Frank's Point of View

I stood in the airport that evening, playing with my lip ring as I waited desperately for Jamia to arrive. I really needed to just get everything off of my chest. It was eating away at my insides. I wasn't looking forward to her reaction, but it had to be done. I really hoped that she would understand, I mean we've been together for so long and I don't want to lose her because of my own curiosity. It's my sexuality and I'm allowed to do with it what I want right? That's how this works isn't it?

"Frankie!" I heard a voice shout which snapped me out of my own thoughts. I looked up quickly and grinned when I saw my fiancé run towards me with all of her bags in tow. She soon dropped them and wrapped her arms around my shoulders, kissing me as deeply as she could muster. This had been a long time coming after all, we hadn't seen one another in about five months. I was beyond thrilled to just have her in my arms again, I really missed her. Regardless of how I feel towards Gerard, she was my girl. Always has been.

"Hey love, I missed you," I confessed after we had shared a few more kisses. She smiled up at me goofily, playing with the tufts of hair on the back of my neck like always. She was obsessed with messing with my hair, but I never minded it, it was one of my favorite things that she would do. It felt nice.

"I've missed you too my dear."

I picked up her bags from the floor and quickly went for the bus, eager to get things over with. I didn't want to waste any of the time we had together considering she could only be on tour with us for a couple of days. I let out a sigh that I didn't even know I had been holding in before knocking on the door and waiting for someone to open it for us.

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"So you're telling me that you have feelings for Gerard, you kissed on stage and off stage. And you also want to explore your sexuality more?" Jamia asked incredulously before she started pacing around the living area of the tour bus. She was pissed and I couldn't really blame her, I had essentially betrayed her and even cheated on her to a degree. At the very least I had done so emotionally. I simply nodded my head but flinched when she let out a screech. This was getting to be way to much. I didn't think she was going to behave like this. She was usually so sweet and mild mannered. Not at all like this shrieking siren in front of me.

"Wow Frank, this is a hell of a surprise, but you know I should have seen it coming. I've seen the way that he looks at you even before all of this happened, he was just waiting for the perfect opportunity to snatch you up. I can not believe that you would even think about doing this, we're fucking engaged Frank! Despite how you're feeling, my feelings should really be coming first. This is outright disgusting," she spat at me and picked up her phone to text someone from home I'm sure.

I didn't realize that this was going to end so quickly, that she was going to so easily leave me because I wanted to figure myself out. I never said that I wanted her to leave, I never said that I didn't love her, I still do from the bottom of my heart. I really wanted to be able to figure things out while she was here with me, find things out with her involved. I couldn't even get a word in edgewise, she just kept seething and barking at me.

"I'm going to go call my mother, so if you wouldn't mind I would like some fucking privacy," she squalled at me, sneering and glaring daggers at me. I threw my hands up defensively before grabbing my pack of smokes and my jacket, heading straight for the door of the bus. This was beyond crazy.

I leaned against the side of the bus and lit a cigarette greedily, but I grimaced when I felt a few tears slip past my eyelids. I wiped at them desperately, feeling my heart crack and splinter from the pain and all of the harsh words she had spoken to me. I felt so vulnerable and just torn up inside. She had been my entire world and in an instant everything was gone. She was gone. And for the time being, she wasn't going to ever come back.

I sniffled and blinked away the tears, not wanting to let this get to me. If she could so easily dump me off to the side then so could I. Like I had said before, it's my life and I will do with it what I fucking want. She can't just do this to me and think that I'm just going to cave and beg for her to come back. It was just so easy for her, so why couldn't it be the same for me? I wasn't going to let her have the upper hand.

Notes

Sad update before I clean up my house... I feel for Frankie.. :'(
Enjoy though! <3

xoxx ~Frankie Boy.