You Know What They Do To Guys Like Us In High School
Should I Be Shocked Now By The Last Thing You Said
FRANKS POV
Mikey stared at me blankly also shocked that we had missed them.
“How could we have missed them?” He asked.
“I don’t know, I bet if we hadn’t been argueing we could have go to them in time” I sighed.
“Are you blaming me?” Mikey snapped at me.
“No, Mikey! God calm down, I’m just saying.” I replied hastily.
“Whatever.” He mumbled.
I looked around the room, my stomach tightened and i gasped as i seen something on one of the walls. Mikey noticed me and worry covered his face.
“Frank, what is it?” He asked.
I.. I dont know, but it looks like blood?”
“Fucking hell” Mikey growled growing angry again.
“Theres not much, look lets see if we can find either of them, It might even be Josh’s!” I said as I walked out of the room and Mikey let go of the door and we both stood outside the bikeshed.
“Frank, you know very well Gerard has been beaten badly, Theres no point believing anything else. I just wish I knew where he was” Mikey sighed running his hands through his hair in frustration.
“He’s probably went home, where else would he have gone to?” I announced.
“Maybe, I’m going to go check. There is no way I could go back into school now,” Mikey replied, “You should stay though, just incase!” he quickly added.
“Sure, I’ll text you if I find him!”
“Same here!” He replied then quickly began to walk off.
Oh god, There was no chance I was going into school either. I paced back and forth deciding what to do. I swear the next time I seen Josh I was going to kill him for hurting Gerard.
Wait.
This wasn’t entirly Josh’s fault, Infact it was mainly mine just like Mikey had said. I was the reason Gerard had been beaten. Angry and ashamed with myself I punched the brick wall of the bikeshed and yelped as my knuckles bled. Fuck, i’d caused them to start bleeding this time. Just brilliant.
There were toilets outside of the school nearby and I decided I needed to get to them and run my knuckles under cold water. I made my way to them and quickly placed my hands into one of the sinks and ran water. It wasnt as bad as it looked, the water seemed to stop it bleeding quickly and I dabbed it dry with a tissue.
I turned around and realized one of the cubicle doors were locked shut and stopped the water to listen. I could hear somebody whimpering from behind the door.
“Gerard?” I slowly asked but i didn’t recieve a reply. “Gee, it’s Frank.”
Slowly the door creaked open and out stumbled a bloody and bruised Gerard. Fucking Hell.
GERARDS POV
“Frankie?” I whimpered. I noticed his eyes were quickly filled with shock at the sight of me. I didn’t want him here, I didn’t want him to look at me.
“Its okay now, I’m here now!” Frank gasped and ran over to me pulling me into his arms.
“Dont touch me!” I snapped wriggling out of his force. I was disgusting.
“Gee?..” He gasped to my rejection, “Please don’t be mad at me!”
“I’m not angry with you, You didn’t do anything” I softly replied staring at the ground.
“Thats the thing though! I should have done something” He sighed back at me.
“Seriously, Im not angry with you its fine.” I told him, without looking at him. I wasn’t though, Frank was amazing. I didn’t deserve him, especially after what i had done.
“Well i’m still sorry Gerard” he said reaching his hand out to take mine. I quickly jerked my own from his.
“I said don’t touch me” I growled back at him. “Look at me Frank,” I continued, ” I’m pathetic, Im nothing.”
Franks eyes became filled with tears, “Gerard, thats not true, you’re perfect! Josh is just a bully that thinks he can push other people around to make himself feel better!” He hasitly replied.
He wouldn’t be saying that if he knew the sickening things I had done. No, he deserved far better than me. I didn’t even want to live with myself anymore so why should he be with me. I burst into tears right infront of him.
“Gee, please” He began but I quickly interrupted.
“No Frank,” I gasped between breaths, “I don’t, We can’t” I didn’t want to say it, but I had to, “We have to break..”
Frank quickly pulled me into his arms again only this time holding me tight enough for me to be unable to push him off. “I love you, Gerard Way” He whispered. As I heard those amazing, spectacular, wonderful words I gave in and stopped wriggling.
“I love you too, Frankie.”
