Hold on Till May
Chapter 29: Heard of a Broken Heart? Well, I've Got a Broken Pacemaker.
Irmarie P.O.V.
Tuesday went buy so slow I swear my great Grandma was faster.
"Guys, I don't want to start school." I complained as we walked to the school.
"Honey, I'm pretty sure nobody does." Gerard said holding my hand.
"I love you and all but, I still don't want to go." I said.
"Are you in your days?" Frank asked.
"Maybe." I said.
"Always gives me the same answer." Frank muttered.
"I know you're my cousin and all but, I'm not telling you when my special friend visits me every month." I said.
"Well then, excuse me I just wanted to know so I can prepare myself." Frank said.
"Prepare yourself for what? World War Three?" I said.
"Yes." Frank said.
"No, that's when Irmarie, Gerard, Alicia, and I want to pay Gee's comic book at the bookstore, like, two months ago." Mikey said.
"Lets hope it never happens." Alicia said.
"Well, we only have five minutes to go to our lockers and get to class. I think I should go run." Venus said.
"I think that is something we all agree on." Mikey said.
"Well, see you guys at our little break." Alicia said.
We all started running to our lockers. I quickly put my French and Spanish text books away and grabbed my math book.
I began running down the hall when I bumped into someone.
"Hey! Watch it you emo cunt!" Sabrina said.
"Says the slut. Now, move!" I demanded and I picked up my books.
I had manage to get away from them. But that's just one time, and that was my luck.
After morning classes were done and lunch time came around, I headed to the girls restroom just to hang out for the heck of it.
But when I walked in, Sabrina and her crew of sluts were there already.
"Shit." I mutter to myself.
"Well, well, well. Looks like we have the cunt where we want her to be." Sabrina smirked.
I clicked my tongue. "Well, I am going to go now." I said and slowly started walking away.
"Where are you going, slut." Sabrina said and one her the slut crew grabbed me.
"You better hurry up, Sabrina. I don't want emo germs on me." She said.
"You are going to pay for changing Gerard and for all the reasons." Sabrina said.
"And what are the other reasons?" I asked trying to get away.
"For living when you should of died at Sophomore year." Sabrina said and slapped me.
"You know, that was a good slap. Next time, use that to smack yourself in the butt in one of your sex tapes no one watch." I hissed.
The girls gasped and then Sabrina pulled my hair.
"I am going to make you wish you have died." Sabrina said and threw me to the ground.
My cheek burned, my sides started to hurt. I wince in pain as Sabrina and the crew started kicking me. Sabrina bent down next to me.
"Oh, and I heard you are also going out with Gerard. You should leave him. He doesn't deserve a cunt like you. Die, bitch." Sabrina said.
"Way to be a hypocrite." I said.
"The fuck does that mean?" Sabrina said.
Are these girls really that stupid. I thought to myself.
"Well, guess what slut, you should start cutting again. And when you do, I'll make sure you'll cut deep enough to cut a vein." Sabrina hissed and kicked me in the stomach then left.
I guess they wanted to see me cry, but I guess it didn't worked.
I stayed on the cold tile floor until I could breathe. After my beating, my body ached so much, I was tired too. Even breathing hurt mainly because my chest starting hurting.
I managed to stand up and head to the sink. I looked myself in the mirror and saw a lot of cuts on my face. But they were all small.
I quickly washed off the dry blood from my face to avoid stares and blood poisoning. I grabbed some paper towel and let it soak the water first before I washed off the blood on the tile floor.
I removed my sweater and saw my bruises on my arms.
"Well, that's going to hurt for a while," I said to myself and put my sweater on.
I quickly left the restroom to go to lunch. I was the last one to get there.
"Hey, where were you?" Frank asked.
"What happened to you?" Gerard asked.
"Nothing. Just ran into a wall." I muttered and quickly started pealing my orange off. I looked up and saw everybody looking at me. "What?"
"I ran into plenty of walls. I never look like that after I ran into one." Frank said.
"So..." I said.
There was a big pain in my chest going on right now that I am trying to ignore.
"Are you sure you're okay?" Gerard asked.
"I'm fine." I faked a smiled and ate my food.
"Hale! Get moving!" My P.E. teacher, Mr. Dan said.
"I'm sorry Mr. Dad but I don't think I can run anymore." I said while resting my back on the cold while wall.
"Are you sick, Hale?" Mr. Dan asked putting his hand on my forehead. He didn't have to raise it that high because I am a short fucker. Frank is even taller than me, but then again, by one inch.
"I don't know. I've been feeling very dizzy since lunch." I said leaving out the beat up Sabrina gave me.
"Hm. Go to the nurse." He said.
"Okay." I breathed out as a wave of pain came in.
I walked to the locker rooms and changed into my clothes.
