as I looked up soft lips kissed my forehead softly.
“Are you okay now?” Another voice asked from the doorway and I pulled away from the mystery person to the light yet solemn voice. I looked to see Mama Donna standing there with her arms crossed over her chest. She had a sad and pitiful look upon her features and I nodded once then looked around the room. It was light out but the curtains and clock showed nothing of the sorts.
“Yes. I’m sorry.” I said looking down at the blanket. I looked up to the person who held me and saw your face and Gee’s. Both of you were holding me tightly not positive about letting go. It made me smile as you let go and went back into your room and Gee laid back down and slept.
Good night. I thought tiredly and fell back asleep.
@Kobra_Girl_0813
your welcome hun
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