Mikey stared at me blankly also shocked that we had missed them.
“How could we have missed them?” He asked.
“I don’t know, I bet if we hadn’t been argueing we could have go to them in time” I sighed.
“Are you blaming me?” Mikey snapped at me.
“No, Mikey! God calm down, I’m just saying.” I replied hastily.
“Whatever.” He mumbled.
I looked around the room, my stomach tightened and i gasped as i seen something on one of the walls. Mikey noticed me and worry covered his face.
“Frank, what is it?” He asked.
I.. I dont know, but it looks like blood?”
“Fucking hell” Mikey growled growing angry again.
“Theres not much, look lets see if we can find either of them, It might even be Josh’s!” I said as I walked out of the room and Mikey let go of the door and we both stood outside the bikeshed.
“Frank, you know very well Gerard has been beaten badly, Theres no point believing anything else. I just wish I knew where he was” Mikey sighed running his hands through his hair in frustration.
“He’s probably went home, where else would he have gone to?” I announced.
“Maybe, I’m going to go check. There is no way I could go back into school now,” Mikey replied, “You should stay though, just incase!” he quickly added.
“Sure, I’ll text you if I find him!”
“Same here!” He replied then quickly began to walk off.
Oh god, There was no chance I was going into school either. I paced back and forth deciding what to do. I swear the next time I seen Josh I was going to kill him for hurting Gerard.
Wait.
This wasn’t entirly Josh’s fault, Infact it was mainly mine just like Mikey had said. I was the reason Gerard had been beaten. Angry and ashamed with myself I punched the brick wall of the bikeshed and yelped as my knuckles bled. Fuck, i’d caused them to start bleeding this time. Just brilliant.
There were toilets outside of the school nearby and I decided I needed to get to them and run my knuckles under cold water. I made my way to them and quickly placed my hands into one of the sinks and ran water. It wasnt as bad as it looked, the water seemed to stop it bleeding quickly and I dabbed it dry with a tissue.
I turned around and realized one of the cubicle doors were locked shut and stopped the water to listen. I could hear somebody whimpering from behind the door.
“Gerard?” I slowly asked but i didn’t recieve a reply. “Gee, it’s Frank.”
Slowly the door creaked open and out stumbled a bloody and bruised Gerard. Fucking Hell.
GERARDS POV
“Frankie?” I whimpered. I noticed his eyes were quickly filled with shock at the sight of me. I didn’t want him here, I didn’t want him to look at me.
“Its okay now, I’m here now!” Frank gasped and ran over to me pulling me into his arms.
“Dont touch me!” I snapped wriggling out of his force. I was disgusting.
“Gee?..” He gasped to my rejection, “Please don’t be mad at me!”
“I’m not angry with you, You didn’t do anything” I softly replied staring at the ground.
“Thats the thing though! I should have done something” He sighed back at me.
“Seriously, Im not angry with you its fine.” I told him, without looking at him. I wasn’t though, Frank was amazing. I didn’t deserve him, especially after what i had done.
“Well i’m still sorry Gerard” he said reaching his hand out to take mine. I quickly jerked my own from his.
“I said don’t touch me” I growled back at him. “Look at me Frank,” I continued, ” I’m pathetic, Im nothing.”
Franks eyes became filled with tears, “Gerard, thats not true, you’re perfect! Josh is just a bully that thinks he can push other people around to make himself feel better!” He hasitly replied.
He wouldn’t be saying that if he knew the sickening things I had done. No, he deserved far better than me. I didn’t even want to live with myself anymore so why should he be with me. I burst into tears right infront of him.
“Gee, please” He began but I quickly interrupted.
“No Frank,” I gasped between breaths, “I don’t, We can’t” I didn’t want to say it, but I had to, “We have to break..”
Frank quickly pulled me into his arms again only this time holding me tight enough for me to be unable to push him off. “I love you, Gerard Way” He whispered. As I heard those amazing, spectacular, wonderful words I gave in and stopped wriggling.
“I love you too, Frankie.”
SITTING HERE ALONE IN 2015 WANTING TO SELL MY SOUL FOR AN UPDATE GOD DAMMIT
6/26/15