As I walked to the nurse, I stopped and took a deep breath in.
"Why does it hurt to breathe right now?" I asked and wince and began to walk.
When I got there, I knocked on Mrs. Flowers' door.
"Come in." She said.
"Uh, Mrs. Flowers?" I asked.
"Oh, what happen this time sweetie?" She asked.
I tried to quickly walk to the bed, but that made me even more dizzy.
"Uh, I feel really really dizzy." I said.
"Have you been drinking water?" She asked.
"Yes ma'am." I said.
"Hm. When did you started feeling dizzy?" Mrs. Flowers said and checked my forehead.
"Lunch." I said.
"You aren't allergic to anything, right?" Mrs. Flowers said.
"Just bluegrass." I said.
"Hm. I don't have anything for it. Do you know anyone that could pick you up?" Mrs. Flowers said.
"Yeah. Vinny isn't working today." I said.
Mrs. Flowers dialed Vinny's number. I lay down and looked at the ceiling.
"Okay, he's be here in ten minutes the most." Mrs. Flowers said. "I'll go get your things for you. Anything you need?"
"Math, Science, French and Spanish, Geography, and Literature." I said.
"Well, that is a lot of homework. I can see why you're dizzy." Mrs. Flowers said and left.
Once Vinny parked in the driveway, I opened the door and walked straight to my room. I locked the door and lied in bed.
I felt the need to cry because of today's events. My chest hurt so bad that I put both of my hands on my chest.
Moon came out of his bed that we bought him about two days ago and lied next to me.
"Are you feeling better than I am, Moon?" I asked him.
He licked my hand and meowed.
"I'm taking that as a yes." I said. I pulled him close to me and hugged him.
Moon is such a cuddle slut, I swear. When I am laying in bed, he would come and lay next to me and we'll cuddle.
I wince in pain. "Oh God, Moon. Do you think I need to see Doctor Gale?" I asked Moon.
Moon looked at me for a moment. He got up and started walking to my chest since I was laying on my back. This is Moon's way of trying to make me feel better.
"I love you, Moon." I said petting him.
Even though Moon is trying to make me feel better, I don't feel it at all.
"Irmarie?" Vinny knocks on the door. "Are you okay? Can I come in."
I didn't say anything at all. I was tired, upset, and heck, I want to disappear with Moon.
The door nob turned. "Irmarie. Unlock this door." Vinny demand.
I just stayed there, looking at the ceiling.
Vinny sighs. "Okay. I'll give you some privacy. But if you don't come out in about an hour I will come in." Vinny said.
The hour that Vinny gave me didn't last long. I heard a knock on the front door. I'm a hundred percent sure it was the guys.
I heard someone running my room.
"Irmarie?" Gerard knocked.
I hugged Moon and sat up.
"What's wrong. Mrs. Flowers told me you left early." Gerard said.
I started walking to the door so I can open it. But as I grabbed the door nob, Sabrina's words started getting in my head.
"...You should of died at Sophomore year."
"...Emo cunt."
"He doesn't deserve a cunt like you."
I know they are a few word but they still effect me.
I sat down and began to silently cry.
"Irmarie. What happened? Open the door, please." Gerard pleaded.
I hugged Moon closer to me.
"Please, Irmarie. I know what Sabrina did to you. Please open up this door." He said.
I set Moon down and stood up and opened the door. Gerard came in and hugged me.
"Don't listen to her. She's just being a bitch." Gerard said and kiss me.
"I-I think I need to go see Doctor Gale." I said.
"Okay, come on. I'll take you." Gerard said and took my hand. "Can you walk?"
"I feel dizzy." I said.
"Alright." Gerard said and started carrying me, bridal style.
"Are we going to the hospital?" I heard Venus asked.
"Yeah." Gerard said headed to the door.
"We can take her in my car." Vinny said.
"Wait! Moon!" I called.
"I'll get him!" Venus said.
"Well. Seems like your pacemaker broke." Doctor Gale said.
"Is that why you knocked me out?" I asked.
"Don't worry. You were only knocked out for four hours." Doctor Gale said and patted my head.
"Why are hospitals so cold." I said.
"Even I would like to know." Doctor Gale said. "So, how did you break your pacemaker?"
I stayed silent for a moment before speaking.
"These girls in school beat me up." I muttered.
"That explain the bruises and cuts." He said. "You have to stand up to them, Irmarie."
"I know I should, but it's just me against them." I said.
"Yeah, but you have new friends." Doctor Gale said.
He was right. I actually had friends that actually cared about me. Jamia is one tough chick and so is Alicia. I know that Venus takes karate class.
"I'll bring them in." He said and left.
In came Gerard and hugged me. "I'm glad you are okay."
"So am I." I said.
"Don't ever scare me like that." He said.
