How could he not fight for his life. I watched Gerard listen to the rules and walk with his make up artist. He looked like he was think of other things.

Why would he pick to save the life of a complete stranger. His parents died and he has to watch his brother. Shouldnt he try to live for him at least?

I don't want to be here I don't want to kill anyone. I hate it. They think I'm this killing machine that I get some kind of sick joy of kill people my age and younger. It's sick... It makes me sick. I want to puke at the thought of. All the other tributes look at me with fear, little do they know Im more afraid then they are.

But I need to bring home the pride of being a victor or not come home at all.

I mean it's not like I have a choice. I brought shame to my family when I came out. I didn't realize it was such a big deal for someone in our district. I thought if they can be in capital then I could be gay too... right? Its not like my family will ever have to work were rich.

I just don't want to kill anyone especially Gerard.