Dear Insanity.

^Gerard^
*Silence. That's what Dr.Glenn's small room was filled with once again. For two and a half minutes, the tik tok of the analog desk-clock being the only noise aside from the labored breathing of both doctors, anxiously waiting on my next move. It was no surprise to me when Dr.Glenn's eyes widened in horror as I stood up, much-too-quickly for her liking, and rushed toward Dr.Way... er, Mikey... but I had no intentions of hurting him, instead I flung myself toward him tears already rushing down my cheeks as I clung to him desperately.

*"Why did you leave me!?" I wailed out in a strenuous voice, instantly his arms were wrapped around me in return "Mikey I waited for so long." I choked out, voice almost giving out "For three hours, forty-five minutes and thirty seconds on Christmas, all day on my birthday... no one ever came to see me..." I sobbed broken-heartedly shaking and feeling mentally and physically defeated.

*"I'm so sorry, Gerard... I promise, when the time is right, I will explain everything that is in your file" I pulled away from him tentatively "Tell me now" I choked out "That's not a good idea right now, Gerard..." I hear Dr.Glenn's soft voice explain "It's never a good fucking time to talk about my file or anything about me, is it?!" I practically shouted.

*"You have to understand, you're not in the right state of mind, hun" she whispered... I rolled my eyes and pulled fully away from my brother and then left without a second word.

*I was infuriated, livid, unbelievably beyond pissed in every sense of the word.

*"Gee! Hey!"

*But it's funny how one person can alleviate all my anger in one simple second.

*"You look mad... are you okay?" the small boy stuttered out nervously, I forced on a smile and locked eyes with Frank "Just ran into a small hinderance is all" I explained as calmly as I could "Oh... are you mad at me?" he whispered out questioningly. My eyes nearly bulged out of my skull "God no, Frank why would you think that?!" I exclaimed, he shrugged slightly looking down "I was just making sure" he mumbled out "I don't think I could ever be angry with you, Frankie" I stated honestly and he blushed "Fra-Frankie?" he questioned "Uh... yeah, I thought it suits you" I mumbled awkwardly, scratching the back of my neck.

*To my surprise, he wrapped his arms around me "I love it!" (Thank god)

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*"I have instructions from Dr.Glenn that you are to eat today darlin', no if, and's, or buts" Carson explained, setting down a dry ass looking sandwich in front of my clearly disgusted face "If I drop dead because of this food poisoning, My brother will sue you" I mumbled out, hearing both her and Frank chuckle "You'll be fine hon, eat up and then head down to your evening Group" she smiled before sashaying away.

*"You have gotten skinnier, Gerard" Frank whispered, I laughed lightly "I'm okay, Frank... trust me" I ensured, he just sighed and picked up his own dry-sandpaper-sandwich. Hesitantly I raised the grotesque looking 'meal' to my lips and took, what wouldn't even be considered a bite. "Not as bad as you think, eh?" Frank encouraged, my gag reflex kicked in and I cringed "No, worse" I choked out "Oh it's not that bad" he mused, taking a bit of his own.

*His face was absolutely priceless after the dry bred and stale meat finally touched his tongue "Oh god" he groaned "You weren't lying... It's disgusting!" he cried out, dropping it back onto his plate. "What seems to be the problem over here?" Dr.Willimas questioned with her arms crossed, I went to answer but Frank beat me to it "The sandwich is absolutely disgusting! Are you guys trying to fucking kill us?!" He questioned dramatically, I choked on my sip of watered down orange-juice "Mr.Iero, there is no need for that!" She scowled picking up the poor excuse for a sandwich and took a bite, trying her best not to gag herself "I see your point... would you boys like a fruit cup instead?" she offered "That would be much better, yes" Frank responded.

*"You're crazy, fat fuck. I won't let you eat until you figure it out." Steven snapped, causing me to cringe... I looked down at my stomach and evidently, he was right. I was fat "I'm glad you see it." Steven mused, sitting taller. "Shut up..." I mumbled under my breath "I didn't say anything..." Franks' voice sounded muffled a tinge of hurt laced in it...