"I'll try not to." I said and he kissed me.
Tuesday went buy so slow I swear my great Grandma was faster.
"Guys, I don't want to start school." I complained as we walked to the school.
"Honey, I'm pretty sure nobody does." Gerard said holding my hand.
"I love you and all but, I still don't want to go." I said.
"Are you in your days?" Frank asked.
"Maybe." I said.
"Always gives me the same answer." Frank muttered.
"I know you're my cousin and all but, I'm not telling you when my special friend visits me every month." I said.
"Well then, excuse me I just wanted to know so I can prepare myself." Frank said.
"Prepare yourself for what? World War Three?" I said.
"Yes." Frank said.
"No, that's when Irmarie, Gerard, Alicia, and I want to pay Gee's comic book at the bookstore, like, two months ago." Mikey said.
"Lets hope it never happens." Alicia said.
"Well, we only have five minutes to go to our lockers and get to class. I think I should go run." Venus said.
"I think that is something we all agree on." Mikey said.
"Well, see you guys at our little break." Alicia said.
We all started running to our lockers. I quickly put my French and Spanish text books away and grabbed my math book.
I began running down the hall when I bumped into someone.
"Hey! Watch it you emo cunt!" Sabrina said.
"Says the slut. Now, move!" I demanded and I picked up my books.
I had manage to get away from them. But that's just one time, and that was my luck.
After morning classes were done and lunch time came around, I headed to the girls restroom just to hang out for the heck of it.
But when I walked in, Sabrina and her crew of sluts were there already.
"Shit." I mutter to myself.
"Well, well, well. Looks like we have the cunt where we want her to be." Sabrina smirked.
I clicked my tongue. "Well, I am going to go now." I said and slowly started walking away.
"Where are you going, slut." Sabrina said and one her the slut crew grabbed me.
"You better hurry up, Sabrina. I don't want emo germs on me." She said.
"You are going to pay for changing Gerard and for all the reasons." Sabrina said.
"And what are the other reasons?" I asked trying to get away.
"For living when you should of died at Sophomore year." Sabrina said and slapped me.
"You know, that was a good slap. Next time, use that to smack yourself in the butt in one of your sex tapes no one watch." I hissed.
The girls gasped and then Sabrina pulled my hair.
"I am going to make you wish you have died." Sabrina said and threw me to the ground.
My cheek burned, my sides started to hurt. I wince in pain as Sabrina and the crew started kicking me. Sabrina bent down next to me.
"Oh, and I heard you are also going out with Gerard. You should leave him. He doesn't deserve a cunt like you. Die, bitch." Sabrina said.
"Way to be a hypocrite." I said.
"The fuck does that mean?" Sabrina said.
Are these girls really that stupid. I thought to myself.
"Well, guess what slut, you should start cutting again. And when you do, I'll make sure you'll cut deep enough to cut a vein." Sabrina hissed and kicked me in the stomach then left.
I guess they wanted to see me cry, but I guess it didn't worked.
I stayed on the cold tile floor until I could breathe. After my beating, my body ached so much, I was tired too. Even breathing hurt mainly because my chest starting hurting.
I managed to stand up and head to the sink. I looked myself in the mirror and saw a lot of cuts on my face. But they were all small.
I quickly washed off the dry blood from my face to avoid stares and blood poisoning. I grabbed some paper towel and let it soak the water first before I washed off the blood on the tile floor.
I removed my sweater and saw my bruises on my arms.
"Well, that's going to hurt for a while," I said to myself and put my sweater on.
I quickly left the restroom to go to lunch. I was the last one to get there.
"Hey, where were you?" Frank asked.
"What happened to you?" Gerard asked.
"Nothing. Just ran into a wall." I muttered and quickly started pealing my orange off. I looked up and saw everybody looking at me. "What?"
"I ran into plenty of walls. I never look like that after I ran into one." Frank said.
"So..." I said.
There was a big pain in my chest going on right now that I am trying to ignore.
"Are you sure you're okay?" Gerard asked.
"I'm fine." I faked a smiled and ate my food.
"Hale! Get moving!" My P.E. teacher, Mr. Dan said.
"I'm sorry Mr. Dad but I don't think I can run anymore." I said while resting my back on the cold while wall.
"Are you sick, Hale?" Mr. Dan asked putting his hand on my forehead. He didn't have to raise it that high because I am a short fucker. Frank is even taller than me, but then again, by one inch.
"I don't know. I've been feeling very dizzy since lunch." I said leaving out the beat up Sabrina gave me.
"Hm. Go to the nurse." He said.
"Okay." I breathed out as a wave of pain came in.
I walked to the locker rooms and changed into my clothes.
As I walked to the nurse, I stopped and took a deep breath in.
