Homeland
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Gerard’s POV
“Can’t you prescribe him something different to that? You are aware he is a recovering drug addict.” Frank said as he looked at the medication I was given to go home with.
“Frank it’s fine, I don’t have to take them.” I said quietly as I caught hold of Frank’s hand feeling exhausted and just wanting to go home.
“Did you want the tablets or not?” Frank asked looking at me and I shook my head.
“No I don’t want them, I’m just getting myself back to normality again and I don’t want anything in the house which could lead to a relapse.” I said quietly and Frank kissed the top of my head which made me feel a little better in myself.
“Mr Way it’s for the best you have the pills, the pain in your ribs are going to be bad.” The doctor said and I sighed loudly as I stood up and caught back hold of Franks hand before he killed the doctor.
“I’ve been in worse pain and I’m not risking my sobriety for a tiny bit of pain. Now I’m going home.” I said as I picked my discharge papers up.
“The eating department would like to see you in two weeks.” The doctor said and Frank took the paper from him.
“We’ll be there.” Frank said and we both walked out of the room and out of the hospital.
We walked through the front door and the place was spotless and I knew Johanna had been here since Frank was with me for the whole time I was in hospital.
“That girl sure has been busy.” Frank said as he turned round to look at me.
“Yeah, she’s pretty much been living here while you was away. I hope you don’t mind that.” I said as I gingerly looked up at Frank’s face and he was smiling softly at me.
“I don’t care that she stayed round with the baby because not only did you need her but she needed you as well.” Frank said and I smiled at him as Frank walked over and took my bag from me.
“I’ll go and put the washing on as well as making us both a coffee.” Frank said softly and I nodded and Frank kissed me softly which I returned as I looked down and saw my ring was missing.
“Have you got my ring?” I asked as I walked into the kitchen and smiled at the flowers Johanna had brought to brighten the kitchen up.
“I do have your ring.” Frank said as he walked over to me and took something off his finger and held his hand out for me and I saw my ring.
“I thought I lost this.” I said quietly as I took it out of Frank’s hand and put it on my finger and I felt like I had a bit of Frank with me again.
I looked up at Frank and he was busy making coffee and he had his shirt off and I noticed scars on his back which I never noticed before but he did also have his back covered in tattoos but not round the scars.
Frank turned round and smiled at me as he walked over with the coffee and sat round the island with me.
“So Lily’s are your favourite flowers?” Frank asked as he felt the flowers petals.
“Nope, I actually like roses but Lily’s are Johanna’s favourite flowers.” I said as I sipped on my coffee and hummed quietly.
“I’m going to have a shower.” Frank said as he stood up and walked over to me and kissed the top of my head and I smiled to myself when Frank didn’t push me to join me and I watched him walk towards the bathroom as I picked my mug up and walked into the sitting room and saw Johanna had left a note with yet more flowers but ones which I liked and magazines which I like and I smiled to myself as I sat down as I picked a magazine up and read it as I waited for Frank to finish in the shower.
Me and Frank was sat cuddling on the sofa when my curiosity got the better off me and I got some balls to ask Frank the question.
“How did you get the scars on your back?” I asked and Frank looked at me and smiled softly at me when he noticed me looking down waiting for something bad to happen to me and he lifted my chin up so I could look at him.
“I’m not going to hurt you if you have questions.” Frank said softly and I nodded.
“Now the scars on my back, I got them from when I got kidnapped and they tortured me to get answers out of me.” Frank said and I sat up and looked at him.
“How are you even allowed to still be in the army?” I asked and Frank chuckled.
“I had to take time off, for like a year and then have light duties. But once I was cleared for duty I was back out there again and I couldn’t give a damn about what happened to me.” Frank said and I frowned at him.
“I had PTSD, yeah sometimes I get the odd flashback but it’s nothing like it used to be.” Frank said and I frowned slightly.
“Is that why you find it hard to sleep at night?” I asked and Frank smiled at me.
“Yeah I guess so, but also what I do as well we don’t sleep sometime for up to 3 maybe four days. Home life and tour life are hard to adjust to sometimes.” Frank said and I nodded as I looked at his dog tags.
“Did you have someone before me?” I asked quietly and I looked at Frank who looked down and then looked at me.