*"He knows that you halfwit" Steven growled, my eyes widened "Don't call him that!" I choked out not daring to look him or Frank in the face. I hear Frank say something but it was drowned out by Steven's annoying cackling "You need to remember what happened to you!" Steven shouted angerly... "I'm gonna go outside..." I practically gasped out rushing for the doors, ignoring Franks worried voice.
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*My skin felt like it was on fire, burning white hot. The brisk whip of the December air brought some relief to the horrid feeling, but unfortunately not to the tightness in my lungs. Collapsing on the ground I ran my shaking fingers through my short white hair, which was now growing out and my brown roots were starting to show.

*"You're a nutter, Gerard!" Steven called "Downright crazy psycho!" "STOP!" I cried out "Please! Just stop" I sobbed, gripping my hair tighter.

*^Frank^ (Gasp, what? Whoa)

*The moment Gerard ran off my mind went worst case scenario and I was up after him. Fuck that boy was fast... I was sure I'd lost him until I saw a tuff of white hair blending in with the white snow of the court-yard and I rushed out there, Both Dr.Glenn and Dr.Alexis running after me.

*"Frank, don't!" One of them called "He's not stable right now, you don't know how to handle it!" I ignored them, obviously... "Gee!" I called out, the frigid winter wind whipping my jacket around. He was in the middle of the yard, hunched in a ball shaking. Slowly I treated toward the sobbing boy "Gerard, It's me... Frank... look at me" I whispered hopefully, giving him pleading eyes, however, he never raised his head.

*I moved to in front of him "Gee" I whispered "ma-make it sto-st-stop" he whimpered, breaking my heart "FRANK!" I hear Dr.Glenn shout "Let me handle this" she pleaded... to which I ignored again.

*"Gerard, look at me..." I kept my distance until I was sure he wouldn't snap when his eyes finally met mine they were distant "I ca-can't breathe" he was shaking like crazy staring at nothing "I need Haloperidol in the courtyard, stat!" "NO!" I shouted "Please, Frankie no"

*"You don't understand, Frank, he needs it!"

*"Gerard, I need you to stand up for me, can you do that? I'm going to help you" I watched as his tears fell and he slowly reached his hands out for me to help him up.

*Dr.Glenn tried to stop me at the door, and Dr.Way tried once we got inside. "Fuck off! I know what I'm doing... he's having a panic attack not a fit of psychosis!" I shouted... leading Gerard into the common room, which was thankfully empty...

*"Gerard, I need you to concentrate on me, only me and the words I'm saying, okay?" I questioned the still shaking boy; who nodded with tears falling rapidly. His small gasps for air no doubt making him dizzy.

*I sat us down in front of the window with me on one side of him. "Okay, I need you to tell me what you're seeing right now..." I instructed "B-bl-blurry, Ev-eve-everything is blur-blurry" he choked out. I grabbed his hand and squeezed lightly "Squeeze my hand as hard as you can, Gee." and he did, not very tight but it was something "Okay good, can you tell me five things you can see?"

*^Gerard^

*"Ca-Ca-Cars... a b-bird... yo-you" I took a convulsive breath before continuing "Okay, good, two more Gee" Frank coaxed "Win-windowsill a-an-and th-the sn-snow" I watched intently as he smiled warmly at me "Okay, Four things you can touch" I screwed my eyes shut and squeezed his hand, tighter than the previous time.

*"You-your hand... th-the chair... fu-fucking sc-scratchy ass scrubs, god I wish I coul-could wear my rea-real clothes..." I said that because I knew Dr.Glenn was present "Perfect, One more, Gerard" I swallowed thickly "Does co-cold count?" I questioned "Yes, that's fine Gee... three things you can hear"

*That was a harder one, every sound is blending together... "Tal-talking... a lot of it... passing ca-cars, and... Dr.Glenns radio thing..."
*"You're doing great Gee... two more... give me two things you can smell and then one thing you can taste"

*"I can smell... antiseptic and the gross food we have... and I can taste the salt from my tears..." by now the panic had alleviated and everything seemed to have silenced to a halt and Steven was no longer present.
*"You did spectacular, Gee. You better now?" Frank inquired "Much... thank you, Frankie..." I whispered "Wow... Frank, I'm very impressed" Dr.Glenn praised, which is odd for her. "I learned that from my psychiatrist just before I was thrown in here" he informed; "Now if you don't mind... I'm gonna take Gerard back to our room" he stated before helping me up and walking me back through the crowd of people and down the hall into our room.

*I ended that day curled up next to Frank as he gently continued to keep me calm...

*I was undoubtedly falling for this boy.

Notes

This chapter took longer than expected, im sorry.