All I Want Is Nothing

We had a late start to our morning, I rushed Mikey out of the house as fast as I could but got caught by my father. Mikey looked at me worriedly but I shook my head at him. I was pulled inside and faced towards my father's angry glair, I swallowed thickly and checked to see if Mikey was gone, and thank god he was. "So you like to be late now, eh? Getting detention, being late for school, whats next? Are you a fag too?" My face heated... No way in hell. Was I...? I mean... FUCK I'm so confused "No sir." I answered He took a deep breath and closed his eyes "Don. Let him get to school, handle it after." My mother ordered causing a fire to burn in my father's eyes. "No." My eyes widened at my father's words, he usually listens to my mother "Whatever." She sighed, knowing there was no use in fighting with my father.

I felt a blow to my cheek, a hard one at that. So hard that I was bleeding with the first hit. "You are one straw away from being kicked out. Boy." My father spat angerly, punching me again. This time I collapsed. "Don, settle down." My mother said calmly before I got kicked in the stomach "Maybe next time, you won't be late!" He spat angerly before pushing me out of the house.

Shakily I stood up and started walking, my head growing dizzy, Before I knew it I was on my knees hunched over. I heard feet running down the sidewalk but didn't look up, not until I heard Mikey's voice "Holy fuck. Were too late, Gerard?!" He slid down next to me "Are you okay? Let me see" I shook my head, whining slightly. "Do you need us to call you an ambulance?" Ray asked "G, look up at me"Franks' voice was shaking about as much as I was. "I'm fine" I argued, "Why didn't mom stop him!" Mikey cried "Because, Mikes." I groaned "They only care about you, not me" I continued "No! Don't say that!" He almost sobbed "Listen, do you guys wanna come back to my place, So we're not in the middle of the sidewalk?" Ray offered. "Yeah, Thanks" Mikey spoke, He and Frank helped me up and walk to Ray's house.

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"Ow, that fucking hurts" I complained "Sorry G, But I have to check for broken ribs. I learned this from my mom" Frank mumbled "Here's some Ice for your face" Ray sighed handing me the ice bag, "Thanks" then there was silence. Until Ray spoke again "You need to get out of there" I sighed "It's not as bad as you think, Ray. And I have to protect Mikey" I argued "I can take care of myself, Gerard. Like you said, mom and dad love me" I scoffed at that "No offense" He continued. Frank sat up with a frown on his face "They're right you know" I rolled my eyes "I have nowhere else to go. Guys." I retorted "You have Elena" Mikey interjected, I sighed... He was right I did have her "Alright, Fine. I'll call her later." everyone smiled triumphantly. "Can we get to school now?"

"Oh look, Jake, Someone already beat us to our job today" Troy laughed menacingly. Great "Yeah, Looks like they did" Jake agreed. I was currently sitting alone at our table, it was lunch time and Frank Bob Or Ray was nowhere to be seen. "P-Pl-please go away" I stuttered, "Awe, stutter boy cant handle it?" Troy jeered, pushing my head "St-Stop" I pleaded. "Or what? No ones around to protect you!" Jake laughed "Actually, fuck face. I am so beat it." Franks' voice spoke harshly "Ohhhh, so scared of the emo faggot" Jake turned around, looking at a rather pissed off Frank. "Whatever. We'll get you later, Gayrared." Troy called from over his shoulder.

"You okay G?" Frank asked once he sat down "You don't have to defend me you know... I've put up with this for four years now" I sighed, to which he frowned "Well I'm going to anyway. You don't have to put up with it as long as I'm here" He stated, very matter of factly.
To which I just sighed, knowing I wouldn't win this. I just stared at him, with a slight frown on my face "What?" He mused, a small smirk on his face, My face went red and I looked away. "Gerard what?" He laughed "No-Nothing" I cringed at my stutter "Are you okay, G? You're stuttering..." He commented, I just shrugged and looked away. "Did I do something wrong?" He asked worriedly, my eyes widened and I looked at him panicked "N-No, No-Not you" tears brimmed my eyes "Ju-Ju-Just them" He nodded "I do-don't wa-want you ge-getting hurt" he shook his head "I won't, Gerard, I promise."

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"He-Hey, Elana?" My voice shook, along with my body... "Ahhh, Gerard, dear how are you" I sighed "Not too good," I said truthfully, Looking over at my brother and Frank, who gave approving smiles "What? Why is that... Is it, Don again?" He voice held disgust. I sighed "Yeah... I need out..." I heard her take a breath through her nose "I see, Well you know my door is always open to you, Gerard. Right?" I laughed lightly "How soon do you think I could come?" I wondered, she laughed "Sweetie, you can come now if you'd like" I nodded, though she couldn't see it "Thank you, I'll be there soon"

"I'm so happy you'll be safe now, G," Mikey said happily. I nodded and smiled slightly "If anything happens, Please don't hesitate to come over, Mikey," I said seriously. He shook his head "I'm sure it won't." he insisted, I shot him a worried glance but he only smiled. I sighed "well I guess I should get packing, before dad-" That's when there was a loud slam... "....Gets home" I mumbled. Great. "GERARD, WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU?!" My heart plummeted. Soon my door was swung open and he looked furious. "I knew you were a faggot" His words cut like daggers... I wasn't, no... and this couldn't happen. "I want you out of my house. Mikey, get away from him before his gay rubs off on my perfect son." I felt the tears creep up, even more so when Mikey had obeyed. "I-I-I'm not gay..." I sniffed...

Was I?

Could I be?

Maybe Bisexual?

"Come on, G" Franks voice cut through my panic. Where was I coming on to???

"Gerard" His voice came again, more worried this time "Stop being gay in my house, He's just being dramatic" Don's voice came angerly, I call him Don at this moment because he is no longer my father. "Dad, leave him, please... He's upset enough right now" Mikey pleaded. Why couldn't I see anything? "Gerard? I'm going to move you outside okay? It's me, it's Frank" I heard his voice through my haze of panic.

"Okay G, It's okay. You're outside now. Breathe... It's me, It's Frank, I'm here" I felt the tears running down my cheeks... I wanted to tell him about how I thought I was gay, but I didn't wanna risk him hating me. I took a deep breath through my nose and opened my eyes to see Frank, sitting there with a worried expression on his face. "You okay now? G?" I nodded and smiled slightly "Thank you... Fr-Frank" he smiled fully "It's no problem G" he insisted, I then heard feet from behind me. "Here, G..." Mikey said sadly, handing me a garbage bag "Your clothes" I nodded "Thanks, Mikey." He smiled sadly at me before my father's voice spoke "Come on Mikes, Before his gay rubs off on you. "I'm not..." I whispered...

"It's okay if you are... Gerard" Frank said wholeheartedly "Bu-But..." He cut me off "Gerard, It's okay. You can be gay if you're gay... I won't judge you" "I do-do-don't kn-know..." I mumbled, he nodded "I don't know either, if that makes you feel better." I looked up at him "I used to think I was 100% straight, but then... This guy. I don't know he just makes me happier" I nodded "Same..."

Notes

Things a shaping up!
(TO BE PRETTY ODD)
Okok but seriously frarard. will be happening soon.