“Yeah I did. I thought that he support me and not sleep around while I was gone. But it wasn’t meant to be and then I slept around a lot not wanting to get close to anyone and then I met you and I would never want my life without you in it.” Frank said as his hands went to my hips.
“I’m not like that person, I will support you and I’ll wait for you. Yeah I might a little batshit but I’m working on it.” I said and Frank chuckled softly.
“I know.” Frank said and I smiled at him as I yawned.
“You tired?” Frank asked softly and I nodded as I moved to get off him and I slowly headed towards the bedroom.
I stood in the doorway and frowned at the bed covers as I didn’t notice them before.
“That friend of yours is trying to say something.” Frank said from behind me which made me jump and spin round to look at him.
“That we’re the gayest twats going?” I said and Frank laughed.
“It could be but she isn’t wrong though because we are the gayest twats going.” Frank said and I smiled at him as Frank walked over and pulled me close to him and kissed me which I returned.
“I’m not ready.” I whispered and Frank smiled and kissed my forehead.
“I can wait for you. When your ready just know that I’m here for you.” Frank said and I couldn’t help but smile and lean forwards to kiss him.
Frank gently spun me round and wrapped his arms round me neck and we looked at the bedroom which Johanna had redecorated for us.
“Think Someone is bored of maternity leave.” Frank said and I couldn’t help but chuckle quietly.
“Let her get on with it. At least I know she was out of trouble.” I said and Frank kissed my cheek.
Frank walked round me and walked over to the bed.
“Damn the bitch knows how to decorate.” Frank said as he looked at me.
“I’m in the office if you want me.” I said quietly as I turned round and walked to the office and sat in the floor and looked through the artwork I had worked on.
I looked at one and I felt myself cry as I ripped it out of the book.
“Baby?” I heard Frank say and I looked at him.
“Get it all out.” I whispered and I could see Frank frowning at me.
“Get it all out I don’t want this in my home!” I shouted as more tears rolled down my face and Frank walked into the room and took everything out of the room and once he had done that he then came back into the room and sat on the floor next to me.
“What’s going on baby?” Frank asked softly.
“I can’t have that stuff in this house, I can’t have anything which reminds me off him in this house.” I said quickly as I went to pull my hair but Frank put his hand on my knee and made me look at him.
“I’ll get everything out of the house.” Frank said softly and I sniffed loudly.
“Come on let’s go to bed.” Frank said and I nodded as Frank stood up and he helped me to stand and caught hold of my hand and we went to our room.
Once we walked into the room I let go of Franks hand and walked round to my side of the bed and sat on it and took my top off where I heard Frank gasp and I looked down feeling ashamed.
“Jesus Gee, I knew you lost weight but I didn’t know you was this skinny.” Frank said quietly and I looked down on the floor and found one of Franks tops I’ve been sleeping in and put it on quickly.
“It’s fine, I’ve got this under control.” I said and I felt the bed dip beside me.
“Gee you’re not fine, Christ if I knew you was this thin when you was in hospital then I probably would of thought of saying you had to stay there.” Frank said and I looked at him feeling heartbroken about what Frank said.
“And I am getting better okay, it’s bad enough I was feeling humiliated about having to have a fucking tube up my nose and being forced to eat when I would of eaten by myself. I don’t need you being down my throat.” I said as I stood up and walked out the room and went to the sitting room where I got comfy on the sofa.
“Baby don’t sleep on the sofa, come back to bed.” Frank said as he walked in the sitting room.
“You have the bed and I’ll have the sofa tonight.” I said sadly.
“Babe, I haven’t had one of your cuddles for a fucking long time and right now I could do with one of your cuddles in bed.” Frank said and I sat up and looked at him from over the sofa.
“I won’t bring the weight up. I just want cuddles.” Frank said and I looked down and got off the sofa and walked over to Frank.
Frank pulled me gently towards him and he kissed me which I returned.
You’re still beautiful to me okay.” Frank whispered as he kissed me again and we both got into bed.
I didn’t even have a chance to get comfy before Frank was cuddled into my back and pulled me as close as he could get me to him.
“I’ve missed this.” Frank said quietly and I hummed in agreement.
is this being continued? x
12/14/18