"Why does it hurt to breathe right now?" I asked and wince and began to walk.
When I got there, I knocked on Mrs. Flowers' door.
"Come in." She said.
"Uh, Mrs. Flowers?" I asked.
"Oh, what happen this time sweetie?" She asked.
I tried to quickly walk to the bed, but that made me even more dizzy.
"Uh, I feel really really dizzy." I said.
"Have you been drinking water?" She asked.
"Yes ma'am." I said.
"Hm. When did you started feeling dizzy?" Mrs. Flowers said and checked my forehead.
"Lunch." I said.
"You aren't allergic to anything, right?" Mrs. Flowers said.
"Just bluegrass." I said.
"Hm. I don't have anything for it. Do you know anyone that could pick you up?" Mrs. Flowers said.
"Yeah. Vinny isn't working today." I said.
Mrs. Flowers dialed Vinny's number. I lay down and looked at the ceiling.
"Okay, he's be here in ten minutes the most." Mrs. Flowers said. "I'll go get your things for you. Anything you need?"
"Math, Science, French and Spanish, Geography, and Literature." I said.
"Well, that is a lot of homework. I can see why you're dizzy." Mrs. Flowers said and left.
Once Vinny parked in the driveway, I opened the door and walked straight to my room. I locked the door and lied in bed.
I felt the need to cry because of today's events. My chest hurt so bad that I put both of my hands on my chest.
Moon came out of his bed that we bought him about two days ago and lied next to me.
"Are you feeling better than I am, Moon?" I asked him.
He licked my hand and meowed.
"I'm taking that as a yes." I said. I pulled him close to me and hugged him.
Moon is such a cuddle slut, I swear. When I am laying in bed, he would come and lay next to me and we'll cuddle.
I wince in pain. "Oh God, Moon. Do you think I need to see Doctor Gale?" I asked Moon.
Moon looked at me for a moment. He got up and started walking to my chest since I was laying on my back. This is Moon's way of trying to make me feel better.
"I love you, Moon." I said petting him.
Even though Moon is trying to make me feel better, I don't feel it at all.
"Irmarie?" Vinny knocks on the door. "Are you okay? Can I come in."
I didn't say anything at all. I was tired, upset, and heck, I want to disappear with Moon.
The door nob turned. "Irmarie. Unlock this door." Vinny demand.
I just stayed there, looking at the ceiling.
Vinny sighs. "Okay. I'll give you some privacy. But if you don't come out in about an hour I will come in." Vinny said.
The hour that Vinny gave me didn't last long. I heard a knock on the front door. I'm a hundred percent sure it was the guys.
I heard someone running my room.
"Irmarie?" Gerard knocked.
I hugged Moon and sat up.
"What's wrong. Mrs. Flowers told me you left early." Gerard said.
I started walking to the door so I can open it. But as I grabbed the door nob, Sabrina's words started getting in my head.
"...You should of died at Sophomore year."
"...Emo cunt."
"He doesn't deserve a cunt like you."
I know they are a few word but they still effect me.
I sat down and began to silently cry.
"Irmarie. What happened? Open the door, please." Gerard pleaded.
I hugged Moon closer to me.
"Please, Irmarie. I know what Sabrina did to you. Please open up this door." He said.
I set Moon down and stood up and opened the door. Gerard came in and hugged me.
"Don't listen to her. She's just being a bitch." Gerard said and kiss me.
"I-I think I need to go see Doctor Gale." I said.
"Okay, come on. I'll take you." Gerard said and took my hand. "Can you walk?"
"I feel dizzy." I said.
"Alright." Gerard said and started carrying me, bridal style.
"Are we going to the hospital?" I heard Venus asked.
"Yeah." Gerard said headed to the door.
"We can take her in my car." Vinny said.
"Wait! Moon!" I called.
"I'll get him!" Venus said.
"Well. Seems like your pacemaker broke." Doctor Gale said.
"Is that why you knocked me out?" I asked.
"Don't worry. You were only knocked out for four hours." Doctor Gale said and patted my head.
"Why are hospitals so cold." I said.
"Even I would like to know." Doctor Gale said. "So, how did you break your pacemaker?"
I stayed silent for a moment before speaking.
"These girls in school beat me up." I muttered.
"That explain the bruises and cuts." He said. "You have to stand up to them, Irmarie."
"I know I should, but it's just me against them." I said.
"Yeah, but you have new friends." Doctor Gale said.
He was right. I actually had friends that actually cared about me. Jamia is one tough chick and so is Alicia. I know that Venus takes karate class.
"I'll bring them in." He said and left.
In came Gerard and hugged me. "I'm glad you are okay."
"So am I." I said.
"Don't ever scare me like that." He said.
"I'll try not to." I said and he kissed me.
Are you alive???
2/9/14